'Excuse me, do you mind if I sit here?'
Looking up from my newspaper I see a young, early 20s, woman standing on the opposite side of the table to me.
I'd seen her before, this young woman, on a number of occasions, including today, upstairs in the gym. But I'd never had anything to do with her other than noting her presence. And she was always noticeable for wearing very short spray-on shorts and a tiny sports top whilst doing squats - I noticed things like that. She is also noticeable for being quite diminutive, around 5', slender, but not skinny, and attractive with high cheekboned Eurasian features.
The table we're on opposite sides of is in the sports centre cafe. I'm drinking coffee and reading a newspaper, or at least I was until she'd asked the question. She's standing with her hand on the back of a chair looking down at me, waiting for my answer. She's dressed the same as I'd seen her earlier but with the addition of an oversized, for her anyway, sweatshirt.
She looked around then back at me. 'It's very busy.'
She was right, it was.
She smiled. 'And I'm only little.'
I chuckled. 'But perfectly formed.'
Her smile fades. 'Sorry?'
'Small but perfectly formed. It's a saying. Of course you can sit down.' I gathered my too big newspaper together to make room.
My comment seemed to fluster her. 'Oh.....thanks.'
She pulled out the chair, dropped her bag on the floor beside it, and sat, then, without another word, turned her attention to her phone. Seemed to be the way of it these days, no conversation, just endlessly scrolling through whatever. But that's just me being old(er), and totally uninformed as to what sprinkles Billy Nobody had just had on his skinny latte. But then I'm probably just doing a disservice to the young lady sitting opposite me, and to Billy Nobody.
So I looked back down at my paper and did my own scrolling through my memories of her.
My first sight had been relatively recently. It had been from behind as I'd walked into the gym a couple of weeks before; she'd been doing her leg work, which she seemed to do rather a lot of; I later learnt that she did rather a lot of everything associated with a gym.
My first thought had been around how small she was, my second, but only just second, was something along the lines of 'that was a sight worth walking through a door for'; long toned legs, topped by a perfect little arse encased in a pair of grey, micro Lycra shorts, her muscled back was split by her, equally micro, top and long blonde hair braided into a ponytail that reached all the way down to a very narrow waist. And that was pretty much all I could see, but it was more than enough as an introduction.
A little later and I'd seen her from the front, it didn't disappoint; her thighs were deliciously muscled; all hail squats, with a distinctly diamond shaped gap at the top, her small chest was covered by that matching grey sports top that fully exposed the sculpted muscles of her stomach. Her Eurasian features weren't unusual but they added a real delicacy to her that suited her size. And yes, she was diminutive but her body was totally in proportion with her height, everything was slender but not thin or bony, she was toned and muscled but also delicate, it all worked. She was lovely and I bet she broke hearts.
Back to today and the cafe; it was perhaps ten minutes since she'd sat down that I next looked across at her, she was still engrossed in her phone. I'd heard the counter staff call the name twice already but she hadn't flinched so I'd figured the order wasn't hers, but when they shouted the name a third time and she still didn't have anything in front of her, other than her phone, I spoke up. 'Excuse me, but are you Addy?'
She jumped, startled, and dropped her phone, it fell to the floor, screen up, she scrambled to get it, grabbed it and covered it with her other hand, but not before I'd seen what she was looking at.
She flushed and looked at me, not sure what I'd seen. 'Sorry?'
'Are you Addy?'
'Err, yes?'
I nodded towards the counter. 'They're calling your name.'
She looked over her shoulder. 'Oh thanks.' Stood and walked over to collect her order.
She returned with her coffee and, somewhat hesitantly, sat back down.
She still looked a little embarrassed, presumably believing that I'd seen her phone screen.
I decided to say something. 'Does it work for you?'
She blinked and looked at me. 'What?'
I smiled. 'You're right, I did see your phone. Does what you're looking at work for you?'
Either she wasn't sure what I was asking or she was playing for time. 'In what way?'
