I'd never had a massage in the UK. I'd never needed one or wanted the sort of pleasure I gained from attending spas in such places as Crete, Thailand and Spain. I had enjoyed those. They were part relaxing, part sheer pleasure and part, I knew, but they were not sold that way, part erotic. But now I needed one. I needed a proper massage. My back was so tight and had been for two weeks now. I had to do something.
I wasn't a member of the gym just down the road from where I lived with my mum. She was a member and it was her suggestion that I book a massage there.
"There seems to be quite a few masseurs, some quite dishy too" she said smiling as she climbed out of our very warm, half indoor and half out pool. She was topless as she often was nowadays. The sight of her full, naked breasts swaying and jiggling as she walked towards me made me gulp. I had a thing about my mum, but it was in my mind and no one knew about it.
I was amazed when I saw you coming towards me. You were one of the guys who I saw in the pub. Getting on a bit, probably in your late fifties or early sixties, you were still pretty cool and the glint in your eyes and the way you held my gaze just a little longer than etiquette suggests, made me realise there was still lead in your pencil. I had never thought of you in a sexual way and although I was quite inclined towards older men, a thirty five or so year age gap was pushing it. We had exchanged pleasantries and I had seen you looking at me quite often so I felt I knew you.
"Hi" you said walking over to where I was sitting in the waiting room. You were wearing shiny blue tracky trousers with three white lines down the sides of each legs and a white tee shirt. You looked good.
"Oh hello" I replied looking at you.
"You're next in the queue" you told me taking a folder from a tray and opening it."
"Am I?"
"Yes."
"So what's that mean?"
"That you get me for your massage."
"Oooo that's nice."
You led me into a very clean, almost sterile cubicle and after glancing at the folder said. "I see you want a full body massage."
"Well there was no option on the website as to which parts, so I went for the lot."
"Why not?"
"No reason."
"Do you have any problems?"
I almost said 'Well other than fancying my mum, having a forty two year old as a lover and posing in underwear and naked for photographers, no I don't.' But instead I told you about the tightness in my back and my upper leg at the back.
"Have you been doing anything strenuous that puts a strain on your back?" You asked a knowing smile on your face.
"Nothing, well no more than usual."
"So what's usual?" You asked looking me right in the eye.
I didn't know what to say so I mumbled. "Oh you know."
"Any idea what has caused it?"
"No."
"Well let's get going shall we?"
"Going where?"
"With the massage."
"Oh I see, yes let's."
You said something about me putting myself in your hands, which I thought was a bit yucky, but then age does that.
You explained that I should get undressed while you were out of the room and lie on the table with the thin sheet over me.
"Everything?"
"Well keep your panties on if you are shy" you told me raising the erotic barometric pressure.
As I undressed that phrase came into my mind several times. 'I'm from Essex' I thought 'We can do no panties.'
I undressed completely carefully folding my top, jeans and bra onto a chair leaving my little dark blue thong on top of the pile. I wondered if you would notice. Lying naked under the sheet as you had told me I momentarily wondered just what I was doing. Wasn't a bit risky? Wasn't it possible that masseurs tried to take advantage of women? Why were there no female masseuses? But, I rationalised, the gym was owned by Virgin and they were a global and well-respected company who surely wouldn't let anything untoward go on at their gyms! And on top of that you were an 'elder statesman' who I vaguely knew and that reassured me. I smiled when I thought 'he may even be past it!'
By the time you came back I had almost forgotten about all that and after a few minutes of you massaging my back all such thoughts had left my mind completely. You had pulled the sheet down so it was round my waist or did it go further, did you lift it up, did you have a peep at my bum? That didn't seem to matter, though once the warm oil and your hands were on my back. You clearly knew what you were doing for you were massaging me very deeply, more so than at the spas, but you didn't hurt me. I could feel the tension and tightness leaving me and I relaxed and gave into the luxurious feelings of your hands and fingers on my back. You started at the bottom of my back just by my waist and gradually worked upwards and outwards. The warm, sweet smelling oil and the sensations from your fingers combined to make me feel very mellow. It was almost as if I went into a trance or you hypnotised me for nothing else seemed to exist other than my body, your hands, the oil and the massage table. In my mind they merged together and became one, they became everything, they became my world. My body was tingling everywhere and it felt as if my mind was leaving it and was floating around. It was just like smoking a strong joint.
Several times you asked if everything was ok and my replies varied from 'fine' to 'very nice' a few minutes later' and then 'divine' after what might have been ten minutes or an hour, my mind having lost the ability to record time so intoxicated was it with pleasure.
You had slid well down my back several times with your fingers seeming to go slightly under the sheet covering my bum and onto my cheeks. A couple of times your fingers slid almost into the crease between my cheeks just stopping when they reached my coccyx . That sent little tremors through me; 'were they accidents' I wondered. Also as you slithered your hands up or down the sides of my body I would feel them brush the edge of my breasts and that began to arouse me. 'Count sheep, think of a cooking recipe or recite some Shakespeare' I told myself fighting hard against the temptation.
I felt you lift my left arm, bend it at the elbow, ease it behind me, turn it over and place the back of my wrist on my slone. That lifted my shoulder joint up a little. Although I had never had that done to me before I didn't think anything of it especially when you started massaging through my armpit round and up onto my shoulder blade. But then I felt your hands sliding further downwards right along the area where my breast becomes my side. The sensation was acute and immediate. I may have grunted, but said nothing even when your hand went further. 'Is he really massaging the side of my breast' I asked myself? I knew the answer and that was yes for slowly you went further and further down the side of my boob and it felt not only wonderful, but perfectly ok. But this shouldn't happen. You shouldn't be doing this or was I imagining it? Maybe accidental brushings of sensitive parts of a body are unavoidable.