Henry Martingale is trying to be discreet. He's sitting on the sofa with me, watching tennis (Wimbledon) on TV. But I see him, his roving eye catching glimpses of my tan legs, and I'd be remiss if I didn't admit to enjoying his attention. He dropped over to see his best friend, my son Edward, who won't return for another hour at least. Knowing that Henry is a tennis fan and player—his family belongs to Morgan Valley, the same country club that we do—I suggested he stay and watch Wimbledon with me until Edward returns.
I'm fully aware that Henry finds me attractive. I've seen him almost leering at me whenever he's over here. I'm his older woman fantasy, I suppose, a forty-something MILF to horny college guys like Henry. I'm still Mrs. Newman to him, not Estelle, though I wouldn't mind if he called me Estelle. Estelle the cougar? Hardly! Yes, I'm a divorcee, but I've yet to seduce a younger man, or even tried. Not that I don't harbor fantasies of doing just that. Oh yes! Still, I'm not wearing a short blue skirt and green, low-cut blouse for his benefit. His visit came as a complete surprise. I'm wearing what I'm wearing because it's comfortable as well as revealing.
Henry's got on his usual Saturday afternoon casuals: jeans, Under Armour sports shirt and running shoes sans socks. He's a nice looking kid, preppie handsome, tall and solid, photogenic. He looks like every rakish white quarterback you've ever seen, the type you can picture one day becoming a corporate bigwig or airline pilot. Edward has told me that Henry thinks I'm the prettiest mom in the neighborhood. Pretty is an adjective I've heard about me for as long as I can remember. Still, when a gal reaches middle-age, it's comforting to hear, especially when it comes from a guy a generation younger, a guy young enough to be your son. Older relatives tell me that I remind them of actress Donna Reed when she had her own TV show in the nineteen-sixties. After watching reruns on You Tube, I think they're right. I'm around the age Donna was when her show aired. Like her, I've kept my figure, still youthful enough to compliment a bikini if I choose to wear one. Exercise helps, but so does the right genes—I'm lucky. Henry once told Edward that my emerald green eyes alone are enough to seduce him. Wow! I can just imagine what he's thinking now, watching me with my skirt hiked halfway up my slim, shapely thighs, right leg crossed over the left, swinging teasingly in his direction.
The sexual tension between us is palpable. I could leave the room, this cozy den, and let Henry watch by himself until my son returns. However, truth be told, I'm enjoying his attention, secure in the knowledge that nothing taboo will come of it. No way he'd make a move, at least I don't think so. If one of us did, it would be me. Right now, my head is spinning with opening lines designed to lead us toward an exciting but potentially dangerous situation. 'Be daring,' my dad advised me when I was growing up, though this sort of daring isn't what he had in mind.
"Henry, I'm in the mood for some wine," I say, uncrossing my legs. "Can I get you a glass of Zinfandel too?"
He runs a hand through his thick, brown hair. "Yes, that would be great. Thanks."
When I return, he says he's been drinking beer since he was eighteen; wine, seldom. "Funny, since turning twenty-one, drinking doesn't seem as cool."
"That which is socially prohibited or outright illegal, adds excitement," I say. "Know what I mean?"
"I do."
I can't help but grin when he lowers his eyes as I lean back, re-cross my legs and run my hand over my thighs. "This is an exciting game, isn't it?"
"Game?"
"The match between Victoria Azarenka and Belinda Bencic."
"Oh. Right. It is. Close game."
He squirms and licks his lips. I giggle.
We continue to watch the match, sipping our wine over small talk. I know from Edward that Henry doesn't have a steady girlfriend. I ask him anyway. "No steady girlfriend," he says. "Why get tied down at my age?"
He's right. Why indeed? My Edward, not nearly as good looking at Henry, sometimes expresses his envy for Henry's facile way with women. 'He sometimes has to fend them off when things get too complicated,' Edward tells me. Edward wishes he had Henry's 'problem.'
"Well, you're right," I say. "Doctor Newman and I married too young. He was still in med school. We had a lot on us and weren't mature enough to handle it. We've been divorced for almost ten years now. As you know, my ex remarried."
Henry nods and raises his eyebrows. "But you haven't yet. How come?" Before I can answer, he says, "Mrs. Newman, am I getting too personal?"
I pat his arm. "Not at all. But since you are getting personal, call me Estelle."
"Okay."