Not really wanting to say the name of the site out loud in the crowded cafe I said, 'Well, when you consider what the site is for, does it work for you? Do you get what you're looking for? I used to be on it and I'm curious, that's all.'
Her eyes scanned my face, she was still embarrassed but she smiled a little half smile, looked down at the phone still clutched in her hand, then looked back up and put it on the table.
'No not really......mmmm, sometimes, in fact rarely.'
I laughed. 'That good huh.'
She returned my laugh then grinned. 'I don't like it much, serves a purpose I suppose. When, as you say, it works that is.'
'I didn't like it either.'
Her eyebrows went up questioningly.
'Yes. Older people are on there.'
'Oh I know that well enough, I've been hit on by quite a few. I wasn't questioning that, I was questioning why you didn't like it.'
I smiled. 'Yes, I can imagine you have been hit on by a few. My problem with it are the lies that are told, or rather the truths that aren't told. I just got fed up with meeting people who were so not as they described themselves. Plus, and probably more to the point, I didn't have much success, most of the women my age, and a lot younger come to that, were looking for even younger men, a lot younger men; the milf or cougar thing I guess it's called. Anyway, they certainly weren't interested in me, I came off there quite a long time ago.'
She thought about what I'd said. 'There are quite a few things I don't like about it. Some of it's the lies thing, although I don't think it's such an issue at the younger end, a lot of guys don't say anything, just a picture of some part of their anatomy, or at least you assume it's theirs, and think that's enough. But mostly I struggle to find someone who wants what I want. Which I admit I find hard to describe without being too in your face; if I don't say anything I get everyone hitting on me, which was fun and flattering for a while then got really annoying. But if I'm too direct I get all the wrong hits, and if I'm too vague I still get all the wrong hits. Then there's the fact that hardly anyone reads the profile anyway so, what do you do?'
I considered her words 'who wants what I want' then said, 'But you still look.'
'Hmmm, yeah. Well, I have my reasons, and it's pretty much the only way to meet guys without going through the whole performance of clubs or pubs, and they're really not my thing.' She paused, then. 'How do you meet women?'
I pondered her 'I have my reasons'. Then said, 'It just seems to happen. Funny, but it happens more now that I'm older; I've often thought about this by the way. So, I think, once we get a bit older, we've got over our hang-ups and, in some ways, have fewer expectations. Very few are interested in a long-term relationship, just want the occasional bit of fun. Most aren't interested in those dating sites, a lot of people are actually scared, or at least wary, of them. My opinion anyway. So, if it comes along then great, if it doesn't then so be it. For me it's completely random; it can be weeks or it can be days. I've also seen more women who are younger than me, women who want the uncomplicated. Some women I've seen only once, others more often.'
'Have you had lots of relationships?'
I contemplated this young woman and her questions, I didn't mind, I'd started it after all, but these were quite searching questions for someone so young.
She looked at me questioningly, once more waiting for my answer.
'Bearing in mind that I'm in my sixties and that I've been around a lot longer than you. Yes I have had a lot of relationships, from extremely short to much longer, but I've never lived with anyone or been married. In fact I haven't had a going out relationship for a very long time. I realised, long ago, that I was rubbish at them so I've shied away ever since. Been accused of being insecure and frightened of commitment but, to misquote the song, breaking up is too hard to do, and it always seemed to happen, so I don't put myself in that situation any more.'
'But you said that you see women more than once.'
'Yes I do but that's mostly for sex, sometimes coffee, or occasionally even dinner.'
'So isn't there any feelings in the sex?'
Blimey, this was getting a bit deep. 'Suppose it depends on what you mean by feelings. Do I have sex with feeling? Yes I do, I always have. Do I develop an affection for some of the women I know? Yes, but no more than that. And I've always found that the sex is better for it. More fun. Even, in some cases, more adventurous.'
She looked down at the table, seemed to be lost in thought.
'You ok?' I asked.
She looked up. 'Sorry, yes. Just thinking about what you said.'
'Hmm, I did go on a bit didn't I.'
'I asked the question, and thank you for being so honest, I don't suppose you get quizzed by 21 year old women very often.'