Chapter Five
SATURDAY, the 21st of MARCH - FULL MOON
Now, to tell you the truth, I'm not a screamer. I've been known to let loose with a girlish "eeek" from time to time when I'm really startled, but whether its spooky movies or haunted houses, I tend to cry or shiver rather than actually scream. This, however, was a real, honest-to-God, blood curdling shriek of scream, and I believe it surprised me more than anyone else present. Not only was it a scream, it was the first of a long line of them, and I jerked my hands free from those on either side and crossed my arms in front of my face, palms outward, as if to ward off a terrible blow. I didn't do this consciously; it just happened.
Immediately, I felt hands on my arms and back, and heard sympathetic words of encouragement in my ears, telling me that I shouldn't panic, and that everything was going to be alright. I tried to tell them that I WASN'T panicked, and that nothing was really wrong, but I couldn't seem to get my hands to move, and I most certainly couldn't seem to stop that infernal screaming.
Eventually, Jo, sitting in front of me, took hold of both wrists and slowly pried them apart, saying patiently, "Jane, Jane, it's okay! You're safe now, Jane! Stop! It's okay!"
The others, too, kept calling me Jane, and I tried to tell them they were confusing themselves and me as well, but I just couldn't seem to get my mouth to work. I looked around at the other very naked women, but I couldn't seem to get my head to move in the direction I wanted it to go. Finally, however, my screams stopped, and my gaze settled of its own accord on Jean. I whimpered once or twice and threw my arms around her, hugging her tightly. Or I should say that my arms flew around her all by themselves. It finally dawned on me that something was very, very wrong with my body.
"Jean!" my voice was saying. "There was an accident! There was a truck! It hit me, I'm sure! Oh, God, Jean, it was terrible!"
My voice was saying this, but I was not. I could feel everything. I could feel Jean's arms holding me, her breasts against mine, I could smell her hair, but I had no control whatsoever over what I was doing or saying.
The others were crowding around, holding me as well. Everyone was crying. Everyone but me, that is, and I could feel the tears streaming down my cheeks unbidden, as well. I wanted to say something silly to break the tension, yell "Group hug!" as a joke or something, but of course, I couldn't do anything. It's common knowledge that quite often, when something strange is happening to a person, it is the person herself that is often the last to figure it out. So it was that I finally began to realize that Jane, their Jane, the fifth sister Jane, Herman's Jane, had somehow taken firm possession of my body. And yet, I wasn't to be the last to know, after all.
(I should mention at this point that the remainder of this chapter is going to appear a bit disjointed. The warning I gave you about tense at the beginning of this narrative is slowly coming to the fore. For now, when I say that "Jane" did or said something, it's important to stress that it was MY body that did the acting, MY voice that did the speaking. The fact that "I" had no control over those actions or words was, without a doubt, the most confounding and frustrating thing that I have ever experienced. I have never been so utterly helpless.)
"I DIED?" my mouth was saying. Everyone seemed to be talking at once, and at last, Jo, the oldest and the leader, moved back and called for order.
"Jan came up with the plan," Jo was saying, as the group finally backed away from the person who had been me. "She found a spell that would hold your soul in limbo until the next equinox."
"Equinox?" asked Jane. "How long have I been ...."
"Four months!" chimed Jan and Jill, together.
"Before we go further," Jo said seriously, "we are all dying to know. The other side, Jane. You were there! Tell us! Tell us everything you remember!"
I felt my brow furrow, my eyes shift. "I ... It ... It just happened!" said Jane. "Just now! There was the truck, and I screamed ... and ... and I closed my eyes, and ... and ... I was here! There WAS nothing else!"
From the look on her face, Jo was immensely disappointed, but she tried to take this in stride and continued. "We all worked together to get you back among us," she said. "We cast the spell at the instant the spirit left your body. Jill spent weeks in Mama's library and found several ways to transfer your soul to another entity, but there was only one spell that would return you to human form. It hadn't been done in centuries! And with good cause. The donor had to be perfect, but we found her!"
"Donor?" asked my voice. My eyes moved downward. "Oh! Oh, Jean! I've got boobs!" My body jumped to its feet, and immediately, my hands began roaming over my body. The others were giggling uncontrollably. Holding a breast under each palm, my hands bounced, felt, tweaked and caressed them. "My God, they're huge! They're TWICE as big as mine!" Well, I wouldn't go THAT far. "A mirror!" Jane shouted. "Where's a mirror?"
