I walk down the hallway. I nervously stop at the door. I take a deep breath and count to ten. Finally impulsively I raise my hand and knock on the door. Anticipation rises as I wait. I look down and see the knob turn and my heart instantly jumps in my throat. The door opens and he stands there. We both look at one another and finally without hesitation he pulls me inside. We say our hellos and in an instant my nervousness goes away as I hear his calm, soothing voice. Without wasting time he takes me in his arms. I tremble and without warning I feel tears stream down my cheeks. He looks at me.
"I'm sorry." I blurt out. Why was I crying? Guilt? Excitement? I didn't know, but I wanted it to stop. He holds me close and comforts me.
"Shh. It's ok." He tells me.
Still crying I clutch his shirt and bury my face in his chest. We stand there and hold each other. Finally I lift my head and look at him. He gently takes my face in his hands, stares intently in my eyes, and slowly lowers his lips upon mine. Sparks ignites my body as the kiss deepens and becomes more passionate. Still kissing he leads me to the bed and we both fall on it. He is on top of me. His hands wander all over my body. His lips go off of mine and he begins to kiss my neck. I sigh and tilt my head back giving him more access. I hold on tightly to him. He sits me up on the bed, and unties my top. It falls and my breasts are exposed. Nervously I take my hands and cover them up ashamed of how I look. He smiles at me and gently takes them away. Before I can protest his lips are on mine again. It seems like an eternity before they travel down my neck and finally to my breasts. He slowly takes it in his hand and lowers his mouth on it. I moan as he kisses, nibbles, and sucks. He goes back and forth from one to another. I am getting into the moment. That is until I begin to think how wrong this is even though it felt so right.
"Please stop." I tell him as I push him away. I sit on the edge of the bed. He sits next to me. I look away from him.
"I'm sorry. It's just that. Well it's not right."