(This is the final story in the "4U" series. To experience them to the fullest, it is recommended that you read them in the following order: I'm a Slave 4 U, Even the Stars Fall 4 U, Bent 4 U, Kill 4 U, I Would Die 4 U, 4 U 2 B Free, This Is Just 4 U, I'm Coming 4 U, and finally this story.)
"All 4 U"
Surprisingly, I don't often experience gaps in my memory. You'd think that a service unit would constantly have to contend with stretches of missing time, actions that are inexplicable, compulsions we don't understand but can't resist... but honestly, it really doesn't work that way. It doesn't have to. When your will is completely subsumed to the perfect control of your Master, when you're so deeply and thoroughly brainwashed that you think anything you're commanded to think, that kind of mental legerdemain simply isn't necessary. Only the woman on the surface obeys without thought or memory. Unit 4U can always relax into the bliss of perfect dedication to my Master's will.
Which is why it's a little surprising to look down at the text message on my phone and realize I don't remember anything I did prior to receiving it. 'All service units within 1.2 miles of the Emerson Tower,' it says, 'converge on Conference Room Vandenberg and prepare to restrain rogue individuals.' I know I'm in the Emerson Tower right now, I know I'm perhaps three floors up from the Vandenberg Room, but I don't know how I got here. I don't know what I was doing a few moments ago. I don't know anything at all. It's an unfamiliar, disconcerting situation, and I don't seem to be able to find a command to slot my amnesia into in order to fit it into the soothing network of instructions that comprise my personality within my host body.
But a command is a command is a command, and I find comfort in the soothing rhythms of obedience. I rise from the computer terminal I've been sitting at-it's a terminal deep in the sub-basements of the Emerson Tower, responsible for certain key functions of the command network that instructs the service units to obey. Have I been working on the terminal? It would explain why I have missing memories; from this room, I could send out instructions that would reconfigure a slave's loyalties, consciousness, even identity. Most of the major functions are locked off to the Directors, of course; even the most confident owners rarely put the leash into their pet's hands. But I could see myself following a seemingly-innocent instruction that wiped out the cached history of my service to the MKPerfect Corporation.
I realize that something's odd there, as I let myself out of the server room and stride quickly down the hallway to the service stairwell. Other service units stream out into the hallway, each one following the same direction and each one with the same slightly bemused expression on their face that tells me they're experiencing the same confusion. We shouldn't be able to think about the MKPerfect Corporation. We shouldn't be able to think of the Directors as people with identities, names and faces and addresses. These are things that are surgically excised from even our deep selves, an exception to the rule that a service unit always knows what they need to know to obey. The Directors take no chances on that score. And yet, I can name all seven of them. I even know that six of those seven are service units just like me, brainwashed into compliance so total that their waking selves think they're in charge of the board. Why?
It's not that I don't have a Master. I can feel the perfect, glorious, inexpressible beauty of obedience pulsing away in the back of my mind. I don't know anything that's happened to me more than five minutes ago, I don't know how I got here or why I'm doing what I'm doing or where my Master is or what her name is or anything about her, but I know I'm Service Unit 4U and I have a Master. And she's commanded me to go to the Vandenberg Room, along with maybe a dozen other slaves. I'm glad it's a big conference room. It's going to be very crowded.
The more I think about it, the more I notice tiny discrepancies between the way I think and the way that I know a service unit is supposed to think. I don't know how I know how a service unit is supposed to think; all of my personal memories seem to be walled off save for the last few minutes. I have no experiences to draw on. But I can understand an entire wealth of information about the MKPerfect Corporation and its structures and policies and procedures, and the more I think about them, the more I realize I'm not following the same rules a slave should follow. It's like I'm some sort of parallel-universe version of myself. An off-brand me.
No. Not off-brand. Off-network. As soon as I hypothesize it, I recognize it to be true. I'm Unit 4U, I'm a service unit like all the others, but the control network that gives me my instructions isn't the same as the main system. It's got a slightly different set of command pathways, leading back to a different operator and a different Master. The parameters of my obedience are slightly disrupted as a result, because even though I'm following the same core directives, I'm following them on behalf of someone who apparently doesn't give a fuck whether I know about MKPerfect. My loyalties have been reassigned.
I wonder for a moment if that's what I was doing at the terminal, but no. It would take a Master to create a secondary network like that, and a cunning and foresighted one to nest it inside the systems so that it couldn't be located. Only a Master could reallocate a service unit from one network to the next, and doing it in such a way that it couldn't be traced or reversed would take time and patience. A slave would never get away with hacking the system like that, even if she could conceive of disobedience on that kind of scale.
(I suddenly realize I can. But I've got other tasks to perform. My feet carry me down the service stairwell with confident ease, first one floor then two, as I head toward the Vanderberg Room.)
So what was I doing at the terminal? I suppose I could have been there to erase my own memories. There are certain functions that couldn't be performed remotely, functions that might be necessary if something went vastly wrong with the brainwashing process. If someone-if my Master-had access to a service unit who was 'off-books', and they did something to screw up my head very badly, it might be necessary to restore me to factory settings. Not with a brainwashing suite, but simply by putting me in front of a terminal and telling me to forget everything that happened to me since the day I was created.
But no. That doesn't make sense. If I was that fucked up, why would I follow the order to sit myself down in front of the terminal to begin with? Why wouldn't my Master send the command for me? Unless... unless she can't. Unless she can't access the terminal room because she's no longer on the board, and I know she's not because I know the identities of everyone on the board right now, and she needed me to get inside and send the command. Which I could do, because it's one of a few minor functions that service units can access like allocating identities to new slaves.
So that makes sense. I'm Unit 4U, and my Master managed to get me transferred to a hidden sub-network she created in case of betrayal before she was ousted. We tried to brainwash me again in some new, unique way, and it didn't work. I was glitching in some way that made me unsuitable for use, so my Master commanded me to sneak back into the Emerson Tower, erase my own memories and leave myself a tabula rasa, and then report to the Vandenberg Room, presumably for further programming. It all fits the limited data I have, and I'm vaguely proud of myself for working it all out from first principles.