She began running (which is not a graceful sight when my breasts aren't restrained in a bra - they tend to bounce in all directions at once), looking first in the kitchen, then down the hall and finally into the master bedroom. The sisters, laughing, followed. There, on the back of the bathroom door, was a full length mirror, and she stopped my body in front of it, obviously enraptured by the sight of me.
"But it IS me!" she proclaimed with my voice. "It's me with red hair and big boobs!"
As her sisters giggled, Jane made my body turn this way and that. She played with my breasts. "Do you think they're TOO big?" she worried. Then she ran my fingers through my hair, and finally dipped one of my digits into my most private part. I tried desperately to stop this process, but all my efforts had absolutely no affect on her control over me.
She removed my finger, rubbed it against my thumb, and sniffed it. "There's been a fox in my hen house," she said.
"It was HERMAN!" shouted Jill, giggling.
"Herman?" my voice questioned. "MY Herman? Herman with this woman?" My hand waved toward the mirror.
"It's all really very complicated," Jo said. "The spell Jan found was so difficult to arrange it was almost impossible. We had to find a doppelganger, a woman who was so like you she could be your twin. But it would only work if she loved, and was loved by, a man who had loved and was loved by YOU."
That took awhile to sink in. I replayed the sentence in my mind several times before I could get the gist of it.
"And Herman was in love with her?" Jane said at last, staring again at the mirror.
"Through mutual love spells," Jo continued. "Jean set it all up, casting the characters in a rather elaborate little play. She set up the woman's actions, then arranged for Herman to be in the right place at the right time. He's been pretty distraught, as you can imagine, and it was easy to guide his actions through hypnosis. He was very reluctant, but he did exactly as we'd planned. When they consummated things last night, all the elements of the process were completed, and the mutual spell took effect. Then, after they did it again this morning, we lured him away for the real spell. You see, his seed in her was the catalyst, the link between the two of you: you and this woman. We cast the spell that would bring your soul into her body at the exact moment of the equinox."
"And she was OUT, and I was IN," Jane said triumphantly through my lips, studying the mirror, running my hands up and down my sides. It took her several seconds to realize the guilt behind the look the others were giving her. "What?" she asked, facing them uncertainly. "What is it?"
Since Jo, Jan and Jill were glancing accusingly at Jean, Jane turned my head to look at her, as well. "What is it, Jean?"
Jean looked down at her feet for a few seconds, building up her courage, then shifted her gaze directly into my eyes. "She isn't out, Jane," she said resolutely. "She's still in there. She's in there with you."
My eyes blinked several times. My lips moved without sound.
Finally, Jane spoke accusingly. "You left her in here? You left her in my body?" She spun to face the mirror. She was looking directly into the eyes of the reflected woman, trying to seek me out and find me. I tried with all my might to show her that I was, indeed, in there. Nothing. I couldn't blink or shout or call her a bitch (which was what I really wanted to do). I was just along for the ride.
"Why?" she said. I could almost feel her anger. "How could you leave someone else in the body you picked for me? And someone who's been with Herman?"
"She's a good person," Jean said resolutely. "She didn't deserve to be cast out. We're not even sure where she would have gone. The spell book didn't say."
"ANYPLACE but in here with me!" My body rounded on Jean, my eyes compressed to angry slits. I've never spoken to anyone in a tone like that. Never. "How could you Jean? You love me! And how could you guys LET her talk you into it?"
"Told you so!" Jan spat at Jean.
"It took five of us to make the transfer," Jo said patiently. "The girl and the four of us, as the five points of the pentagram. Jean refused to sacrifice the girl, and we couldn't complete the spell without her. We HAD to do it this way." Jo took a deep breath. "Look," she continued. "You know Jean. She has trouble stepping on a bug! You can't really expect her to kill another human being. She kept saying that to do so would be stepping into the Black side, and maybe she's right."
"She's an innocent, Jane," Jean implored. "She really is! I've never met anyone so ... so ... sweet!"
But Jane was silent in my body, and turned back to study the reflection in the mirror once more.