"So how come? Well, perhaps I'm too picky, haven't found the right one to commit to. Not that I haven't had proposals."
"I'm not surprised." He looks me over—lustily, it appears to me.
I squeeze his shoulder. "You're sweet, thanks."
He glances toward the TV, sips his wine and then faces me. "Just being honest. You're a very pretty lady. You must have seen guys, including me, checking you out at the club, around the pool, on the tennis courts. You look incredible in tennis duds."
I laugh. "Especially when I bend over to retrieve a ball, right?"
He grins. "I wasn't going to say that, but—"
"No, it's okay. Thanks again for the kudos. Coming from a young, handsome stud like you, that's quite gratifying to hear." I thumb the pearls around my neck, then drop my fingers to the top of my blouse, giving it a slight tug. Am I losing control?
He grins. "Stud? Not me. But I do okay."
"Yes, so I've heard."
He laughs. "Eddy exaggerates."
"Or maybe you're just being modest."
He shrugs.
I like this kid, secure enough in his manhood not to brag as some young men would. Am I getting wet? Yes, it's quite obvious. Jesus! I lower my eyes, shake my head.
"Mrs. Newman—I mean Estelle. Are you okay?"
"Just a little dizzy is all." Feeling shy, I can barely look him in the eye. "The wine, I guess."
He looks at my glass, still almost full. "You must not be much of a drinker. You've only taken a few sips."
"Right." I want to kiss him on his handsome mouth, feel his youthful stubble against my face. And that's just for starters.
He takes my hand. "Anything I can do?"
I giggle like a little girl. "I think you already have."
He slips his hand away and then over my right thigh and begins to rub it. "I'll stop doing this if you—"
"No, it feels good."
"So does your skin, smooth and baby-soft. A teen chick would envy your skin."
I can feel my breathing pick up and something roil in my tummy and moistness beneath my yellow panties. "Henry, maybe we should back off before something happens that we'll both regret."
"Like what?" He grins teasingly. "Look, we can always pretend."
If ever I needed to exercise some discipline, it's right now. Common sense tells me to back off, as I just told Henry. Except I don't. No, I lean into him, hold his face and then press my lips to his. Closing my eyes, my desire pours out of me via the most delicious smooch I've had in quite a while. Oh my! Ohmygod, what now? Only a gentleman would do what he's doing, keeping his hands off my erogenous parts that would send me over the top. I'd either faint or throw my legs wide open or both. He must sense that. He caresses my face as he kisses me, passionate but gentle, nothing pushy, nothing forced. Somehow, I manage to keep myself from snapping open his jeans.
"That was some pretense," I say, minutes later. "The real thing must be off the charts."
He fluffs my light brown, shoulder-length hair, thumbs the bangs out of my eyes and across my forehead. "The most beautiful green eyes I've ever seen. They've seduced many a man, I bet."
"Not by design, I can assure you." He flashes me a look of amused incredulity. "Okay, sometimes, maybe."
He grins and plants a kiss on my forehead. "And you smell really good, too. You've been told, I'm sure."
"Yes," I whisper, with eyes closed, feeling like putty in his hands, malleable and vulnerable and too weak to stop him from going further if he so chooses. Ambivalence hangs over me, for a part of me hopes that Edward arrives to spoil the fun, to keep me from doing something that isn't exactly kosher.
As if to read my mind, Henry says, "I want to make love to you so bad it's killing me. The only thing holding me back is facing Eddy again. That wouldn't be easy." He hugs me as I rest my head against his chest.
"It would be much worse for me, honey. He lives with me, don't forget."
Neither of us is watching the TV screen. It all sounds like dull noise, the crowd's roar whenever one of the women scores a point and the pong of their rackets during volleys.
"We should be watching the match," I say, half in jest. "It would keep us out of trouble." I press closer. "Yet sometimes risks are worth taking."
By way of demonstration, I take the initiative in leading us back to where we were—locked in passionate make-out. We'll be on safe ground if it goes no further than this. But that's a big if and one that looks more ridiculous as the minutes pass. In fact, it fades like my interest in Wimbledon the moment I kick off my house slippers, then reach under my blouse and unsnap my bra. Then, when Henry begins to tongue my firm, B-cup sized boobs, the match is the last thing on my mind.
"Very nice," he says.
I assume he's referring to my boobs. "Not too small? Some guys would think so."