When I woke, for a moment I had no idea where I was. The light was golden, there were no sounds but birds and maybe children playing, laughing. I seemed to be floating somewhere, and then it all came back -- St. Petersburg, the high-ceilinged bedroom in my new apartment, the big double window opening onto the courtyard, a little dusty playground, trees, gravel walks and old battered benches frequented by groups of old men and women. I didn't remember -- and then I did. I'd come back from the university, taken a shower, then without dressing lay down on the bed and must have passes out. Jet lag maybe, or being somewhat spent after Akiko's treatment, and cumming in Lyudmilla's hand. The light -- I had no idea what time it was. I got up and went to the window, as though I'd be able to tell from the sun, the sky, anything out there. I must have been barely awake. I stood for I don't know how long at the big window -- it went from nearly the ceiling to about mid thigh, with light lace curtains -- before I realized there were two girls on a balcony right there, on the building perpendicular to mine. They were looking down into the courtyard, not at me, and I moved slowly back into my room, and got dressed.
I was at the statue first again, and when I saw Dasha coming, I felt the excitement again. She'd let her long red hair loose, something few women seemed to do here, and it flowed like a river lit by sunset, the way her long legs swung her hips, her casual confidence, in her movement, her smile, her gray eyes on me, waiting for her.
Her smile played on her lips as she stood before me. Amid the freshness of the air off the trees, the flowers and grass, and the drifting stink of the car and truck exhaust, the dust, I could smell the warmth of her body, and the flood of her hair.
"Come. Let's go," she said.
She took my arm and turned us along the path we'd taken the day before.
"You went to the university today?" she said. "Tell me what happened there."
I took a breath, but somehow all I could do was tell it all, and I did, from how the girl had seen us, to seeing her, how we were left alone and had to confront what she'd seen, how I had let her do what she would, whatever she wanted, and how she had. And then how Lyudmilla Ivanovna had caught me, and took me in hand. I was ashamed of myself, felt worse than ashamed, and when I was finished, Dasha said nothing for a moment. Then, to my surprise she reached over and grabbed at my penis, hanging flaccid, ashamed I guess too.
"Well, that's something," she said when she let me go. "It doesn't excite you to tell it. I know the girl, or, I have heard of her -- her intelligence, from Lyuda. She -- Lyuda -- is an old, old friend and I cannot fault you. She -- we share some of the same inclinations. She had told me about you, when you were hired, how Mitya said you looked just like my Daniil. If she caught you like that, she could not resist -- and you are not the kind of boy to stop her. This girl, though, Akiko?"
I nodded.
"I suppose it is unfortunate she saw you -- us," she said, but she laughed then. "Unfortunate for you, or maybe not. I think she will want to keep humiliating and abusing you, despite her cute face."
"Are you angry?" I asked.
"Angry? No. Why? Things happen. I do not own you. And -- I see how you are still looking at me. I don't own you -- but I think we both know you will be mine. Now, let's go."
We turn around and walked out of the park. She talked casually about mundane things, her day, customers, the other women in the market stalls, as though my story had never been. I watched the city, the few strange little cars, skinny teenagers in styles I had never seen before, so many blond, fair skinned. Everywhere people were selling things: books, plates, cups, silverware, little statuettes, kitchen supplies, knit things I couldn't identify, embroidery. I listened to her voice, let my eyes drift, and felt myself carried off somewhere, like when I'd woken up, where I was completely lost.
Then we we entered the courtyard of a building, went to a dark stairwell, and climbed. It was up five flights before she took out keys and unlocked three locks on a metal door, then started on more locks on a wooden door inside. It opened into a narrow hall, half-blocked with a dark wooden wardrobe with things stacked on top. She took off her shoes and put her feet in slippers.
"You can wear these, Dean," she said. "They will be yours now."
The slippers were new. I took off my sandals, put my feet in the slippers, and followed her into the apartment. It was more ornate than mine, and full of stuff -- books and clothes and furniture, heavy chairs, rugs hanging on the walls -- a woodland scene of bears, another of a boy and girl riding a wolf. There was a double door out to a balcony and sun rushed in around us, all deep gold.
"Sit down with me a moment before I finish dinner," she said.
I sat, but she was gone a moment, and when she came back, she had changed into a simple cotton house dress that buttoned up the front, with pale blue flowers scattered all over. It fit her body closely, showing off her waist and wide hips, her small high breasts, and the very short sleeves bared her strong, firm arms.
"I was thinking yesterday evening," she said as she sat beside me. "Of Pushkin and that novel in verse of his, you reading it and -- your attentions to me in the park. As a girl I read it, and those bits -- how they excited me. You too? How he could be so open about such a thing, and in a book we were all supposed to read as a masterpiece."
She lifted her legs, her feet bare, and the housedress fell open a bit up her thighs. I did know just what she meant, and remembered my own surprise and yes delight, at the unexpected turn, and the "jealous of the waves" that got to touch those feet he could not touch with his lips. There being no ocean waves here, I slipped to my knees on the floor before her, and not even lifting her feet, bent forward to kiss their smooth warmth.
I heard her sigh softly, felt her toes curl under my lips, and then she said, "My dear boy, did you do as I asked you to?"
I look up at her, the thrill of being there bowed before her, and nodded.
"You masturbated?"
"Yes," I said. "Thinking of you, I had to."
"How many times?"
"Twice."
"And you collected your seed?"
I nodded.
"Show me," she said."
Reluctantly, I left her feet and got my bag, brought out the little jar I had found in one of the cabinets in my kitchen, which now held as much of my sperm as I had been able to catch. When I gave it to her, she looked at it, opened the jar, smelled it.
"Two times?" she said.
I nodded.
"It looks nice, Dean, a good amount, nice color," she said. Then she handed it to me, still open and said, her toes playing up and down, "Pour your seed on my feet, and you can lick it off."
"I -- I wish I had cum on your feet in the first place," I said.
"And you would have licked it up?"
I nodded. "Could I -- now?"
"You mean, jerk off on my feet?" she asked, her toes dancing slowly now, up and down. "That's what you want?"
"Yes," I said softly. "Please. I'm so hard."