Early morning hours are always foggy, not just the air but the head seems to be too. For some reason the brain seems to be sluggish as long as the clouds cover the sun. Perhaps that is just a metaphor for my marriage.
For five years I have been married to a wonderful and talented, strong willed goddess. For the first three years sex wasn't just sex, I used to call in sick to work just to stay home and in bed, or the kitchen, bathroom and ect... Then my wife miscarried and we were past devastated.
Of course I threw myself into work. Staying late and stressing over new accounts seemed to be the only thing that would calm my aches. My wife didn't work, I provided enough to live very well so she wouldn't have to, and think that's what hurt her the most. She had all the day to think about it and never healed.
Halfway into the forth year and we were fighting everyday. I was never home, she never left the house and that amazing sex... stopped altogether.
Finally one day my wife broke down.
"Jon," words pushing through the sobs, "I can't be here anymore."
"What? How do you mean?"
"All day long I sit here watching TV then I go upstairs and exercise. Afterwards I take a shower and finger myself to Internet porn remembering your cock or at least try to remember. Its been so long since you and I have made love..."
Through my bewilderment I asked, "What about Valentines Day?"
"Next week is the Forth of July," her voice now more angry. Then a calm came over her, suddenly almost automatically. "But all that is about to change. You see I called in for you today as well as this week. You and I have plans."
"But Sophie, I have the Zabruter account this week..."
Then she pulled a group of papers from her dresser, and my heart sank immediately.
"You have no choice Jon, its either you come with me or I leave without you."
To this day I can't tell you why I was so reluctant to go at first. I guess work became habit or an addiction and it was all I did. Hell I didn't even jerk off anymore, to afraid to stain my suits. However, I agreed and off into the countryside we went.
She said she was going to drive so I could sleep and be rested. We listened to classical music for some strange reason and I of course knocked right out.
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I never dream about sex anymore, and never like this, but during the ride my dream was unlike anything before.
My wife pulled the car over at one of those stops that just have pay phones tables and bathrooms. I remember looking at the freeway and seeing all these cars go by but not seeing any parked here as I walked to the restroom. By the way I never trust sitting down in these places so of course I just stood at the urinal and relaxed. Just as I stopped I heard a whisper and felt two hands on my crotch.