Note: This story takes place not long after "A Price Paid."
Note: This is a story chapter with no sex.
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Chapter One
"What the fuck are you waiting on, girl?"
The man's old, but still smooth voice traveled up her spine and stomped her soul. Again. She'd long ago learned how to respond without actually listening. She could pick up on key words without thinking about it. Her ears picked up on his exceptionally vexed tone and 'waiting on' as she continued to gather the ale and spirits onto the tray to take them out to be served to another night of drunkards and people generally just waiting to fuck. "Just loading up to get everything out, Mr. Roanes."
The lanky figure behind her was unimpressed. "Every time I look, you're back behind the bar for something or other instead out there like you're supposed to be. All you women ever do is fuck around here and in the back. At least the girls fucking around upstairs make me money.
'All you ever do,' touched her ear. "Sorry, Mr. Roanes, it's busy tonight." Never mind that this was how things worked. Orders were taken, then filled behind the bar or from the kitchen, then those orders were taken to the customer. It was a simple process that mandated that at least half her time wasn't going to be out front. Also never mind that when she was out front he was just as annoyed that orders were backing up. There was no winning.
Short definition of my life.
"Get your ass out there and do your job before I find someone else to do it."
That, she heard a dozen times a night, so, at this point, all it did was cue her brain to say, "Right away, Mr. Roanes."
The rest really was automatic at this point. She walked out with her tray into the shouting of profanities and threats, belly laughs, and clanging mugs and steins as another night passed in the brothel, same as the last hundred nights and same as the next thousand, most likely. This place wasn't one of the nicer brothels in the larger cities like Erette or the unofficial pleasure city of the world of Varane. In brothels like those, things were calm, almost sedate. You could walk in, have a fine wine or spirit, and converse with the near-courtesans about about anything, from the specifics of that wine, to the intricacies of court politics. One could spend an entire night there doing just that.
Mr. Roanes liked to call this place a brothel because he thought it gave the place class and that, by extension, elevated him, but this was a whorehouse, and one of not much repute on top of that. But it was enough money to live and just a little bit extra after she paid her rent. So she dropped two ales at the table with the fat man in red and his friend while giving them her usual smile while they never bothered to look up. She gave two glasses of wine to the table with the scruffy, jowly merchant sailor with Lola on his lap, giving her usual smile while making sure to remember that the one diluted to almost nothing was closest to her and that one went to Lola who gave a wink in return for the smile.
And the tankard of stout went to one of the shadowy corners where Betta was already bouncing vigorously on a cock. Sometimes the men were so hard and anxious to get rid of that hard and their money there was no waiting for a room to open up. Mr. Roanes didn't care. As long as they paid it was fine. He also considered it advertising the skills of his girls. She didn't bother to smile at either of them.
At least she didn't have to worry about being groped overmuch like some of the other barmaids. She was young in body, but that's all she felt as though she could lay claim to in the world, as that body was decidedly unremarkable by itself. Small scars from the blemishes almost everyone dealt with as they grew up marked her face. Hints of almost perpetual fatigue sat under eyes, and, for that alone, she subconsciously avoided mirrors when she could get away with it. As much as she was grateful that she could simply do her job in relative peace, she admitted to herself that if someone actually did paw at her once or maybe twice a year it'd be something she could live with.
Looking at herself now, she couldn't imagine herself when she was old.
How much different would it really be?
she wondered in those moments. Some days she felt like she were a hundred years old already, which reminded her of how both her parents looked day in and day out for as long as she could remember. Her father always managed to find a smile and cheer for her and her siblings, though how that happened she honestly didn't know and she'd always meant to ask. He always managed to be grateful for what they had even when it was next to nothing.
Mara wasn't greedy. She didn't need to have more than she could spend in a million lifetimes like any of the High Houses, or be so important that the queen would ask for her company for tea. She just wanted enough to take care of herself, a little beyond that to spend, and not have to work
quite
so hard for it. Or maybe just work in a place not this.
But Mara's life was what it was.
A loud voice and a hard tug at her dress took her from her thoughts. "Lakaberry wine, ya fucking ugly wench!"
She looked down at the man sitting at the table and marveled at the irony of his words given the fact that he was virtually toothless and so gnarled by life that, at first glance, he looked as if he had been born deformed...but only at first glance. She sighed. She'd been called far worse, and the fact that that she had been called ugly by a man whose looks had to improve to make it to ugly actually lifted her spirits in a crazy, backward way.
"Right away," she said, putting on her work smile once again.
"Fuckin' right, right away."