Shutting the laptop, he was tired of editing photos, it seemed it was all he did anymore, get up in the morning let Gracie his ever-present companion out to do her business while he sipped a hot cup of coffee, Gracie was one of the most vital pieces to the puzzle that was his life since which was forever changed on 2:08 PM, November 20, 2016.
That was the day that time stood still, and his life took a Rod Serling Twilight Zone twist into the unimaginable. His love, life, everything had slowly slipped away into the abyss of sleep never to wake again, Maggie (she hated that name, real name Peggy) was his strength, and conscious, the very soul of his life, they had been in love for 47 years and married 43, resulting in four beautiful children who were now adults with families of their own, not to mention the many lost souls that drifted in and out of their lives and house as easily as the gentle Southeast Georgia breeze brought relief in the summertime.
It had not been an easy life, military life can be demanding of a marriage, but his Maggie managed where many women threw up their hands and quit, some returning home to their parents, and the rare few who ran off with another man to a hopefully better future that often ended up much worse than the one in which they felt trapped.
His life now consisted of his grandchildren and great-grandchildren, he had gotten to that part of life, his winter which he still demanded was his early Autumn, Army family, photography, and Gracie his ever-present shadow. She went everywhere with him, except in the truck, they both learned early she was not a mobile type of lady, she stayed home. Yet still his life was a full as it possibly could be, with the one missing piece that was his puzzle, the most important piece, someone to be a part of his life, he was content, but he wanted to be happy, the kind of happy you get when there is somebody in your life that cares for you as much as you do them.
CJ had tried the usual dating sights, which either failed or matched him with a woman whose life was filled with misery and disappointment like his own, everyone knows that sadness combined with grief equals despair in fifth gear, you get nowhere fast, and the ride is a horribly painful one often ending with hurt feelings and anguished souls.
He had become so desperate that he began exploring the "fetish' sites. I mean who doesn't love tits right? Big tits with big juicy nipples! This he knew was just his cup of tea, he had always been an ardent fan of suckling, oh how he loved the feeling of a nipple in his mouth, the flesh of a breast against his face, the smell of a woman's body and perfume that mixed together took him to a new level of eroticism.
It had all begun years ago, was it really almost fifty years? His wife was breastfeeding their oldest son, when it became apparent that she was producing too much milk. Sharing her milk with other young mothers who had trouble producing didn't seem to help, she had become a milk factory which necessitated her spending time expressing the extra to give her poor aching breasts relief. One afternoon while passing the bedroom, Maggie called out to him, entering she said that she heard of a new way to help in ridding herself of the extra milk with no pain, then smiling sweetly she said 'you have to drink it' shocked he told her he wasn't drinking breast milk, if he wanted some there was cow's milk in the refrigerator, you know the 'moo' kind. Laughing she said, 'you just might like it, Jackies husband loves hers', then she began telling him how she learned about Adult Breastfeeding and its benefits to both mother and husband. thinking about Jackie he was thinking to himself how he would love to get hold of her breasts, then as if reading his mind, she said 'you know mine are as big as Jackies now, I see you looking at her hooters, and believe me they are some beauties, look at mine', then allowing the towel to drop upon her lap there before him were two gorgeous pink breasts with the most luscious nipples he had ever seen, pregnancy had been very good to his wife.
lying next to her at her urging he gave it a shot but nothing happened, becoming frustrated he gave up, then chuckling Mags grabbed his arm and said 'no like this come her baby, I have something special for you' the word 'baby' struck a chord in him, and he suddenly became very attentive to her needs.
Lying his head in her lap as instructed she offered a beautiful full breast with a drop of milk on the plumb rosy nipple, 'taste it' he did and found it to be sweet and not that bad after all, 'now suck on my breast' willing to try something new he gave it a shot and failed, then after instructing his how to properly latch on he caught on quickly, and he was getting it from straight the tap, he began loving their time together and discovered he loved breasts more than he thought, he was in love with his wife's breasts, and when she would finish nursing their son it was his turn and he was always ready for his share of what he came to refer to as 'his liquid gold.'
Some years later Maggie after weaning their last child Mags decided to quit lactating which resulted in a boycott of their marital bed, CJ did not take the news well that his favorite drink was going away, if had decided that if she was denying him her milk, he likewise would deny her of his, and he stood firmly on his protest of no milk.
After a month of no sex, he was becoming quite irritable, Maggie was becoming so tense that not even her best toy would give her relief, she needed her man. So, one night as he slept, she silently slipped under the sheet with him, she had pretty much dried up and thought there might be a chance of reconciliation. Completely nude she cozied up to him with her head above his so that her breasts were point blank in front of his mouth, then carefully she took the slightest dab of peanut butter and applied it to her left nipple, after which she placed it against his lips. In his sleep his unconscious mind registered something at his mouth, and he while very much asleep licked his lips and in doing so tasted his second favorite treat, peanut butter, creamy peanut butter that he always dolloped upon her nipples for his own version of a peanut butter milk shake, this was his favorite treat!
Tasting it again he then opened his mouth as if to have some more and that was when she inserted her plump nipple, the reaction was ingrained since birth, and made stronger in his suckling of Mags breasts when she would feed him. they had learned through research that suckling is something that babies are born with and when breastfed it is reinforced as proven by research in the study of mane and women being so attracted to the female breast, though the inherent desire is much stronger in men, and accounted 85-90% of men being desirous of women's breasts and of that amount at least 95% yearning to suckle, not only for the nutritional aspect but more importantly the nurturing effect on the male brain and the soothing, calming state of being that comes from such contact.
While she was sick, battling blood clots and heart disease their sex life became non-existent, with cuddling to soothe her aches and pains being the only thing he wanted in his was of comforting his wife whom he was slowly but certainly losing to heart disease. She never smoked, had done everything right yet she ended up paying such an awful cost. For the longest time CJ was now boycotting God for this travesty, and only recently has he begun reaching out asking forgiveness and seeking why, why her? Then it came to him one day in the form of his eldest daughter, when he was especially despondent, she said 'Daddy, you know I believe that people, special people like Mommy are only in our lives for a season, then after taking us to a certain point they have to leave us to help someone else, that's what Angels do.' It was the perfect explanation for Peggy she was the one who saved his life, now at 63 he had to move on by himself, later hoping to find another Angel to walk with him.
Now after being alone for so long, he found he missed the bond of Adult Breastfeeding so much, it was an important missing piece of the puzzle to his life that had been non-existent for years since Maggie had become ill and their sex life decreased to nothing. But in his mind, it was secondary to keeping his wife well.
