It all began when I was a sophomore in college. I was young, immature, pretty, and arrogant to a fault. I thought I knew it all. When I visited a 'secret' group of witches, wondering if they would welcome me or not, I became angry when it was clear they would not welcome me to their precious wiccan.
The young witches even went so far as to insult me, telling me I had no talent within the astral plane. As a result, in my anger I expressed contempt for the idea that they -- or anyone -- could do magic. Their non-reaction further infuriated me. I guess you could say I had issues, back then.
I knew I had some innate ability, and I could tell they knew it, too. What it all came down to was that they simply didn't like me. Well, to hell with them, thought I!
The group of witches were all quite attractive, putting the lie to the image that witches were ugly. It was something I said, I suppose, but the youngest of the witches took an interest in me; she could see through me, and she saw my wound, manifested as anger, at being rejected. I was too smug to see it, so it never occurred to me that when she told me she gave me a gift, she might have been telling the truth.
"When your birthday of the tenth entry in the Fibonacci sequence occurs, blink rapidly three times, and you will see things nobody else can see. Blink three times again to stop. Use your new power wisely, or it will be your undoing," she said, rather self-importantly I thought at the time. "Use it well, and you could become powerful."
Yeah, right, I thought. I knew all about the Fibonacci sequence and the tenth number in it is 34. I had just turned 20, so I'd have to wait fourteen years to see if her prediction were true, and if that "gift" actually existed. What a load of crap!
I was 20 and arrogant and in college, but I had one major fault, that even I recognized. I was terrified of sex. Not of sex per se, but of good old-fashioned fucking. I don't know why I was so scared. Part of it was fear of the unknown, I suppose. I had taken the precaution of birth control pills, so it was not the threat of an unwanted pregnancy, nor was it especially of disease; it was simply an irrational fear.
This fear had its consequences. When it was time to get intimate with a man, I would buy him off with a handjob. Sometimes I had to give the man a blowjob. I'd even more rarely let him fuck my tits. Once -- and only once -- I let a guy fuck my ass. It was clear I was not going to get away from the guy without letting him fuck me, so I managed to buy him off with the girt of my virgin ass.
I'm thin. I've always been thin. I'm not anorexic thin or anything, I'm just naturally thin, but I have these rather large boobs, and they look even bigger on my diminutive frame. I firmly believe my body attracts a special kind of man. It makes sense: I'm sure different men like different things in a woman's body. For a few men, even the personality matters! (That's a joke, by the way.)
I dress for success. I quickly learned that if I wore baggy clothes, my big boobs made me look fat. If I wear figure hugging clothes, I look hopelessly sexy, and many a man wants to undress me to get at my boobs and well, at various other parts of me, too. Most men of course never did, but more than a few got me naked, and by that I mean down to my panties.
My favorite outfit was my skinny jeans, coupled with a tight sweater that stopped at my tiny waist. It would draw the eye to my waist (assuming said eye ever left my boobs -- my outfit made them look even more prominent) with a little body jewelry in my belly button (a special chromium tiny dangling chain), and a special belt. The belt had lots of brass charms embedded into it. I thought I looked hot, but not at all in an in-your-face way. Subtlety: that was me.
My senior year it finally happened. Evan got the prize all of my previous suitors had wanted. The key to having sex for someone like me, I finally learned, was Xanax. Lots and lots of Xanax. I became a big believer in pharmaceuticals. Drugs however are a double-edged sword, and when someone slipped me ecstasy at a party, I unraveled. My true nature revealed itself to the world, as well as to me!
At that fateful, shameful, and ultimately humiliating party, Evan seduced me. That, in and of itself, was no big deal, since we had a regular thing going on. What was different was that it was in the middle of a party, with six other people around us. I don't know what Evan ultimately wanted, but he kept removing items of my clothing, and I guess due to the ecstasy coursing through my body, I didn't seem to mind.
With my bra off he played with my boobs, all the time while kissing me. People were staring at us, but that just seemed to turn both of us on even more. Soon my yoga pants were down and off, and all I was wearing were my pink lace panties, as Evan's hands seemed to be all over my body. At one point I noticed Evan had four hands, and by the time I got a chance to look, I discovered that Mark was playing with my boobs while Evan was removing my panties.
It was totally freaky and also kind of thrilling (again, I blame the ecstasy) to have two men enjoying my body at once. I couldn't decide if I should freak, or just give myself in to it, relax, and enjoy the flight. I chose the latter (again, blame the ecstasy).
At the same time I was being molested, I saw Judy giving Leo a blowjob. Once Leo filled her mouth with his cum, Judy was then passed off to Hank and he fucked her! Right there, in front of everyone, myself, and God. The two of them went at it like reborn rabbits. What a slut, I thought, but was I behaving any better?
Where was my horror at this blatantly public sex of Hank enthusiastically fucking Judy? Where was my outrage? Where was my fear for myself, given the direction things were going, all too rapidly? Lord only knows, but it wasn't there with me, any of it; all that was there for me was the giggles. And Mark. Oh yes, Mark was there for me, and he was all over me, as was Evan.
Soon, very soon, actually, I was lying on my back with a naked Mark on top of me, kissing me and playing with my boobs. I was kissing him right back, and I lovingly stroked his muscular, naked back. His bare flesh felt divine, his kisses tasted good, and his hard cock against my tummy made me feel sexy and desired. My usual reluctance born of fear and self-respect was gone; it had vanished into the night. So too had my panties, my last vestige of humility.
As we kissed, Mark gave a slight push to my legs, and they parted easily and rapidly, like the Red Sea once did for Moses. Mark then slid his body in between my wide-open legs, sliding down my body just enough so that his nice, hard cock, was at the entrance to my soul, no longer blocked by my panties. Oops.
My response was to giggle some more. I looked at Evan and saw that he was already fucking Marybeth. WTF? Evan, my Evan, my very own boyfriend, was fucking Marybeth? He was fucking her right in front of me? How could she let him do that? How could he himself do that?
As I had that thought, Mark looked at me. He was once again perfectly positioned. What he did next sealed my fate. He asked me! "May I enter you?" he asked.
I looked at Mark. I looked at Evan fucking Marybeth. How humiliating would it be to verbalize an answer? I was into it. Mark had spoken in almost a whisper, but I answered in full voice, loud enough for sure so that my idiot boyfriend Evan could hear. "Yes, Mark, please! Give me a great fuck. Do your best," I said, and I kissed his hairy chest, giggling as the hair tickled my nose. "Cum inside me, too!" I cried out.
The next sounds I made, however, were loud moans. I've always been a loud fuck, often to my chagrin, as the walls of college dorms are thin and porous to sound. Ascribe it to the ecstasy, or to the eros of the situation with both Marybeth, and Judy too, getting fucked on either side of me, but I was more aroused than ever before, and I enjoyed Mark's fuck to the maximum extent allowable by law. I felt so ashamed to be fucking Mark, and to be fucking him with an audience (!) and ashamed all the more at how much I was loving it!
I didn't cum. I rarely do when fucking, but that doesn't mean I don't enjoy it. I love it. I feel as if the man is making me his own. I love that my body can make a man hard, and make him want to fuck me. It makes me feel alive. I feel desired, and I crave that feeling. I knew it was always the case, but just then, having Mark want me and not just the always already Evan, made me feel especially desired.