Standing against the wall, away from the activity of the party, June rested herself and took in the sight of co-workers conversing, having fun. "Fun" was probably a subjective word as she had to fight back an urge to yawn. She wasn't the only one standing against a wall at the venue, but no one occupied more solitude than her as she scrolled through content on her smartphone. It wasn't really a boring party, but it certainly wasn't as glamorous as advertised in the planning phase.
June worked at a greeting card establishment. Not even close to the size of Hallmark, but the intention of it was to someday rival them. It was the kind of place that had it in them to want to celebrate every big holiday, especially on the day of, when their cards had already been sent out, and were gaining them the revenue they needed to thrive, or some months, survive.
As business was booming that year, someone had the bright idea of celebrating outside the office. They had a connection with the owner of a dance club where they celebrated Valentine's Day, and for a generous rate and favor, they had the place all to themselves. For June, it seemed unfortunate as it imitated her high school prom almost exactly. The beautiful people having fun in the center, the less attractive standing a ways away, and June having her eye on someone who barely knew she existed, her Australian heart-throb Auggie.
Even if she upgraded her opinion of her looks from ugly to plain over the years, she still lacked the confidence to do what some girls around him were already doing - dancing.
"Nice party," someone next to June asked.
June turned her head quickly to see a woman standing near her. Caramel-colored hair, facial beauty resembling starlets from 50 years ago, and a nice figure were the first things she noticed about the woman, and despite not looking below her shoulders, she could tell the woman was statuesque. Looking out at the crowd like June was, quick, friendly smiles were exchanged as they glanced at each other.
June didn't know how to respond to her comment except to politely smile, so she let silence fill the air, while the other was happy to fill it.
"Reminds me of high school; people off to the sides, at the center. Minus the dancing, I guess."
"So why aren't you at the center with the other beautiful people," June asked in her head. It was very perplexing to be standing next to someone who looked like she could've been a head cheerleader. June was a decade past her prom, and yet an insecurity grew in her, as if she was going to be set up for a cruel prank beautiful people play on plain ones. Most of the office was a friendlier bunch, but the occasional prank was expected among them, even if they'd been good-natured up to this point. Looking around, she started to notice a few unfamiliar faces, and realized one of the staff said that a few employees under the club owner might show - their little off-time before having to work on Valentine's. She could only assume her new acquaintance was part of that.
"Yeah," June finally contributed. "At least the dress code is more relaxed."
"True. Casual does have its advantages."
June noticed the she was wearing jeans, flats, and a sweater. The way she wore it, she was doubly happy no one suggested more than casual wear for the party, afraid of how she could be put to shame next to the stunner next to her.
"I'm Camille, by the way."
June half-expected her to reach out for a handshake, but given her name and another friendly smile from Camille made it much easier to extend the same courtesy.
"June. Nice to meet you."
June looked out amongst a few of the clusters of people talking, and saw the club owner Denise chatting a co-worker, and someone she didn't recognize.
"You work for the host?" June asked, cordially contributing to the conversation.
"No, just friends; dropping off something for her. Didn't even know she had parties this early."
"I think she worked something out with an organizer from my office."
"You might've gotten lucky with Denise; don't know that many clubs that would open early for a private party." Camille knew that was a half-truth, as the right amount of money or influence could loosen a club owner's policy on that, and that a group like this probably lacked both. Denise was nice about things like that though, about as nice as Camille could be, which helped cultivate a friendship, work-involved or not.
"I hope you're having fun."
June couldn't think of any way to positively spin it; fearing anything that came out of her mouth might sound sarcastic, she held back from saying anything, even if that alluded to an answer. If the silence would endure long enough, she would automatically go back to her phone, giving the impression of multi-tasking between it and the non-conversation she was having. That notion didn't last long with Camille.
"As presumptuous as this is, may I make an observation?"
June looked back at her, nakedly reacting to her question, face full of surprise and disarray. There was little observation to make about some like her, from someone who looked like Camille, that would've been positive, according to June's own experience. The question was almost as strange as how it wasn't asked in a sardonic matter; she had a "big sister" tone of voice, the kind she wished her older sister actually had when she was having problems.
"O...k?"
"It's probably best if you go over and talk to him."
"Who?" June feigned ignorance.
"The guy you've been staring at across the room since before you found me standing next to you."
June maintained the facade as well as she could, confusingly looking out at multiple people in the crowd, looking everywhere but where Auggie stood. She looked back at Camille to see her looking squarely in Auggie's direction. Her lips formed something between displaying happiness and concern. "Consideration" was the word June's inner thoughts derived.
"I know, it's none of my business, and we've barely met. Really not trying to toot my own horn, but I have an eye for things like this. I see it all the time, people feeling but not acting on their impulses. I can't say whether those impulses are good or honorable, but if I get a sense that the people are good-natured, it saddens me to see them at least not try."
Camille was given an incredulous look; it slipped a bit as her eyes quickly shifted down, and seconds later back in Auggie's direction before looking back.
"Walls like this are an easy comfort zone; the safest place to avoid social embarrassment. I don't know if this is your first, but I've had several like this to cling to, afraid of the person I really wanted to talk to toward the center. Jim Sands was the last guy I looked at from across a room, with pining eyes."
"How long ago was that?" June asked, unsure if what she was being told was true, but interested in where the story went.
"Seven years ago. I was breaking out of my shyness from grade school, but some guys with the right features could still give me butterflies, and I'd find myself fluttering all the way back to a wall, wondering if he'd think of me as a pretty butterfly or underdeveloped caterpillar."
"Maybe she had plastic surgery done seven years ago," June told herself sarcastically at hearing the caterpillar line.