"At least he could call if he isn't going to make it," she told her chubby, old lap cat, Sylvester.
It was her brother's 30th birthday and they had agreed to have dinner and go out for the evening. Even at 30 years old, Jillian's brother was no more responsible than when he was ten.
The table was set, the salad made, the rolls were probably luke warm by now, the chicken had marinated and was ready for the grill.
"Well, that chicken will keep until tomorrow," she threw a cube of cheese from the salad to Sylvester as she wandered through the kitchen putting things away.
From the time they were kids, Jillian and Jason would spend time together on special occasions when there were no special loves in their lives. This just happened to have been one of those occasions, however, glancing at the clock, she realized he probably did find a date or go out with his co-workers.
Jillian went into her bedroom, slipped out of the slacks and shirt she had chosen for the night and looked in the mirror. Her 40 something figure carried some recognizable signs of age. Her ass was fleshy and round. Having children had left her tummy with a softness that she thought of only as excess weight to be removed. Her breasts were full as ever and sagging with the impact of four decades of gravity. Jillian sighed loudly, ran her hands over her smooth, unmarred skin and haphazardly tossed her hair in a ponytail. She slipped into a pair of running pants and a t-shirt from her alma mater.
"A good night for cleaning, I suppose," Jillian sighed.
Jillian crossed the corridor to the bathroom and dug out her cleaning supplies from the cabinet. She was busy scrubbing the bathtub when she heard a knock at the door. She stood up, almost too quickly, feeling a bit of vertigo as she did so. She walked down the hall to the living room. She quickly looked out the window and saw a handsome, well built man on her stoop. An older man, in his late 50's, David was a retired schoolteacher who had lost his wife several years ago. Her finger tossed a loose tendril of hair into place and answered the door.
"Hello David, " she greeted him. "Come on in, I was just cleaning up a bit."
Jillian's face was flushed with the realization that she looked a mess in her t-shirt and sweat pants. Her smile was bright as she showed him into her humble, yet carefully decorated home.
"Hello there, Jillian. I won't keep you." He smiled with a twinkle is his eye realizing that she probably didn't mind the interruption.
Jillian giggled and said, "Oh, keep me from the dreaded bathroom!"
"Well, all I needed was to borrow a long matchstick. I was just getting ready to light the grill and realized I had nothing to light it with."
"Sure, Jillian said as she handed David a box of matches, "You may as well take the whole box, my brother never showed for dinner as planned." Jillian's voice betrayed her frustration and disappointment.
"In that case, would you care to have dinner with me? " David asked. "It is just steak and potatoes, but there is plenty for two."
Jillian thought for a moment, realizing it had been months since she had had dinner with anyone, but Sylvester and smiled.
"That is a great idea. I have green salad and crusty rolls, if you like."
David's face blushed with pleasure, "Well, would you like to stop over when you are ready? I don't mean to imply that you aren't lovely, but…" His sentence trailed off as he glanced over her in her cleaning garb.
Jillian flung her arms out, batted her eyelashes in an exaggerated fashion and asked, "You mean the invitation isn't "Come as you are"?"
David had lived next door for the last 15 years. His children had been her most trusted babysitters when her son was young. They had exchanged pleasantries over the years and an occasional cup of tea when his wife was alive. Jillian made her most popular chicken casserole for him and his family when Ellen passed on. Since then, David would join her and her son for dinner when Eben was home from college or stop for coffee on Sunday mornings. David was a good neighbor and a kindly and interesting man.
As Jillian busied herself getting ready for dinner, she quickly pulled on the blue slacks and white blouse that she was to have worn out with her brother and looked in the mirror. She smiled quickly at her image. The clothing emphasized the curves she favored and camouflaged the softness she had tried so long to diet away. She pulled her hair out of the ponytail and brushed the chestnut tresses until they shone. A dab of lipstick and she was ready. She gathered the rolls and salad and a bottle of red wine, placing everything in a wicker picnic basket.
