I love him to death. I really do. He's a wonderful husband, and the greatest dad in the world. I've been working so many hours and running back and forth to Chicago that he has had to practically becum the full time dad and part time mom. I regret the time I spend away but I'm becoming more and more successful, more and more renowned and I don't want to lose this. I've faded into the background for much too long; it's time for me to make my mark in the world.
I've lost weight. I'm working out more than ever before and I want to be sure that when we retire, we can retire in great comfort - traveling, playing golf, doing whatever we want with no worries. I will pay off this house in the next five years so I am busting my ass at work to go further and further and further.
However, at the same time, because he has to do the "mom" thing as well, the house is starting to cum apart at the seams.
First, the chandelier in the dining room went out. Before he was able to do anything about that, the light over the kitchen sink died, then the light over the foyer and now the light over the front porch. What is up with this? I wonder. I am inconvenienced by this but more than that, I am concerned about a possible fire hazard since it seems there is a circuitry problem here.
I am concerned enough, in fact, to talk to a couple of guys at work about it. They tell me that I should really hire an electrician, since, although he IS the worlds greatest dad and he has many, many other gifts, I believe it was I who had to explain to him the difference between a flathead and a Phillips head screwdriver. So this is liable to never get taken care of otherwise. And I live in fear that I will drive home from the airport to find a smoking heap of ashes.
I know he will be upset if I spend the money to hire someone but, once it's done he really can't complain. I hope. I check my calendar and find I'll be available next Tuesday from noon through the end of the day. I get the telephone number of an electrician from a guy at work. It's his son's best friend and he has recently been out of work, and would really appreciate the side job. I call and arrange to have him come by.
I am just excited about the prospect of not having to worry about it anymore and arrange for him to meet me at the house on Tuesday around noon. I explain to him what I need done; he tells me there is really nothing to it. By Tuesday at 11:00 a.m., I am finished at work and I've decided to replace the ostentatious chandelier in the dining room with a ceiling fan and I run by Home Depot on my way home to choose one.
I'm wearing something that is a little bit of a departure for me today. When I was shopping last, I found the prettiest little short pink on pink silk wrap skirt, almost like a sarong and it catches the slightest breeze when I walk and it feels so good against my bare legs. I've opted to not wear stockings today because of the temperature outside. Also, I'm wearing a white blouse that I may have dried just a little too long in the dryer. It seems to be pulling across the bust a little and that one critical button has popped open at the most inopportune time this morning. I normally have safety pins in my desk but it seems I've loaned them to people who have failed to return them. Note to self: Replace safety pin supply.
And I silently curse myself for wearing these black 4 inch heels into the store. I can never get over how huge this store is. And because of my lack of time and my choice of footwear, I am more aware of it today.
I am surprised at the attention I am receiving here. It seems as I round each corner and reach the end of each aisle, I am met by male associates asking if they can be of assistance. Did I hear "MILF needs assistance in aisle 13b"? I guess the sight of a woman in a skirt and heels is a rare one here. I am frustrated that I am running later than I anticipated but I know what I'm looking for, having searched the website previously to choose just the perfect fan.
I'm bending over to read the price tag on a low shelf when a guy approaches and offers to help. And while I've already made my choice, he fortunately, offers to carry the fan box to the cashier for me, since in my haste, it didn't occur to me to grab a cart. I pay for the fan, hurry to the car and rush home to meet "Seth." He is patiently waiting for me in the driveway when I arrive.
I pull into the garage and pop the trunk open to allow access to the new ceiling fan as Seth steps out of his truck. He has apparently pulled on a denim shirt and is buttoning it as he approaches me. He reaches out, takes my hand and introduces himself. I cannot believe how good looking this young guy is. He has blonde hair cut short on the sides, longer on the top and parted left of center with the bluest eyes I have ever seen and lips that look like a cherubs "bow." Even with the long-sleeved shirt he seems extremely well built. I flush as he holds my hand in both of his a moment longer than I expect and looks searchingly into my eyes and grins broadly.
I break the gaze (what did I see in his eyes?) and turn toward the trunk of the car to reach for the ceiling fan to find as I've driven, it has slipped to the farthest part of the trunk, forcing me to bend and reach for it and at this angle, my ass is pointing skyward.
I feel my skirt hem rise as I reach and am both embarrassed and emboldened by this at the same time. He reaches for the fan as well and for a brief moment, our arms brush against each other and I don't know about him, but I feel an instant intense physical attraction and momentarily consider asking him to return when someone else is home.
But I really want this project completed and I really hesitate to inconvenience him so I suck it up and allow him to retrieve the fan from the trunk. I unlock and open the door from the garage into the house and welcum him into my home.
Because it is a split level house, the garage is on the lower level and you have to climb first six stairs to the landing then seven steps to the upper level. I am all too aware of this as he follows behind me carrying the box up the stairs. I can feel his gaze on my bare legs and wonder if, from his vantage point, he can see up my skirt or if he can see the moisture starting to spread there, for I am excited by him, his good looks, the masculine smell of him, his nearness and the fact that we are here in the house alone, together.
It did not even occur to me that he would be attractive, much less this attractive. Damn it. And as frequently as I've discussed "changing it up in the bedroom" with my husband lately, he's just not interested in anything that consists of more than the "missionary position" and for longer than about 3 minutes on anything but odd dated Saturdays. And I am FEELING it at this point.