I've always enjoyed masturbating. The sexual desire inside of me started showing back when I was young. Back when I was 18 and still in education, I'd sit there in my classes and my mind would wander to filthy thoughts and dark dirty sexual scenarios. If we had a male teacher for that lecture he would become the subject of my fantasies.
I would look at the wrinkles around his eyes and his ageing face and imagine how it would look between my legs, with my thighs clamped tight around him. As I am now 22 years of age, I am free to explore my desires, and one I feel strongly still is that the older the man in years, the more I would find myself attracted to him. I would picture myself running my fingers through their greying hair and pushing their head down ensuring his mouth couldn't leave my young juicy pussy until I was satisfied.
When I was 18 years old I was still a virgin, and no man had yet touched me. Frequently I would fantasise about being the only student in an after-lecture one on one essay discussion session. I'd imagine my educator with his strength and age coming over to me and picking me up. I'd imagine him forcing me onto his large oak desk and sliding roughly stretching apart my thighs so he could see my juicy 18-year old pussy.
Imagining myself resisting, fighting him off a little until I realise finally I am too weak and cannot escape. I would want him to force me to spread my legs for him while he felt and probed my body all over. I desired his elderly hands to be paying special attention to the bare skin of my thigh showing above my long white socks.
I'd imagine my pussy getting more excited as he tied me to the table with lengths of old skipping rope leaving me spread eagled, with every private part of me on show.
So, I would often sit there in my lectures with my nipples hard and erect. Back then I thought them such dirty thoughts for a fresh 18-year old. If only I could go back and tell myself all the naughty dark sexual fun in store in the future.
I would often cherish the opportunity to sit alone in the girls toilet between my lectures. The toilet seat closed and I would be perched on top, my knickers around my ankles as I rubbed at my excited pussy. How I treasured these infrequent moments in public when I could sliding a solitary finger up my tight and juicy hole looking for relief but still wishing it was someone else touching me. Fantasising about how good it would feel if it was the janitor's clean but rough hands probing my pussy instead of my own, or even if the hands of one of the other girls in my class.
When I was in my late teens, my parents deemed me more responsible. I would have the family house to myself after my lectures and study had finished for the day. This gave me a gap from 4pm until around 6pm each week day to play in private.
I often walked home aware that my panties were a little wet and sticky, and my mind was full of dark yet exciting thoughts. I'd let myself explore my fantasies, looking for the images which sent a shock of adrenaline through my body and made my nipples stiffen, keeping pussy still swollen and turned on.
As I walked the 20 minutes home I would look at the older men I passed and my thoughts would get carried away, 'Oh! If only that builder would put down his spade and head over to me and pin me up against the tree and force his erection inside me.'
I'd look at the old granddads and want to sit on their lap at the bus stop in my short school skirt. I'd want to wriggle my young 18 year old bum on their lap and try to make them hard underneath me.
At 18 I was old enough to act on my fantasies but I was aware I shouldn't do these things as society frowned upon them. May, December romances were not favoured, but it was such a thrill to imagine sexy scenes with men so many years my senior.
There was a wrinkly old man with a walking stick who lived down my road. Often when I passed his house he'd be outside trimming his immaculate front lawn he was handsome like an old regal war hero. I would always re-adjust my bra in front of him. I would move my just-fully-grown tits around inside the bra cups and tweak my nipples a little. He would always look up and smile at me when I passed. I believe he missed me when school broke up for holidays.
Each evening when I arrived home I would head upstairs to my dad's study. Right at the back of a cupboard was where he stashed his porn collection. I'd found these old VHS films around the turn of my 18th birthday when I was hunting for batteries for the TV remote control and instead found at least 30 porn films, along with a wide selection of porn magazines and stories.