A few years ago I relocated to another part of the country. I found a wonderful location in the foothills, about 15 miles outside the town, and I built a small and cosy farmhouse. While the farmhouse was under construction, I and my wife moved into a rented place in the town. I transferred my account from my previous city to the same bank's local branch. Being a small town branch it provided very personalized services. The bank would send one of their officers to pick up the cheques for deposit and many other such services.
There was this young assistant bank manager who was quite friendly and very efficient in carrying out the services asked for. Being a small branch in a small place, many a times she would herself come home with the documents required for signature.
The assistant bank manager, Nisha Krishnan, took extra care in caring for my account. Nisha would have coffee with my wife while I went through the documents. She became quite friendly with me and my wife. At times when I happened to visit the branch, I would invite Nisha out for a cup of coffee, and time permitting she would accept the invitation.
The farmhouse was completed in a record 6 months, barring some fittings here and there. We moved in and were settling down when my wife had to leave for Europe to attend to her ailing sister. She planned to be away for a couple of weeks only but it stretched to more than two months.
I had to come to town to pick up provisions and other items required and this was a weekly routine. I would invite Nisha for coffee and invariably she would accept. This became a regular Saturday afternoon feature in our lives. There was no need to ask her out. It was expected that I would be outside the bank at 2:30 in the afternoon and she would join me within a few minutes. If for some reason she couldn't make it she would call, but this rarely happened.
We would drive to any nearby coffee shop and enjoy a cup or two each. We talked about her. She told me about her college life and how she came to join the bank. The bits and pieces of her life came together over a few weeks. Nisha, who at 22 married a college friend, divorced him within 3 months.
"He was very friendly and caring during our time at college. This is what drew me to him. After our marriage my life turned completely upside down. On the first night of our marriage I saw the other side of him. He was totally uncaring for my feelings. He was a brute. He brutalized me that night. It was as if a dog had found a bone and wouldn't stop gnawing and biting till he totally destroyed it."
She paused as she took a sip. Her eyes were teary, but she was in control. After all this was all in the past, around 2 years back.
At another meeting in another coffee shop: "I spoke to my mother-in-law and she was totally unconcerned. 'That's the lot of women,' was her response. I realized that she also spent a similar married life. I tried to talk to my husband but it was a losing battle. One day I decided I'll not spend the rest of my life in a way."
She paused, thinking about those days. I put my hand on hers and squeezed in sympathy. She smiled in thanks. "I walked out one afternoon while my husband was at work. My mother-in-law tried to stop me, but I packed all my belongings, called a taxi, and went to my parents' home."
She paused, and then resumed, "I am very lucky. My parents supported me fully. Till then I hadn't spoken to my parents about my ordeal. I spent the night talking to my mother and we cried a lot. I was all of 22. Very young and very inexperienced about what life can dish out. Ours was a very loving family, just my parents and me."
Her eyes were glistening with tears. I squeezed her hand and caressed it. She continued, "My husband called the next morning. He didn't bother the previous evening, probably thinking I'd come running back if he ignored me. He had a huge ego and a very high degree of self importance."
Knowing Nisha I knew she was not exaggerating. "My father spoke with him and told him I was indisposed and would call him later. My parents and I had a discussion. I told them that I could never go back to that house and that I wanted a divorce. They respected my decision."
Another time: "Tell me, Nisha. Was your divorce difficult?"
"Yes, very. Not the actual proceedings in court. But the pressure on me was tremendous to go back to my husband's house. My husband's family was very conservative. Divorce was something unheard of. Women were supposed to suffer in silence. On top of that it was me, a female, who walked out and was seeking a divorce! That was intolerable. Their ego could not take it. They wanted me back at all costs. I refused to see my husband or any one from his and his extended family. My father stood like a rock, fighting against all pressures, never once exposing me to any of it."
Tears flowed down her cheeks. I squeezed her hand in sympathy and handed her my handkerchief. She accepted gratefully, wiped her tears and said softly, "Let's go."
She continued in our next meeting: "I have never spoken about my divorce to anyone before. I don't know why I feel very comfortable talking to you. It's as if you understand." She held my hand and I engulfed her small hand in both of mine.
"They brought in the so-called self-appointed leaders of our caste. They told my father divorce was not an option as no one in our caste has ever divorced. My father said, 'It's the life of my daughter. She will never go back to the house of this animal. For your information, my daughter was examined, the day after she returned home, by a very eminent gynaecologist.' He named this doctor and they all shut up. 'The report is so disturbing and the gynaecologist herself was shocked. I'll advise you not to interfere and let me proceed the way I want to.' These people threatened that our family would be excommunicated from our community. My father stood strong."
Tears flowed again. I squeezed her hands. "Divorce happened. My father engaged a very experienced divorce lawyer. I was lucky to be free within three months. Then we relocated to this town making a clean break with our past and that city."
There was silence. "I'd like to meet your father. Such a strong person who stood by you and didn't care a damn for his caste and community." "He's no more. He had a bad heart. Within a year of our relocating here he passed away."
"Oh! baby. I'm sorry to hear that." I caressed her hand.
"We're fine now. Both my mother and me. We have a small house and a small and peaceful life. My job keeps us comfortable."
That was Nisha's story. Sad, but so true of many girls living in small towns in India. Nisha was one of the lucky ones.
Our weekly coffee continued and I felt attracted towards Nisha. Of course, I was happily married and wouldn't do anything to spoil my friendship with Nisha. One day she said, "I always thought all men are dogs. They have no respect for women." She looked at me and said, "Until I met you and realized I was wrong. You have been a wonderful friend. Thanks for just being there." *****
I had to come to town on a weekday and stopped by a restaurant for a spot of lunch. I was happily surprised to see Nisha there with a young girl. She was also happy to see me. She introduced me to this young girl, who seemed all of 15 years old. I was shocked by the reaction I felt. I was instantly attracted sexually to this little girl and there was a stirring.
"This is Neha. She's the daughter of my mother's friend. It was her 18th birthday last month and I had promised to get her a gift of her choice. That didn't happen and so this lunch in lieu of that."
I turned to Neha and said, "A belated happy birthday to you, sweetheart. This lunch is on me. Nisha, you can let her have that gift of her choice later."
Neha perked up immediately. Nisha saw that and said, "No, Neha. That gift will remain pending till the right time."
"What gift?" I asked.
Nisha faltered and said, "No, nothing. Just some...er...clothes she wanted." Neha blushed. I kept quiet.
We ordered food and had juice while we waited. Nisha excused herself to freshen up. I looked at Neha and said, "Which clothes are you so keen to have, Neha. Why is Nisha reluctant to get them for you?"
She reddened, "No, nothing."
"C'mon, tell me. Maybe I can convince her to change her mind."
Thinking she may after all be able to acquire what she desired, Neha blurted out, "They are some under garments," and reddened in embarrassment.
"Oh! You mean bra and panty?" I was being very naughty. Here she was, all of 18 and me in my middle 40s. In India these things are still not discussed openly between opposite sexes, and I was practically a stranger.