I do not know why, but I have always been attracted to older men. Perhaps it is because my own father was so kind to me. Perhaps it is because for some strange reason all my early teachers and coaches were male. Unlike so many girls that have sad histories of the older men misusing and abusing them, my life has been filled with heroes!
Younger guys on the other hand, by that I mean guys my own age, have without exception treated me as some sort of sexual conquest. Even the guys who have been nice, have seemed to have had a hidden agenda. Each time I have trusted a guy and thought I had finally found one as wonderful as my own father, I have been let down, crushed, heartbroken.
Up until the recent past, I have never had sex with a man older than I am. I have never really been sexually attracted to old guys in "that way." I had compartmentalized my feelings into the "warm and affectionate" feelings I had towards older guys who came into my life, and the "hot and sexy" feelings I had towards the college-age men. Somehow, the idea of fucking a man over 45 seemed to be somewhat incestuous. I would not have even ever thought of doing the horizontal tango, had not a couple of men in the throws of a middle life crisis propositioned me.
But now that I had graduated from college, I felt the need to take full control of my sexuality. I was tired of being a toy, an object, a plaything. I had heard stories of businessmen, away from home. I knew that older men found me attractive. I wanted to be the one to feel what it was like to be the hunter, or huntress in this case. I put on my nicest dress, painfully applied my makeup, powdered, perfumed, and primped until I had obtained the closest thing I could to perfection.
I arrived at the lounge in the Hilton Hotel at about 9:30 pm. The music was a far cry from what played at the clubs I used to frequent when in college. The lights were dim and there was just enough smoke to provide an offensive order without being overwhelming. I scanned the bar. At the end closest to the door were three guys laughing it up, they were out! A few seats down was a somewhat overweight, balding, older man with glasses. I had been with a few larger guys, and honestly did not want to hold that against him, but older and large was just too much for one coming out party. Next to him was a couple. At the far end of the bar was a rather distinguished man, his temples were graying, but he had overall dashing good looks.
My heart raced and my mind raced as I walked what seemed to be the unending route to his end of the bar. Not wanting to appear too bold, I sat a couple seats away from him and ordered a "fuzzy navel." Our eyes met in the mirror behind the bar a couple of times as I sipped my drink. He was minding his own business. I suppose he thought I was meeting somebody. I turned and made the first move "Hi, my name is Amber" I said "are you visiting Nashville?"
"Hi, I'm Mike, nice to meet you" he said, "I'm in on business for the week."
"So how are you enjoying Nashville?" I said, not really wanting to appear to bold. "To tell you the truth, things have been so busy that I haven't gotten out of the hotel much, except on business. We closed the deal late today, and I'm leaving in the morning."
This was like a dream come true! He was from out of town, last night in the city! "Well, we can not have you leaving without anything exciting to talk about when you get back!" I said with a wink and a smile.
"I could use a little excitement," He laughed softly as he replied.
I moved down to the next bar stool. "What are you drinking?" I asked.
"Gin and tonic" he replied eying his nearly empty glass.
"Can I buy you one?" I asked, eager to affirm that it was I who was doing the deal making.
"That would be nice." He answered, not missing a beat. "Any strings attached?