By blackrandl1958
This one kinda long, and a mature romance. If that sounds like something you would enjoy, read on. If not, this would be a good time to hit the back button. Mes commentaires sont une zone sans connards. Ne vous embΓͺtez pas. Je vais juste te supprimer. Harddaysknight is my mentor and gives me critical review. Thanks to my readers and editors, Stev2244, Cagivagurl, Hooked1957, SBrooks103x and Hale1. Love you all. Randi.
I was tired. Bone weary and numb. It wasn't physical. Well, it was, but not from work or exercise. I had done both that day, but I was strong and fit, and those were part of my daily routine. This was a mental and emotional exhaustion.
My earlier conversation with Anna was the cause of my exhaustion. It was the same conversation, played over and over, with no change, no resolution and I could tell we were going to have it again. I wouldn't run, but I found it incredibly wearying.
How many ways can you tell someone "I no longer give a fuck?" I had cared, at one time, but my fucks to give had long since been depleted.
"Rogers," she had said in opening. "You know I'm in therapy."
"Yes, you've told me 10 times," I said.
"I'm making progress. My therapist says we made a breakthrough."
"I'm sure you have," I said. "Shouldn't you be having this conversation with Eric?"
She got a hurt look on her face. "No, I don't. How many times have I told you I haven't spoken to him since... that week?"
"I have no idea," I said. "I don't keep track. I know you've mentioned it."
"Well, I haven't spoken to him," she asserted.
"Too bad you couldn't keep from... no. It doesn't matter, Anna. You went to visit your sister for a week. You hooked up with your old boyfriend and banged him for a week. I caught you. I moved out and started the divorce. It will be final in 45 days. It's time to move on, Anna."
"No, it's not," she insisted. "I've apologized over and over. I did a really stupid and selfish thing. It will never happen again. If you would just come to the therapist with me..."
"I won't," I told her. "I wish you all the best, Anna. I don't want to see you suffering, but I'm done. I was done the first time you slept with him. Done, Anna. I won't have this conversation again. Please, just leave me alone." Fuck, it had been six months, and I was tired.
I got up and left. At some point, you lose the ability to be angry, hurt, sad, and the only thing left is what was in your character before you plunged into the nightmare. The numbness and weariness are there, but you'll move on and recover.
I went to work, packed up some things I needed and drove out to the river. This was my place. Anna had what was our home in town, and I had the place on the river. I turned off the highway and stopped for ice at the convenience store on the corner. I noticed someone sitting there against the wall when I walked in, but I paid no attention. It was one of those stores with lots of prepared food on those roller things, and I realized I was hungry. I looked it over. It would be awful, filled with all sorts of unhealthy shit, and delicious. I chuckled to myself. I would get exactly what you would expect from convenience store food.
When I came back out into the sweltering heat, I was going to hurry to the air conditioning of my truck. I noticed two police cars, and three cops were standing in front of the person sitting on the sidewalk.
The local cops had a bad habit around there of harassing the unhoused. I had read an article about them bulldozing a community of tents someone had donated to unhoused people a few miles up the river, and shit like that always pissed me off. Like those people didn't have enough to deal with; cops rousting them was stupid and unnecessary. I stopped and looked at the sitting person. It was a girl, she looked like a waif, probably late teens.
"Hey," I called to her. "You ready?"
The cops looked over at me. "You know her?" one asked.
"Of course," I said. "She's my neighbor. She came with me and was waiting out here."
I saw her shoot me a look and I noticed huge brown eyes, so dark they looked black in the shade of the awning.
I held out my hand to her, and although the cops eyed me suspiciously, they said nothing as the girl rose to her feet and took my hand, grabbing her backpack.
I held her door while she climbed in the truck, walked around and got in. She was hot, sweating, and I started it and got the air conditioning blasting. "Hey, my name's Rogers. I don't think they're leaving." I nodded at the cops. "I'll drop you anywhere you want to go. They'll probably hassle you if we don't drive away."
She nodded. "Okay."
Her voice was low and a little husky, very musical and I thought she would sound great singing jazz.
I pulled away and stopped at the highway. "Where to?" I asked.
She hesitated a minute, then said, "You know where Hayden Park is?"
"Yeah, is that where you want to go?"
She nodded, and I pulled out. The aroma of the food I had was filling the truck and I saw her sniff and her tummy rumbled. She looked at me apologetically. I could tell she needed it much worse than I did, so I passed her the sack.
She wouldn't take it. "I don't have any money." Her voice was almost a whisper.
"I didn't ask," I said. "Look at me. Do I look like I'm about to starve?"
She glanced over and gave me a shy smile. "No."
"You eat it," I said. "It was an impulse buy for me. I didn't need it, and to be honest, here, I shouldn't have bought it."
I got that little smile again. She took the sack. "Okay. Thank you." I could hardly hear her. Another of those impulse things took over and I swung into the Target parking lot. "Can we talk a little while you eat?" I asked.
She looked scared. "Please, Mr. Rogers, I... I... should just go."
I laughed. "Rogers is my first name. I'm really not going to do anything bad to you, I promise. I'm totally harmless. You can ask my daughter. Would you like for me to call her?"
She looked confused. "I..."
"Here." I punched the Snapchat call for Talley. She answered, and I held my phone so my new friend could see. A little blonde pixie appeared on the screen. "Hey, Dad. Whacha doin?" she asked.
"I have a guest," I told her. "This is... I'm sorry, I don't know your name," I said to my rider.
"It's Maia," she said.
"I met Maia at the Quick Mart and some cops were hassling her," I said. "She's getting ready to eat some food we got, but she's a little nervous with me. What do you think we should do?"
"Where are you?" Talley asked.
"We're about seven miles from the river house," I told her. "We're sitting in the Target parking lot."