Once again, nothing erotic in this tale, not really. My wife is home from school now, thank God.
For some reason I just don't feel like writing when I am living all alone for weeks at a time.
Perhaps it is because nothing happens?
Anyway, just some updates here, lord knows what will come up next.
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I drove the 150 miles up to Portland in my wife Debra's Camaro to pick her up at the airport the other day. She has been off finishing up her Degree to become a full fledged physician.
Of course, this meant I got to spend lots of time alone at our place on the Oregon coast, and while I did live alone for nearly a decade after my wife Dotty passed on, the last few years I have had Debs snuggled up to me.
So nearly a year of two weeks at a time alone, and the last couple of stretches nearly a month takes it's toll.
I have to admit that today I am a completely different man than I was before. Dotty and I were deeply in love also, but it was the conservative sweet kind of love that many long term married people share.
Even our first coupling, after quite a few dates with good evening kisses was different.
I remember I held her in my arms, and told her I loved her and wanted to make love to her. Dotty tipped her head back and looked me in the eyes with a sweet smile.
"I think I would like that very much, Danny!" She said.
Simple, isn't it? Ask nicely, success!
Our first time was different, also. Usually it is petting and kissing and seeing how far one can get with their hands before the object of one's attention stops them.
In Dotty's bedroom, she walked in and began to undress. I stood there in awe, watching. Once naked, she turned to me with a smile.
I looked her up and down. Nice breasts, mild sag, a smallish pout to her tummy, her crotch covered with a full mass of soft pubic hair. Earthy appearing in a way, a woman fully developed in all of her glory, giving herself up to me with no silly modesty or concern.
"Does my body look all right?" She asked, knowing the answer. I didn't respond, I couldn't. She took my breath away, so I just reached for her.
I will say it was a wonderful first experience, followed by many times just like that.
There was no such a thing as harsh words, lovemaking was Saturday night regular as clockwork. Some might find that boring, I didn't and I doubt Dotty did.
Thus, twenty years, less four days.
After she was gone, there were 10 long years of waiting to die, living all alone makes tomorrow not matter one hell of a lot. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't complaining, Dotty and I got those 20 good years of loving peace and comfort.
My life became wake up, have some Coffee, wander down to the CafΓ© near the waterfront, later maybe go fishing if the tide was right, chat with and tell lies to some other old coots I ran into, flirt mercilessly with the 50 year old waitress at the cafΓ©, then go home, eat, watch TV, go to bed.
The only difference between the days was what was on TV.
Then I met Debra.
She is a Nurse practitioner, actually she is a Doctor now, she was a Nurse at the local clinic up until a year ago.
I still am not 100% sure of what happened or why, she looked at me, a 65 year old partially bald headed and 40 pounds overweight old coot and...wanted me??
Go ahead. Explain that one to me. I could say it was the size of what she had in her hand since my pants were down during that office visit, but the truth there is I am perfectly average in that department.
Hell, back then I couldn't have gotten one up stiff enough to do anything if my life depended on that, except that Debra doesn't believe in can't OR won't.
I was floored when she sort of invited herself along on a date with me? We went out, and we had a ball, no doubts about that. I actually danced, first time in maybe 15 years.
SHE wanted to have sex later that same evening so that meant she needed me to be involved, I guess?
For about 90 minutes that night I was 25 again, and I can't explain that either.
Go nearly a decade without sex of any kind except for the rare solo sessions, then suddenly you are with a willing female?
And find you can get it up and going two and one half times? With the willing female screeching her head off about how much she loves you?