"Throwing Weight Around"
27...28...29....30!
The bench press bar surrenders with an unceremonious clang. Not that there are other tenants in the spartan fitness center, midday on a wintry Wednesday. Arms ache from exertion, but it's minor compared to the throb in my core that's been raging since last weekend's whirlpool shenanigans. Despite the streams I've released in draw-out showers; into an old, crusted sock; into Linda's shorn bush as I fucked her sideways Saturday night and into Sunday morning, there persists a pent up longing for my naughty little neighbor.
Peeling my torso from the bench, I add 20 lb. plates to the bar. Strenuous lifting is the only viable avenue through which my appetite is marginally satiated. I learned this technique when I was a horny high schooler, only slightly older than my son, Tyler, managing my hormones by filling my free time gripping either weights or my pubescent penis with my father's pilfered
Playboys
.
"1...2...3..." I begin again, focusing my breath to beat the burn. I'm struggling through the 20s when an icy gust cools my sweating body. Without wavering my gaze from the ceiling, I know that she's entered, the stale air suddenly infused with her intoxicating aroma.
Finally I sit up and lock eyes with her in the doorway. She hesitates for an instant before turning towards the treadmills without acknowledging my presence. Our paths haven't crossed since steamy dawn waters last Sunday. With her blatant disregard, it's as if it never happened.
Which is perhaps how she'd prefer it
, I tell myself while moving to the leg press. Still, I can't help but notice her bubble butt bouncing in magenta leggings. That perfectly plump ass had rubbed against me so hungrily. And what had I done? Turned it down.
Anger at my foolishness propels me through extra reps. This lithe beauty with soft curves, strong limbs, and a penchant for sexy lingerie had presented herself to me on a silver platter. And I'd balked in confusion and insecurity.
She's too young
, my logical side had hissed, recognizing that Shay, with her 20-something years, is closer in age to teenage Tyler than my greying age.
It's a ploy
, a paranoia persisted, certain that there was a hidden camera; that her boyfriend was voyeuristically spying; that Linda had concocted an elaborate tableau to catch me cheating. My girlfriend, in her late 30s, was an agreeable beauty and companionable presence in my life. We'd met through a dating app for single parents about a year ago and enjoyed consistent, consensual sex and the occasional date while our offspring spent weekends away. I have, however, caught her eyes narrowed upon my phone as I respond to my ex-wife, confirming a drop-off time for Tyler. Suddenly (but not so subtly), the conversation with Linda soured into an inquisition about other women in my life. I insisted that there aren't any others. Last weekend proved otherwise; though Shay is barely a woman. She's more of the nice neighbor girl who always say hello in the mailroom.
And thus, the worst voice of all during our hot tub encounter was that of my critic snarling,
You're too old for her
. Amidst these conflicting desires, I'd settled on finger fucking her, and evidently screwing my chances of ever delving further into her again.
Seeing her sweat drip on the treadmill spikes my pining to taste the tartness that she'd gushed upon my hand, spurring a familiar nag in my gym shorts. Instead I goad my body beyond its limits. Limbs like jelly, I yank a hoodie over my silvery soaked temples, foregoing my cool down stretches as the workout has backfired, vexing my sex drive. Shay's energy in the cramped space has pushed my pulse to southern arousal, and I need my condo's privacy for release.
"Will you spot me?" she asks, interrupting my course for the exit. I turn; see her straddling the bench press with wide-splayed knees.