August 12, 1917. The day I can't forget.
We fly in tight formation. Ten thousand feet holding steady and the front straight ahead.
Everything below looks so peaceful. The verdant hills and fields of Northern France.
Then
it
comes into view. I've heard plenty about it, but the first time seeing it for myself is something else.
It's obscene, a brownish-gray scar stretching out in both directions beyond the limits of vision. Death and desecration as far as the eye can see.
And I'm heading towards it at ninety miles an hour
.
Why did I sign up for this
? I'll join the Royal Air Service, I said. Fight for democracy, and all that. No matter if my own country wasn't even at war yet.
No turning back now, though. Better to die.
Any second now we'll see the Archies.
Archies
. What a stupid name for German anti-aircraft shells. It's from a line in a song. The British pilots raise their glasses and shout the refrain whenever it plays. "Archibald! Certainly not!"
I don't get the joke.
We reach the trenches and are over no-man's land.
Here we go. Here we go.
We hit the German lines. The Archies go off on either side of us.
Boom! Boom!
Puffs of black smoke detonate. Three hundred and sixty degrees of shrapnel.
Another on the right, close enough to rattle Lieutenant Douglas. He breaks formation before getting his plane under control again.
Boom!
Another Archie.
Boom! Boom!
Two more.
And we're past the German lines. Clear skies,
"Archibald! Certainly not!" I shout, laughing.
I scan the sky again. No Germans. Good.
At least Captain Fletcher has placed me on the right of the formation. The Sopwith Camel is a challenging plane. It's difficult to turn left thanks to the rightward pull of the rotary engine.
But if the Germans appear on the right I can whirl and face them before they know what hit them. But I hope I don't need to. One challenge per day, thank you.
Captain Fletcher leads us east and into a descent. I'm not worried. He knows the way to Maubeuge well.
We level off and fly steady for a few minutes. Then we descend again, flying over fields and woods and picturesque villages.
I spot the church spire ahead.
Maubeuge
.
We bank east and pass over the train station. A train's arriving puffing white smoke.
The air base nears, a pair of giant gray sheds coming into view. Then I see what's in front of them.
Holy shit! We've hit the Jackpot!
Our orders were simple. Aerial reconnaissance of the German Air Base at Meuberge. Search for signs of German airship construction. Inflict maximum damage to any construction detected.
Any construction detected? You could say that. We've caught a zeppelin on the ground.
Time to ruin the Kaiser's day.
The Germans must be panicking. Their precious airship on the ground all alone. Defenseless. We head towards it.
Boom! Boom! Boom! Boom!
The air fills with Archies.
Fuck!
Two on my left.
Boom! Boom!
Three more on my right.
Boom! Boom! Boom!
God damn. They're everywhere.
One explodes close, ripping dozens of tiny holes in the Camel's wings.
Another series goes off, too many to count. One narrowly misses as I'm banking left. My leg stings. I must be hit.
Damn
.
My Camel seems okay, though. I keep banking.
Boom! Boom!
Two Archies close by.
The engine sputters. I adjust the fuel-air mix. No effect. The odor of diesel fuel fills my nostrils.
No, no, no. Not good.
Blue sparks come off the engine followed by black smoke.
I pull back on the controls but I'm losing altitude. Fast.
I scan for a spot to land. There's a field to the left.
Gonna be close
.
The Camel grazes the tips of trees. I come down rough but intact, bouncing along. The plane hits something, sending one wing upwards and smashing the other into the ground. It twists about and comes to a rest.
I freeze.
I'm alive. I crashed but I'm alive.
The rest of the squadron remains airborne as near as I can tell. "Give 'em hell, boys."
I un-click the lap belt and try climbing out. My thigh explodes with pain. "Damn!"
You gotta do this.
I take a deep breath and try again. No luck. It hurts too much.
That's no excuse. No matter the pain, I've got to get out of this plane. It could catch fire or explode.
Here we go.
I push hard and pull myself out of the cockpit screaming and slide onto the ground next to the plane.
Now I've got to get on my feet. This is still France, after all. I'll be hidden, taken care of.
A truck pulls up. A rifle is thrust in my face.
A German who looks fifteen glares down at me. "
Nicht bewegen, englischer Bastard
."
Don't move, English bastard.
I raise my hands. "
Ich bin Amerikaner
."
"
Egal,
" he says.
No matter.
***
Emeline and I cuddle on the couch in her bedroom. It is after breakfast.
It's still raining outside, like it was last night when we made love. Good. Let it rain all week if it keeps the Germans away.
"What are you thinking about?" she asks.
"The rain," I say. "And you. And other things."
"What other things?"
"Today is eight months since I was captured."
She lifts her head. "Do you think about it often?"
"Constantly. I replay it in my head, over and over."
"And what have you concluded from all this replaying?"
"That there wasn't anything I could've done. The Germans hid their anti-aircraft batteries well. We flew right over them and I got hit."
"Your legendary bad luck again, no?"
"What else?" I say. "My first mission and I wind up in the hands of the enemy."
She smiles. "But you are not in the hands of the enemy now, are you?"
"I'm in much nicer hands."
She kisses me, warm and tender. "Will you try and escape, like you did from Holzminden?"