It was already warm out, even at five in the morning, and I knew the weathergirl on the radio was correct in saying it was going to be a scorcher. I was standing on my back step with a cup of tea, drinking in the peaceful calm of the earliness, admiring the way the morning sun made the dewdrops glitter on the leaves of my roses.
I had grabbed a clean t-shirt of my son's on the way through the laundry room and pulled it over my naked body before going outside. You never know who might wander by for an early morning stroll or jog, and even though I lived in a more secluded part of town, and had a good hedge built up around my yard, it was not entirely private.
Considering that this was a small town, and many opportunities are based on reputation, causing a scandal wasn't a really smart idea. The last thing I wanted was to be pushing my cart through the bread aisle of the grocery store while people stopped and whispered to each other about how Ms. Keys has an exhibitionistic streak in her.
DID I have an exhibitionist streak? I wondered to myself. It wasn't something I'd really considered before. I'd always been a discreet person, shying away from public sex, drawing my blinds when entertaining gentlemen callers, keeping my sexual activities far away from my 19 year old son's eyes and ears. I turned to go into the house, tugging the shirt down to my mid-thigh again as it rode up a little, threatening to expose my ass.
I was deep in thought, trying to recall if I'd always been this demure with sex or if it was just something that seemed prudent and had been adopted as a good policy. I'd never had done more than kiss outside of a bedroom, and had certainly never had sex in a public place like an elevator or department store dressing room! Why, I realized, I'd never even had sex in a car. I realized with dismay that I was more than tame: my sexual encounters were practically lethargic.
I scooped up the pile of laundry and was mourning my newfound realization when I came around the corner and collided with my son in the middle of the kitchen.
"You're up early," I said in surprise.
"Yeah, I'm heading to the lake with Alex," he replied, opening the door to the fridge and pulling out a carton of orange juice. He poured himself a glassful and then looked over at me. "Hey! You're going to stretch another one of my shirts!"
I stuck my tongue out at him and then looked down at my large breasts pushing out the shirt the Nike logo. "Don't worry. I'll just wash it and it will be just fine."
He just shook his head and smiled. "Why do girls always want to wear boys' t-shirts?"
"And what would YOU know about that, young man?" I was a little taken aback by his comment. As much as we had had a very open and honest relationship while he was growing up, having had many practical discussions about anatomy and the ins and outs of relationships and safe sex, all communication on the topic pretty much ceased once he had gotten his first real girlfriend. Oh well. Prepare them well and let them live their lives.
He grinned. "This year at college has been a good one."
I hopped up on the counter, tucking the shirt tightly around my thighs. "You're awfully open and talkative this morning, Tyler. I think I ought to drag you out of bed bright and early to chat on a regular basis."
He walked over and kissed my cheek. "I'd love to spill more of my secrets, mom, but I have to go." He grinned and tussled my hair playfully before striding away.
I listened to the door slam and wondered if my son was leading a more exciting sex life than I ever did. With a sigh I hopped off the counter to go shower and get dressed for work.
The water was cool and refreshing, and I savoured the feeling of it streaming down my body, my nipples hardening and my abdominal muscles tightening. It ran in rippling streams down my back and over my ass, curving into my crotch and down my inner thighs to my feet. I shivered a little as I put my head under the water, closing my eyes and opening my mouth, letting it flow over my cheekbones and upper lip until I had a good mouthful. I swallowed slowly, then reached down to shut off the taps.
I stepped out of the shower and into the warmth of the bathroom. As I stood in front of the mirror, drying off with a luxuriantly thick towel, I gave myself a close examination.
D sized breasts that miraculously had managed to retain most of their perkiness, fairly flat stomach with faint stretchmarks from when I was pregnant with Tyler, curvy hips leading to smooth thighs. I turned sideways to check out my ass. Still decent looking. All in all, not bad for a woman of my age.
I toweled off my hair as I picked out what I'd wear to work. I wanted to walk today, so I picked out a pale blue lightweight cotton sundress, thin straps, fitted to the waist and then softly pleated, falling to just above my knees. I pulled my hair up into a twist, pulling down a few wisps around my face and then quickly applied some lipgloss. A quick hunt through the house and I was ready to leave, armed with my sunglasses, purse and keys.
Twenty minutes later I was at my desk, surrounded by paperwork and answering calls in what would turn out to be an incredibly busy day. I still managed to find some time to mull over my sexuality, as I filed and added columns and did all the mindless work before me. Maybe I just need to be more spontaneous. Less worried about hiding the fact that I was not just a mother, but also a woman with needs. Needs that had not been met for a couple months now and were bubbling beneath the surface constantly lately. Yes, I decided, the next time an opportunity presented itself, I would just grab it.
Before I knew it, the receptionist was flipping the sign to Closed and it was time to head home. I opened the door to find the blue sky had surrendered to a mass of thunderclouds and the sun was nowhere to be seen. It was still as hot as ever and I could feel the electricity crackling in the air.
"Looks like we're going to get quite a storm," my coworker commented.
"Yeah, and I walked today," I said ruefully. I dialed my house to see if Tyler was home yet to come pick me up.
There was no answer.
I looked over at the woman standing beside me. "You wouldn't be able to give me a ride home, would you?"
"I wish I could," she replied apologetically, "but my car is in the shop getting an oil change."
"Oh well. Maybe if I hurry I can beat the rain." I waved goodbye and with one more apprehensive glance at the sky, I briskly strode down the street towards home.