When I was 18- This was in the summer of 2000- I don't know if you can picture what kids looked like then. I feel like we all dressed in this very casual way. Maybe I just look at kids today, and I think they all look so slick and sexy in everything they wear, but when I was their age it was ripped jeans and t-shirts and stuff. You know what I mean? Well, not all of the jeans were ripped, some were quite tight, but you know what I mean. I was 5'8" and about 130lbs, I had long straight red hair, bright, vibrant red hair. A ginger they say. I was also very pale, but whatever, I thought I was cute (still do). I like the way my pale skin looks next to my red hair. I think it's sexy. My freckles too. I think I was sexy.
I certainly thought I was at the time too. But god, I was really such a mess of a girl back then. I am not sure I would have known what sexy was if it had come up and gone down on me for an hour. I was young, and loose limbed and free in all the ways that a girl could be.
Anyway... my parents lived on this golf course community. My back door opened up on the 6th tee. And I would often "go for a walk" around the course in the early evening, which, translates to: I would go smoke some pot out of a one hitter I had as I wandered around the like 4 hole area that made a circle back to my house. There used to be these real pricks who "patrolled" the course to... I don't even know harass kids, whatever. I'm sure it was "keep the course maintained." Anyway. This one guy, he was in his 60's- I'm sure. Old enough to be retired at least but it's not like I asked him how old he was either- he used to do it all the time. And one night he came along. He would always flirt. I don't think it's that I thought he was "all that attractive", but I liked the way that he looked at me. And talked to me. It made me feel sexy and powerful in a way. I don't know if that makes sense, but it's how I felt.
One day he pulled up beside me to say that there were a couple of golfers coming up the way and I needed to get off the course. So I guess it probably helped that I was a little high, but I hopped into his cart (which he was 100% not expecting), and said "take me home then." And he started to get mad, with the "I don't even know where that is." And get out. Andβso help me I don't know where I got the balls to say this, but I said "I didn't say take me to my home."
He just stared at me for the longest time, then he put his foot on the accelerator, and the cart drove away, with me in the passenger seat. He said he couldn't take me home. He had a wife (one who I was sure was happy he was out harassing kids on the golf course, no doubt). The sun was so low in the sky it was dusk, a silly time for anyone to be golfing for sure, but dark enough that there were shadows available to us.
He drove me down past where the community pool was, (because he couldn't take me to his home, his wife was there) down to where the reservoir had a spillway (this sounds like a long way, but it was basically a mile from my house). We pulled to a stop in the shadows, near the treats by the edge of the water. He reached over to me, putting his hand on my shoulder, they were thick and worn, a man's hands. He wasn't tall. Probably about my height standing up, and he had a bit of a bowling ball shaped belly. He rubbed my shoulder, and I suddenly got nervous. It was dark, but the water was reflecting the light of the moon and all the houses on the far side of the reservoir. I looked out at the water and said the first thing that popped into my head.
"I've been here before."
"Oh yeah." he said, still rubbing my shoulder, and a bit of my back.
"Yeah." I looked back at him, and saw the desire in his eyes. I was nervous, but I didn't look away. I said "I came out here once a year ago to skinny dip one night."
"Is that right?" He said with a smile.
I nodded. "The water is a lot colder at first than you'd think."
"Show me what that looked like." He said.
I looked at this old man. This old asshole, who's job was to bother people just minding their own business to keep his course clean. It's funny, I didn't like him. I might have said I hated him. But I had also chosen to play with his desires, and now here I was at night, alone with them.