I slowly became aware of my body lying against his. He had pulled me in tight somewhere in the night. I lay with my cheek resting on his warm damp chest. The steady sound of his heartbeat was in my ear and I heard and felt him inhale calmly in his slumber. I closed my eyes for a moment and simply let myself feel him, so solid and warm. I heard my own breathing become a little quicker now. I moved my hand to his shoulder and squeezed slightly. It felt good, it felt strong. I felt right.
I tilted my head to look up at him, the curve of his mouth, those lips that had kissed me so wonderfully last night. How had we gone from being teacher and student to being lovers? Now we were wrapped together in an intimate embrace that made me so confident and comfortable. I kissed his eyelid and then softly put my lips to his mouth. I gave him a tender kiss reassuring myself that he was indeed real and that I felt what I felt. I breathed a shakily unconfident breath. So...
But why did I know everything that I was feeling was wrong?
I looked down to the foot of my bed and saw Mackenzie laying there.
She was still my girlfriend. She had been my girlfriend and only lover for the last eight months. I had not been with a man in much longer than that. What had we done? What had I done last night, this weekend?
Neither one of us, Mac nor I, had exactly had been with a man sexually in so very long. It's a wonder we still knew what to do with one. But after having gone between the sheets a couple times now with David and seeing the sated look on his face as he slept I knew one thing had to be sure. We were apparently as sexually adventuresome as those college girls must have been to a young college guy like him. He did come back to my place yesterday for another round of adventure.
I left my two snoozing bedmates together in my big bed. I jumped into the shower in the spare bedroom and was already in the kitchen making us all bacon and eggs when Mac came up behind me. She wrapped her arms around me and kissed the back of my neck as I pushed the spatula around the pan scrambling the eggs. When she released me I looked back at her. She looked incredibly sexy as she always did, this morning her thick dark hair was tousled somewhat more than usual after a night of our own lovemaking. Looks like adding David to the mix made her more rough this morning. The current picture also added something else. As she stood there with the morning sun reflecting off her beautiful face I noticed the shorts she wore yesterday had been replaced by David's boxers.
Mac caught me staring down at them. "Oops! I'm sorry! I hope you don't mind, I borrowed your boyfriend's underwear. Mine were still here in the kitchen from last night. I saw them lying across your hope chest when I came out from peeing. Thought I should be at least somewhat presentable this morning."
"Indeed." I said, going back to my eggs. "I thought it was always the guy that wanted to get in the girls pants. Looks like you literally jumped into David's." Those boxers of David's rode very low on her hips. Of course, she had no top on, which was a usual occurrence anyway when she slept over. I still got a kick out of that cute outie of a belly button of hers.
As I went back to fixing breakfast, Mac spoke up, "You know, I didn't know how I would feel watching you with a man. I mean, not that I ever even thought something like last night could ever have happened, but actually someday I thought you might find a man to be with. And okay, maybe I tried to picture what that would be like. I don't know what I really wanted out of last night to tell you the truth. But I enjoyed it."
Smiling slightly I commented, "I think we all got what we wanted this weekend. All three of us got to explore our like fantasies together. That's all."
"Uh, I don't think so." Mac commented right back.
"What don't you 'think so' about?" I turned with the spatula in hand.
"I think you're already falling for lover boy." Mac said as she reached by me for a slice of bacon off the paper towel.
"No way!" I said, quickly turning back to the stove before she could see my face suddenly blush.
"Yes way. I saw the look in your eyes last night. I also saw how you reacted to his making love to you. We've never made love like that. Not to the point you felt what you felt and then passed out." I could hear her crunch the bacon between her teeth. My eyes watered realizing she knew what I was trying to avoid.
"I may have some feelings for him, but..." I laid the spatula on the counter and turned to face my girlfriend. A tear dripped from the corner of my eye. "I'm afraid I've messed things up with us after last night. I'm so frustrated and horny and confused I could scream."
"I just met David, but he's nice and honestly I think you are good together. You like David, geez, it shines out of both of you. How the two of you can be so blind about how the other feels is beyond me."
"What are you talking about? David doesn't love me. He can't, we've just met."
"You just love, I didn't. No, my dear, you've known one another for years. He's had a crush on you and has not let that go. He told you that himself." She reached her hand across the space between us and touched the back of my hand. "Look in his eyes really hard next time, really look at him. You won't be able to miss how he feels about you, I promise. Take the chance, Ree, feel free to be with him."
"I don't know, Mac. It's all so sudden. I may need time to get used to the idea. One thing is for sure your friendship is too important to me to lose."
"You're my best friend, Ree. You have been since I first met you. You're beautiful, smart and sexy. I have feelings for you I may never have for anyone else ever again." At that Mac let go of my hand and a distant look came across her face even though she stared right at me. "Besides, I've wanted to tell you something, but didn't know how. But now I think I can. Last night was the opportunity to both see what I really need in my life and the chance I've been waiting for to set the stage to tell you."
"Tell me what?"
"I've met this guy. His name is George, and I think we've hit it off. He adores the kids." MacKenzie looked away from me now.
My mixed emotions just became curiously more confused.
"And no, we haven't had sex yet. Well, I did offer to give him a handjob the other night after the kids went to bed. Kind of felt sorry for him for all the hot snuggling we'd been doing and he had no relief or satisfaction for his part. But he wouldn't have it. He wanted to wait. He is the first guy that has ever turned down an offer like that."
She paused and I felt my heart sink, I knew something else was coming. I could feel my eyes water even more.
"I know it's meant to be, Reese. George came along at the right time. Just like David has come along at the right time for you. I think its right for George and me. I think its right for you and David. Maybe he's not the guy you will end up with for the rest of your life, but I can tell in just the last couple of days, you need a man. I can see it in your eyes and you know you can feel it in your heart."
I could not speak at first. I could only feel the water welling abundantly in my eyes as I heard the truth in my friend's words. I choked back emotions that seemed to conflict and yet seemed to be forming anew as I sat there.
Finally, the words did come.
"David is half my age and easily, very easily could have any young girl back on campus he wants. But I do need a man. He seems to know what I want already, and better, knows just how to do it. I do feel it, not just in my body, but yes, okay in my heart. I do want him. I want David."