I tossed and turned all night...alternating between anticipation and nervousness of the forthcoming day. I was going to spend the day aboard a sailboat, with a man I hardly knew. Not exactly a situation where one could just walk away if it turned sour.
Let's see if I can explain this so you would understand. Recently, I went to a meeting of a group that I had belonged to for a number of years. The meetings were held in the early afternoons, which prevented me from attending, since I was working at the same time. Then, I left the area for several years. On a visit back, I made it a point to attend my first meeting.
When I walked into the room, there was a man standing by the door. He looked at me and asked if he could help me. I was frozen in place, by the sheer electricity that I felt. There was no reason for this...I had never met the man before, didn't even know his name and, promptly forgot it the instant he shook my hand. I stayed by his side, meeting people and then sitting by him during the meeting. I don't think I even was aware of what was going on...these feelings were intense. There was NO indication that he was even aware of me, other than making a newcomer feel welcome. After the meeting and a few minutes of chit chat, he shook my hand and he was gone.
However, I knew I was going to be on his email list for any news concerning the group. Again, very generic messages, all business...had I been totally wrong? Then, little by little...a word here and there, and I began to realize that he had, indeed, felt the same attraction.
I don't know where the plans came from, about going out on his sailboat , but I knew I would go and I knew it was right. We both love the water and the sun I just had to be with him.
And the day came - the weather was predicted to be perfect. I was SO nervous, but more from anticipation of what the day was to bring. I didn't know how much space he had aboard, so I wore my swim suit under a tshirt, and a cap with a brim to it. I was to bring the food, and he was going to bring the drinks, which left me with some mischievous ideas.
You have to know that this man loves the sun. He is tall and bronzed from the sun, with short white cropped hair. However, he has a beautiful smile, with many laugh lines around his eyes. His eyes, though, are incredible...I think they are what is known as "bedroom eyes". Brown, and they can be dancing, or mischievous, or deep with feeling, but always with a sense of drowning in them. When he looks at me, I feel like he is seducing me with just his eyes...not even a touch...just a look...and I melt inside.
He changes while we are in the cabin together. I was putting things away in the galley. He said he hoped I didn't mind his changing in front of me. Not exactly in an area where he could do this on deck. I couldn't help peeking at him out of the corner of my eye. Ohmigosh, he had NO tan lines. This man really loved the sun...unbroken tan from the top of his head to his feet. Just to let him know I was okay with his changing, I reached over and gave him a tiny pinch on his butt. He almost fell over from surprise, as he had just lifted one leg to slide his suit on. He stood up, when he could, gave me that melting look, grinned and said something about "payback".
It was turning out to be an incredible day. The sky was a deep blue, with white puffy clouds just floating by. A slight breeze that cooled off my skin...not from the sun, but from the electricity that was flowing between the two of us. Magical day, no sense of time...a world that centered just on the boat and the two of us.
Once the boat is out into deep water and the motor is shut off, I knew he could then turn his attention from the boat. Hmmmm...what to do next? I was sitting at one corner of the cockpit, which was large enough to hold six people comfortably. I was stretched out along one side, to stay out of his way, while he sat at the stern, guiding the boat with the tiller.