I was 31 years old, lonely and horny. Definitely an unsatisfactory condition.
My husband had been killed in an automobile accident about 15 months before and I missed him terribly. We had been married for a little over 11 years and he was the love of my life.
I had known Bob most of my life. We were neighbors in a rural farming community, our parents socialized and we went to the same church. We had been close friends for as long as I can remember, but didnât begin dating until I was beginning my freshman year in high school and Bob was a senior. I think we had known even before this that we would eventually get married. After graduation Bob joined the Army, promising that when he got out we would be married, and we were.
Iâll never forget our wedding night. It was an absolute disaster. We were both virgins, at least I was, and had no idea what we were doing. Bob was so nervous that he couldnât keep an erection and I was secretly glad, as I was terrified. We had done some light petting, before we were married, but I never let him go beyond playing with my tits, which I found pleasant enough but was never really stimulated. At the time I didnât care one way or the other whether we consummated our marriage or not. Scoring our sex drives on a scale of one to ten, I guess I was less than a one and Bob was a ten, at least I thought so at the time.
Initially, intercourse was very painful for me, but even when it became less so, I derived no pleasure from it. It was just something I endured to please my loving husband. I tried to conceal this from Bob, but he was very sensitive and it really troubled him. We spent many hours discussing the situation and trying to find an answer to my problem.
Neither one of us knew a lot about the subject of sex but we were so much in love that we were eager to learn. One Friday afternoon Bob brought home several âdirtyâ books and we spent the weekend reading them and experimenting. On Sunday I finally experienced that thing I had heard and read so much about, an orgasm, and after that it was âKaty bar the doorâ. From that weekend on sex got better everyday, even up to the time he was killed.
We tried everything and in every position. Bob got so good at eating pussy that I would get close to a climax just thinking about. And I loved sucking his cock. The first time I did it, I didnât get past the head but before long I was taking the âwhole enchiladaâ and loving the feel of it ramming down my throat. We tried out every toy we could find. We even had a strap-on dildo and I would fuck Bob in the ass with it. He loved it so much that at times he would even beg for it. Some would consider us sexually depraved but we enjoyed every minute.
We had bought a small farm with our savings and worked day and night, when we werenât fornicating, to make it profitable. Some times we would make love in the morning after the chores were done, after lunch and again at night. It was a great life. and I really missed it.
When Bob was killed, I was devastated. I had lost my husband, my best friend and my lover. I didnât know what to do. We had a beautiful house, we had built ourselves, that was less than six months old. I was a zombie for the first year. I even changed bedrooms because the other half of the bed, from which I had received so much warmth and love, was now ice cold.
After several of the neighboring farmers pitched in to harvest my crop that fall, my bank began pressuring me to sell the farm and auction off the equipment. I knew I couldnât operate it by myself, but parting with it seemed the same as denying that Bob had ever existed. The bank gave me 30 days to make a decision. I lay awake nearly every night of that month missing Bob and trying to decide what to do. Finally, I decided that I had to let it go, but I was saved at the eleventh hour.
On the 29th day a boy named Jerry approached me about taking over the operation. I had known him for several years. He didnât have any money or credit, but wanted to leave his fatherâs farm and work on his own. He was only 18 but I knew that he was a hard worker and very qualified to operate a farm. After a lot of discussion and some soul searching, I decided that this was the answer I had been looking for.
We worked out a deal where he would operate my farm for a generous split in the profits. I wasnât interested so much in the money as I had received a tidy sum from the other drivers insurance and also Bobâs personal policy.
Soon Jerry was a fixture around the house. He was there every day for lunch, most mornings for breakfast and some times for dinner when he worked late. He was really nice to me and I enjoyed his company, but for about the first year my interest in him was strictly platonic. I sensed that his interest in me was a little less than platonic, but that was understandable as he was a young healthy male with raging harmones.
When Bob and I were married, I was just a tall, 5â8â, skinny kid but within a few years I had filled out and became, even if I do say so myself, a very desirable looking woman. My hips had broadened nicely and I was happily filling out a 34B bra instead of a disappointing 32A. There is a lot of physical activity in running a farm and I still had a firm body. I donât mind saying that I loved my body and enjoyed my reflection in a mirror. I had been propositioned by several men over the years and this attention had increased after Bob died. But I was even less interested now than when Bob was alive.
It was nearly a year before I began to have any sexual desires., but they werenât so overpowering that I was willing to jump into bed with any of the local yokels. Bob had been the only man I had ever known and I had no desire to begin another relationship. It was about that time that I began to take more interest in Jerry. Looking at the bulge in his jeans would create a little tingle in my body. I began to fantasize more and more about him instead of Bob when I would sexually satisfy myself. I even had one dildo that I thought was about the size of Jerryâs cock.
When he first began coming to the house, I always made sure I was fully clothed but gradually grew a little lax, sometimes still in a nightgown, with a robe, when he would come in the mornings. I began to enjoy the little rush I would get seeing the bulge in his jeans enlarge when he saw me dressed like that. After he left, I would immediately head for the bedroom and masturbate while imagining his cock in my pussy. I got so brazen at times, I would dress suggestively just to observe his reaction.
This little teasing continued off and on for 2 or 3 months. I would feel guilty about it and quit for awhile, after all he was barely 19, but I couldnât keep from doing it for long. Subconsciously I knew what this would eventually lead to, but didnât bother to think about it. Some mornings I was so brazen that I would wear a short, low cut nightie and leave my robe untied so he could get a good look. I would take every opportunity to give him a good view of my tits. I also spent a lot of time in shorts and too tight tee shirts sans bra.
In the summer Jerry worked without a shirt but always put one on when he came into the house. One day he didnât when he came for lunch. I was in one of my teasing moods at breakfast that morning and it was apparent he had a huge erection when he entered the kitchen
I had been working outside that morning in shorts and a tee shirt (no bra) so it was easy for him to see my already stiff nipples poking against my sweaty shirt. The more I looked at him, the more they seemed to grow. Jerry was tall (a little over 6 feet) and well muscled. I wouldnât describe him as handsome but he was nice looking, deeply tanned form working in the sun. He didnât have that broad shouldered, slim hipped build seen so much in advertising, he had a body built for back breaking work, fine German stock. It was a struggle just to keep from running my hands and lips all over his chest. As I moved around serving lunch, Jerry never took his eyes off me. The more I moved, the more he looked, the hotter I got. My panties were completely soaked from looking at him and thinking about what I was going to do when he left.
I began to clear the table immediately after we finished eating, hoping he would get the hint and leave, instead of staying for awhile to talk as usual.
I said, âWell, I guess you had better get back to work. I see there is a lot to do.â
âI guess so, I have a long afternoon ahead,â He hesitantly replied. It was apparent that he didnât want to leave.