AUTHOR'S NOTE: This is a true story based on my recollections of a flight from San Antonio to Boston in 1975. The flight scenes and training scenes are true. Everything else is fiction...from the imagination of an old man. Only the names have changed. There is no sex in this story.
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Present Day
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My name is Aiden Downell. I'm almost 70 now. Sometimes it's hard to admit that my best days are behind me. I've been married for 32 years to a wonderful, caring woman. We have a 30-year-old daughter.
Three months ago, my wife's mother died. My wife's surviving siblings called her to go home because, as the oldest, it was her responsibility to settle the estate and decide how all the land, businesses, and houses were to be divided amongst the family.
Two weeks ago, I received a message from my wife that she wasn't coming back. She'd decided that her family there needed her more than I did. I asked if she'd ever return. She said no and that I should petition for a divorce and move on with my life. She is better at facing cold, hard truths than I am.
That evening I sat silently in the dark. I briefly considered suicide but I'm not that weak. I called our daughter and gave her the news. She was sad but seemed less surprised by the news than I was. We talked for a while before she admitted that she'd felt for a while that when my wife's mother passed, my wife would leave us for good to take over as matriarch of the family in the far east.
To lighten the mood, my daughter called her kids to the phone to say hello to me. She had two boys: six and five. She hadn't seen her husband since the day after her second son was born. But my daughter was determined and a hard worker. She had successfully climbed the corporate ladder at a major pharmaceutical company, so she and the boys weren't suffering. I'd asked if she wanted to move back home but she had declined. Turned out she'd met a man, another manager at her company, and they were very cautiously building a friendship. She hoped the relationship would flourish.
My daughter then suggested that I set up an account on one (or more) of the available social media platforms. That way I could keep up with what she and the boys were up to. She promised they would all accept something called a 'friend request'...she had to explain it to me but it sounded reasonable.
We started to hang up after I said goodnight to each of the boys. "Dad, do me a favor?" My daughter called out.
"Yeah?"
"Don't sit around feeling sorry for yourself. You've done everything you could for Mom and me. Now it's time for you to do things for you. Take that road trip driving around the lower 48 you always talked about. Play Golf. Start flying again. Do Something for you!"
"Thanks for the pep talk Sweetie. I'll talk to you soon."
"Goodnight, Dad. Please take care of yourself."
I didn't sleep very well that night. I went to bed around 2:00 AM and woke up with a start at 4:15 AM. I was scared and anxious. On automatic pilot I went to the kitchen and made a pot of coffee...just what I didn't need. I looked at my phone, then went to find my glasses so I could actually see what was on the screen. I found an e-mail from my wife's younger sister. She said my wife was sad, but didn't want to speak to me anymore. She thought it would be easier for both of us if we made a clean break (my words not hers) and any further communications go through the sister.
I opened up a reply screen and quickly typed 'FUCK YOU!' But that wasn't right; so, I just as quickly erased it and instead replied, 'I Understand.' Of course, that was a lie. After that I got a dustpan and broom and cleaned up the pieces of my phone from where it had shattered against the wall.
While it was still dark I walked around the house. I knew I wouldn't stay here any longer than necessary and I needed to try to identify those things I couldn't live without.
Over the next two days I gathered all of my wife's things she'd left behind. Keeping in mind that my wife was now in the tropics, I sorted everything between two piles: stuff she might want, and cold-weather items she'd never need again. I went up to the attic and dug out three large boxes we'd planned to use to send Christmas gifts to her family. I wrote out an inventory and sealed the boxes. I called a cargo expediter and scheduled them to pick up the three boxes and put them on a ship. The winter things I bagged up to take to the Salvation Army donation box.
On the third day, I left the house for the first time. I visited a local retailer and bought a new android phone and a mid-range laptop computer. As soon as I got back to the house that I no longer considered a home, I got my old number transferred. That afternoon my phone rang. It was my daughter reporting that she hadn't seen any friend requests yet and she wondered what I was doing. I told her I was working on it.
I unboxed the computer and synced it up with my wi-fi. I searched for social media platforms as my daughter ordered; the only one I'd heard of was Facebook. So, that's the one I signed up for, and sent the friend requests to my daughter and grandsons.
The boys responded immediately...and prolifically. Before I knew it I had photos of their home and bedrooms; the boys playing T-ball and soccer; my daughter and grandsons at church; my daughter and grandsons sitting with a man named Charles and eating ice cream cones. Charles looked perfectly respectable...there was no way he was good enough for my daughter.
Again, all that was two weeks ago. This morning, when the anonymous friend request arrived, I almost deleted it before I read the note: "Dear Mr. Downell, do you remember a bear named Winston?"
How could I forget.
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Fifty Years Ago
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The young US Air Force Airman First Class (A1C), he'd only just turned 20, sighed happily as he rinsed himself under the cold, outdoor shower, at Camp Bullis, near San Antonio, Texas. He'd just finished several weeks at the camp undergoing Air Force Security Police Air Base Ground Defense training before leaving for his new assignment in Germany.