So, I dropped Tammy off at Brooke's place. I had walked her to the door, and Steph met us. She gave me a really loving look, kissed me quickly on the lips, said "Thanks, baby. You did good, I know it. Talk to you later", and went back into the house.
I didn't have much else to do Sunday. Took the Z/28 out for a run out into the hills west of town. Enjoyed the breeze. Stopped at a burger joint, then went home. Did some chores around the house. Thought a lot about the girls, and particularly Stephanie. She told me she is really starting to like me, and Tammy said the she told her she loved me. This is not good. She's way too young to have feelings like that for a guy my age, and probably for any guy. She just hasn't been around enough. It's not going to be good at all if she gets too attached to me. She needs to be able to move on and have relationships with boys, or men closer to her own age.
Around 6, my neighbors, a couple around 35 or so, saw that I was in the back yard, so they invited me over to drink some Paso Robles zinfandels, and eat some red meat. I could not refuse. Enjoyed the time with them chatting about life, vacations, stories about coworkers and friends. The phone in my pocket was silent all night until about 10 minutes before I said good night and it buzzed. I had a message. I excused myself, said it was late, and left to get back to the house.
Went in the house around 10PM, and turned on the laptop which booted up while I went to the bathroom to empty the bladder. When I was back the computer was up, and I opened up g-mail.
Steph's message was there: "Hey, old fart. You there?"
Next message, time stamped 5 minutes later:" Guess not"
Then five minutes later: "Really would like to talk to you. I'll be on for a while, mail me when you get a chance."
I sent a reply, "Hi baby, I'm here. What can I do for you?"
"I really need to talk to you, but I can't from home. Anyone could hear me. I need to meet you for that date I was talking about. OK?"
"Sure. Can you tell me what's bothering you?"
"Yeah, sort of. Tammy told us all about what you guys did last night and I am really jealous. I feel like I should be doing all that with you, but I know I can't or shouldn't because I'm a virgin, and you're so much older, but my pussy really tingles when I think about what you were doing with Tammy and with Lane."
"Tammy said that you told her that you loved me. Is that the problem?"
"Oh, god, she wasn't supposed to tell you. I just blurted it out once, I'm sorry, I didn't really mean it."
"No it's OK. I think we really need to talk, because the way you are feeling, we need to understand each other a lot better. I really never want to hurt you in any way, but I can see the way this is going that there could be trouble."
"You're not going to dump me are you?"
"No way, baby, you're special to me. We just need to work this out carefully, OK?"
"OK. I trust you, but sometimes it's hard to."
"Yeah, I know. So when can we get together to talk?"
"Well, tomorrow, I work in the morning from 10 to 1, then I have a class at 2 until 4. I think the best time would be after 4. I can meet you at the Starbucks, would that work?. You've been there at that time before, so should it be OK tomorrow?"
"Yes, Steph, I can be there at 4. We can take our coffees, and go for a walk. Is that good?"
"Yup, that will work."
"You really did tell Tammy that you loved me?"
"And you put your finger up her butt?"
"So she really did tell you everything?"
"Ooohhh, yes she did. She said it was the best time she's ever had, and that's why I'm so upset and jealous."
"We'll talk about all of that tomorrow."
"Yes. About loving you, I'm not sure how I really feel about you. You know I told you before about us girls, and how I love them like sisters, and would do anything to make them happy. Well I really feel the same way about you. I don't think I love you in the romantic, I want to marry you and spend the rest of my life with you, and have your babies kind of love, but I'm getting really attached to you, you're special to me, don't know how else to say it."
"Steph, I am so flattered by all that. All I can tell you is I feel the same way, and we need to talk this through and understand how we go forward from here. Are you good with that?"
"Yeah, OK."
"See you tomorrow?"
"Yup"
"Good night, love."
"Good night, love"
And there it was. This was going to be tricky to work through. I had my work cut out for me to help her deal with this.
I closed down, went to bed, and thought not about Steph, but about the great time I had with Tammy, and I replayed a couple of the scenes in my mind, with my dick.
Next day went by pretty quickly. I wasn't expecting any messages or calls from Steph or the other girls, and didn't get any.
I finished up work about 3:30, and wandered out to Starbuck's. Got there about quarter to, and got my iced coffee and sat in the corner, started up the iPad, and read about the DNC in Charlotte. Had to chuckle at the rhetoric. Democrats!!!! Though, based on his speech, I could be tempted to vote for Clinton, but just a sec, he's not running.
I didn't even see her come in. I looked up and she was already sitting in the chair on the other side of the small bistro table. "Hey, there. Still smiley?" This was getting to be her standard greeting, and I loved it.
"Yeah, always smiley.... get you a coffee?'
"I'll get it. I do have my own money you know" she said very flirtatiously.
She got up, and went to the bar. About 5 minutes later she was back. "You want to talk here, or should we go?"
"Let's go."
As we got up, her left hand fell into my right, and we walked out the door.
The area was on the fringes of downtown, so it wasn't all concrete and glass, there were smaller buildings, some open space, a neighborhood park or two. There was a small green belt around a stream that fed into the big pond in the park by the community college campus.
We walked toward the green space by the stream. We didn't say much. She told me a little about her part-time job, her classes. I told her about my job, told her that I did have to travel once in a while, so could be gone for up to a week at a time, not often but sometimes.
We got to the green space and wandered down the path until we found a bench under a tree, a ways off the path. It was fairly secluded.
"So, Steph, talk to me, tell me how you feel."
"Its pretty much like I said. I feel close to you just like I feel close to the girls. I call it love, but maybe that's not the right word, I just don't know. You've been so wonderfully kind and understanding and considerate. I mean, you are pretty much the perfect guy."
"OK. I'm totally flattered by how you feel about me. And I can say I pretty much feel the same way about you. But we need to understand I'm, what, 24 years older than you. I'll bet your dad is younger than me."
"Yeah, you'd win that bet"
"So you do understand that there really is no long term future for us. I don't think we could really fall in love, or get married, and have babies, just like you said, but, I think we could be really good, special friends. I'd like to be able to be kind of a, god I don't know the right words. I'd like you to be able to talk to me about anything. I can help you understand boys, and what you are going to run into as you move along. You can ask me about situations you run into, problems you have."
"I have my four, well actually five friends, you haven't met Abby yet. Would it be OK if you kind of become one of our group. I mean it will be weird, it's all girls, and you're a guy, but then you've already fucked two of them, so I guess you've already passed the initiation, if you know what I mean." Big smile on her face.
"Look, whatever works for you guys, and I'll be honest with you, the sex with Lane and Tammy was really good."
"That's what bugs me. I want to experience that too, but I'm a virgin, and I always had in my mind to hold out and have sex the first time with a boy I really cared about, that I loved."
She stopped suddenly, I think realizing what it was that she had uttered.
A very pregnant pause ensued and then she said, "Oh, god, I've just told you that I want to have sex with you."
"Yes you did."
A moment or two passed, and then she said, "OK. I think that's the right thing to do, but I can't do it right now. I mean, somehow, I need to work up to it. I can't just bend over the bench here and have you stick it in me."
"Oh, Steph, I'd never do that. First time should be really special, and if you want to go ahead and do it, then I will do everything I can to make it as special and memorable as I can possibly do."
She dropped her head on my shoulder, put her arms around my chest and just squeezed really hard. I could feel her sob a little.