â â ® Priest
Chapter 01
From the author: Thanks, as always, to kenjisato, without whom, this stuff would not see the light of day. If you don't like religious people involved in sin, then please go and read something you will find more to your taste. I would say the bible, but as an atheist brought up by religious parents who made me go to chapel three times a Sunday, I know the bible, and it does sin a fair bit!
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My name is Peter Phillips. I am 34, and a Catholic priest at a church in Sutton Coldfield, in Birmingham, England. I had wanted to be a priest since I was a teenager. I went to a theological college, and from there, went through training to be ordained. I did this by the age of 26.
I love being a priest. I am very happy in my faith, and with the things I have to do. I love helping people--from talking about their problems, to visiting older people's homes, to performing marriages and funerals.
My only problem--from the age of 18, right up to when the events in this story happened--was that I was tempted by women. Any woman, or girl over 18, I saw or came into contact with--gave me a raging hard-on; as I wondered what they would be like naked and what it would be like to make love with them.
Because of the internet, it was very easy for me to find out about women and their bodies and sex. I soon discovered my particular turn-on was mature women with big tits and very hairy pussies. I learnt all the language from the web. Before I had discovered the web I had been very naive.
As the Catholic church teaches and practises celibacy for its priests, my desires were a big problem. I did nothing to fulfill them, even though I increasingly wanted to. Just the fact I was having those thoughts and feelings, gave me huge guilt, which I had to pray constantly for forgiveness. Fortunately, as I knew God was a loving God, he would forgive me, which made my sin the next time, slightly more bearable!
It never occurred to me to discuss my thoughts and feelings with my superiors. I just worried they would kick me out, and I really wanted to be a priest.
I managed to get through my training okay, even though it was hard. I had to masturbate at least once a night, to get all the thoughts and feelings out of my system, with the number of women I was coming across.
And then it happened. I was appointed to my parish on my own. The one I am still in three years later. And for all but two months of those three years, I have been fucking away to my heart's content. I must make love at least four times a week; sometimes, a lot more.
And I have no problem with the vows I took or my conscience. I would argue I am a better priest because I feel comfortable with myself, now that all the parts of me are satisfied. There will be some of you, of course, who are scandalised, but as you will read--if you carry on--I wasn't the first or last priest to break their vows. And a few nuns as well. This is how it happened...
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I got my first parish after three years supporting another priest. The bishop who appointed me, explained that the parish was a mix of rich and poor areas. At the end of the interview, he said the parish came with a presbytery, with a live-in house cleaner and cook by the name of Mrs. Koli.
I arrived at the presbytery at lunch time on a Saturday, with my three suitcases in a taxi. The doorbell was answered by a middle-aged South Asian woman.
"Hello, father," she said, in a deep Indian accent.
"You must be Mrs. Koli," I said, holding out my hand.
Her hand was very soft with long, slim fingers. She led me into the house. I couldn't help but notice her big-but-shapely bum, which swayed under her sari.
Over the next few weeks, I settled in--I took to the life of a parish priest really well, if I say so myself. I loved all work from taking confession, talking and supporting individuals, to all of the community work with different groups.
The only thing bothering me was my ongoing sexual weakness. And this time, it wasn't just women in general. It had a specific focus--Mrs. Koli. My nighttime wankings had carried on, but it became Mrs. Koli's body that was the star of all of them. She clearly had a very rounded, matronly figure under her sari--big tits, child-bearing hips and firm, thick thighs. She must have been between 55 and 60.
For the first four weeks, I kept my fantasies well hidden. And then it happened.
One morning, I went into the bathroom for my shower. I was tired and had not been concentrating. Usually, Mrs. Koli had taken her shower and was in the kitchen by the time I surfaced. I turned the door handle, and stood there.
All thoughts of entering the room were wiped away by what my eyes saw. Mrs. Koli was standing legs wide apart, totally naked in the middle of the bathroom, directly in front of me. She was drying her hair.
My eyes took everything in. The bushy growth of hair under her arms, her huge-not-quite-so-round tits with big nipples falling down to her tummy. The mass of pubic hair that started in her belly button, which spread wide to the top of her legs and then down the inside between her legs. Because she had her legs apart, I could see all of her front. There were no lips visible, just thick, curly black hair.
With an effort, I pulled my eyes away and looked back up. What greeted me, was totally unexpected. Instead of a look of consternation, shock, anger, or embarrassment, there was a glint in her eyes and a flicker of a smile on her lips. Her eyes then glanced down, and were wider when she looked up again.
I did not need to look down, to know what had given her that look. My cock was as hard as it had ever been under my cassock, and made a rather large tent in the front.
Getting a hold of myself, I croaked out apologies, and fled to my bedroom. I knew I should not have, but I was on my bed instantly, pulling at my cock--it was huge and aroused. I came very quickly sending streams of cum up and over my belly.
When I sheepishly entered the kitchen, Mrs. K was sitting at the table, drinking her coffee. She immediately got up and prepared my breakfast. I ate it in silence.
When I finished I looked at her. "I'm really sorry for barging in on you, naked, this morning," I said, firmly.
"Not a problem." She smiled back, "It's nice to know my body still gets that kind of reaction from a man."
This response stunned me, so I said nothing. Minutes later, I was out to start my day.
I thought about it all day. By the time I got home, I had resolved to put it behind me. I knew I would probably always wank, but if that was the worst I did, I knew God could cope with it.
I was deliberately cheerful with Mrs. K at dinner, who reciprocated. We watched some television together, and there was a comfortable attitude between us.
She went up to bed first, and I followed a few minutes later. When I went into the bathroom, I had my dirty underwear and socks in my hand. I lifted up the lid to the dirty laundry basket, and paused. I had seen Mrs. K's knickers before. They were usually plain white and large. Sitting right on top, were a pair of skimpy red knickers that looked to be satin.
My cock sprang to life immediately. I stood there for a long time. I cleaned my teeth, went to the loo, and then back to my room.
I got into bed. Only then, did I open my right fist. The red knickers were there. I slowly pulled them into shape. I brought the crotch of the knickers to my nose. A very distinct, strong smell hit my nostrils. It had a small element of pee in there, but mostly something I had not smelt before. Whatever that smell was, it was having an amazing impact on my cock. It was as hard and long, as it had ever been.
And when I brought the knickers in contact with my face, it became even harder. The front of the knickers were wet. They were wet! My tongue was out and licking the front before I could stop. The taste was exactly the same as the smell.
My cum hit my nipples, as it exploded out of my cock.
When I woke up, the knickers were on my pillow. This time, my cum covered my belly. I felt the usual guilt. I turned a shade of red when going into the kitchen, finding Mrs. K smiling at me, in her dressing gown, sitting at the table. I said nothing as I ate my breakfast, and she sat there calmly.
During the day, I had my usual battle with myself. I knew what I was doing, in terms of self-love and being sexually attracted to women, was wrong, but I couldn't stop. Also, I knew I did a good job as a priest. Even after only a short time in the position, I was doing well. People seemed pleased with my support, both at an individual and a community level. So why couldn't I do both? Because the church says you have to be celibate, a voice said. But does God say that? another voice said.
I decided I needed to talk to someone. The bishop was out, but then I remembered Father Frank. He had been the priest before me, here in Sutton, and had retired at the age of 75. He was now living in a room in a convent about ten miles away. I rang the convent and fixed a time for the next day.