Jillian stopped at the front door, realizing her palms were sweating and her heart was beating the rhythm to a favorite rock song from her youth. She thought about David standing on her stoop, his white hair being tossed by the breeze and how the wrinkles of age seemed to enhance his smile.
"Geesh," she sighed. "I like this man."
She glanced in the mirror next to the door, swept back her hair, blotted her lipstick and decided it would have to do. She was late.
David watched Jillian from the front porch as she hurried across their lawns to meet him. She noticed he had changed into clean slacks and a white dress shirt. The smell of men's cologne wasn't lost on her, either.
"Here you are, " she said as she handed over the basket.
He smiled, placed a hand on her arm and led her into the kitchen. She glanced around the home and noticed that David had done a fair bit of redecorating since Ellen's funeral. The sliding glass doors opened upon an elegantly set table. There were two candlesticks placed in the middle and a rose from his garden lay next to her plate. She immediately picked up the flower and inhaled its fragrance deeply.
"Thank you, " she muttered through a voice that belied her nervousness. Apparently, he liked her as well!
David watched her delicate hands holding the stem of the rose and her eyes closing as she breathed the fragrance. Her movements and facial expressions gave away her sensual nature. For that moment, there was nothing for her, but the rose and the pleasure it brought. He felt a stirring that had been denied so long he almost didn't recognize it, desire.
Jillian had always been a lovely woman. He respected her raising Eben to college age. He was a nice young man, which in David's mind, spoke to her ability and commitment as a mother. They had always shared a warm and neighborly relationship, but the excitement he felt tonight had nothing to do with being neighborly. Her breasts pressed against the smooth fabric of her blouse in such a fashion as to draw his attention and fuel a need that hadn't been evident in years.
She raised her face from the blossom and smiled. David smiled warmly and told her the grill as ready. Jillian busied herself with the salad and rolls, poured them both a glass of wine and sat in a high back, cushioned patio chair watching David as he flipped the steaks. His shirt revealed a well-built man, with muscular arms and broad shoulders. He stood several inches taller than her and was one of those few men for whom the aging process seemed only to add to their physical beauty. Or perhaps, she was only now looking at David as a single woman might? After all, he was happily married throughout the first thirteen years of their friendship. Jillian mentally shrugged her shoulders as she sipped from her wine. She didn't realize that David had turned and caught her staring at him. When their eyes met, she blushed as a schoolgirl might and the sound of her nervous laughter reminded him of the tapping of the spoons on wine glasses at a wedding.
David served the steaks while she offered him the salad and rolls. As they ate, he asked after Eben and was pleased to hear he had made the Dean's list, once again. They reminisced about Eben as a child and many of the predicaments he had found himself in. They chuckled at the thought of a seven year old Eben playing hide and seek with friends and hiding in David's car. His elbow had bumped the stick shift and the car rolled to the end of the drive! Jillian made mention of the remodeling David had completed in the house. He told her had little else to fill his time with since Ellen was gone and that he enjoyed carpentry.
He sighed when he said, "The house really needs the eye of a woman to finish decorating, though."
Jillian smiled warmly and offered, "Perhaps I could take a look around and give you a few ideas?"
David nodded. They both placed their napkins on the table and rose to their feet. They stood very near one another. David reached for the wine glasses. As he turned to give Jillian her glass, his elbow bumped hers and the deep red liquid splashed across her blouse.
"Oh!" she exclaimed. Reacting automatically, David grabbed a white linen napkin, dipped it in a glass of water remaining on the table and began dabbing at the stain. Jillian trembled under his touch. She made a sound that resembled a growl, as she couldn't speak. The temperature of the liquid combined with David's touch to her breast had rendered her speechless. David heard her sound, pulled back and began blushing. He struggled to apologize as he realized what had transpired. He looked at the stain and at her face, warm with embarrassment. As if he had no control, his gaze lowered to her chest, once again. Her nipple was erect and pressing against the wet fabric. David gasped aloud.