My favorite day of the year has always been Valentine's Day. When I was a little kid, my Dad would bring me a special doll and a bouquet of roses for my Mom. My brother would be dressed in his Sunday finest, and the four of us would go to the Horn and Hardart Automatic restaurant. It was such an exciting time. Dad had a sack of small change, and we could look through the silver windows in the Automat and choose any meal or dessert we wanted.
Dad was a policeman, and we always felt safe with him. Then, the unexpected happened. Dad was assigned to the honor guard that protected his honor, the Mayor of New York. A crazy man with a machete leaped forward at the conclusion of a ceremony, hoping to kill the Mayor. Dad pushed his boss out of the way, but the machete came down on Dad's neck, severing the carotid artery. He never made it home that night. My shrink feels this childhood trauma is the reason for my rampant promiscuity. I'm embarrassed to say; my shrink says I am a nymphomaniac; men who used me called me a 'cum dumpster.'
Most readers would call me crazy, a sexed-up crazy, a certifiable nymphomaniac. Well, folks, I've had a turbulent life, mostly accommodating the whims of sex-crazed men who used and abused me, fucked me, filled me with their goo, and cast me off like trash. My virginity, don't remind me; I lost that years back to a Schwinn bicycle. I've had enough therapy to think maybe I am cured, at least until I slip up again.
I've lived most of my life in or around New York City. I've spent a lot of time walking, riding the subway, and on my back or bent over a chair while some guy I'd just met shoved his dingus inside me. Sometimes, they see me walking late at night in the theater district when I went down to the corner bodega for a soda, pulling over in their car, saying, "Hello Dolly," like I was some theater marquee, and inviting me inside their auto. Did the gentleman get out and open the door for me? No, he'd pushed the passenger door open, almost knocking me off my feet. "Git in here!" They'd shout.
We'd end up in an empty parking lot where some guy would get his fingers on my tits or in my pussy, and seeing he was getting no argument, the stranger would proceed to the next base, under my skirt, and plowing the field quickly like a farmer worried he'd miss the harvest deadline. In reality, the guy hoped to finish the job before a cop caught him with his pants down. Once, a cop started knocking on the window, and this guy just pushed me out the door, shouting to the cop,
"You can have her next."
And the officer did just that, grabbing me by the arm and walking me to the back of the lot. My bare ass nearly froze as the cop lifted my skirt high and fucked me against the cold metal door behind the parking lot attendant's locked booth. That cop was large, and he fucked me so hard I was sore for a week.
I'm sure some of my readers may wonder what effects all this frequent sex has on a woman's body. Men, when they come, curse or shout; some say, "Thank you," and others make funny noises and silly faces. If they could see how stupid they look, they might consider giving up sex altogether. I suppose some women make noises, too. I'm told that a noisy woman excites a man, and they cum faster if the gal is a sounding board. I never made noise. If it was pleasurable, I might smile, but most of the sex was not enjoyable; it was a duty I felt I was required to perform.
Did it hurt? Sometimes it hurt a little, sometimes a lot, especially if I was dry and the guy's knob was large. Occasionally the guy would spit on his dodit, but that didn't help much. Maybe I was blessed with a reasonably large pussy. One black guy looked at my slit and said, "Jesus, you got one of the biggest cunts I ever saw. If I crawled inside, I'm sure I'd end up right in the middle of hell."
Being large down there is a defense against pain, if a guy is hung under six or seven inches. A five-inch dick is as easy as chewing bubble gum. That is an easy ride. The thick ones and extra long ones can be problematic. I've had guys complain that with some women, "their prick hits the back wall." I don't recall that happening to me, although a very long dick poke can be painful. Width is worse than length in a cock, but if you have to take it in the ass, just about any cock will fit. If he has a huge penis, relax and tell him to take it slow.
Sometimes, I'd have sex with friendly guys, and I might even have enjoyed it. I was too embarrassed to answer if they asked me if I had come (orgasmed.) When the sex was finished, they'd ask for my phone number, but I'd act like I didn't understand; sometimes the older guys would press a twenty-dollar bill on my tits, and other times a nasty guy, one who often could complete the act, would call me a whore and literally boot me out the car door.
After a man gets off, his true nature becomes very apparent. One time, a very short dude punched me in the face after he missed my bejeezus and came all over my leg, but I forgave him; it isn't easy being a dwarf, and he was pretty well hung. He must have felt bad as he came around a few times after that and apologized and just asked for a blow job.
My name is Janet Pilgram. No, not really, but that will do for this story. I'm five foot two, a white girl with brown-blond hair, two B-plus breasts, and a curvy medium-sized tush. Black guys like my curvy ass. They say it reminds them of their mama. I always thought that was a strange comment, but I think if they loved their mother, it's not so strange.
I hate pubic hair and always shave myself, sometimes several times a week. It's an obsession. Most girls think I use mascaras, but my eyebrows are dark and full, and my curled eyelashes are not fake but natural. Back in school, we weren't allowed to wear makeup. Teachers have tried to pull them off, but they stay put.
Yesterday was my birthday; I'm thirty-five years old. Maybe the time is ripe to move on, find a nice guy, and settle down. Perhaps move to Miami, where it's always warm, and find a little Cuban hotel with a few musicians who entertain. I would go there once or twice a week with a loved one and relax, breaking away from my addictive, destructive behavior.
My problem is I've always done what men told me to do. You might say I've made a lot of men happy. My shrink says my obedience to men is related to my father being a cop. When I give in to strangers' sexual desires, I am trying to find my Dad. Could that be true?
I was twenty when I finished secretarial school. I looked like a virgin, but I wasn't, not for a while. The school placement officer gave me a card that Friday after graduation with the address and name of a possible job. I took a subway to the midtown office, whose address was written on the card. It turned out to be a modern high-rise building on Park Avenue.
I took the elevator and pushed the button for the nineteenth, where the firm took up the entire floor. I waited at the desk outside the elevator to be cleared by the office manager, who took my placement card and walked me into Mr. Kenneth Drake's Office, telling me my boss would conduct the interview. He added, "Remember, Miss, if you are hired, proper office attire is a knee-length skirt and high-heeled shoes, no tight sweaters."
After a few minutes of small talk, Mr. Drake handed me a small yellow cushion and ordered me to "get on my knees." I thought maybe we would pray together, so I did what he asked. When I looked up, I saw he'd dropped his pants, and his erect cock was staring me in the face. I realized why some men called their dick "Old one eye."
"What are you waiting for," he shouted at me, "Suck it."
I was surprised, but it wasn't the first time I'd found myself in this position.
"Open wide; a big missile is headed your way," said Mr. Drake, and he wasn't kidding." He had a huge dick for an older guy.
I don't know if my recommendation for this job was courtesy of Dr. Groman, whose dick was a crucial part of our sucky-student-teacher relationship. Still, I opened my mouth like the Doc had taught me, and my boss sank his prick between my lips like he was scoring a hole-in-one.
"Now close your eyes," and Mr.Drake stood there for a few minutes clutching his balls with both hands until he shot his slimy sperm into my mouth.
"Close your mouth and swallow it," he ordered. To be sure, he reached down, pinching my nose. I did as directed.
"You get it all down?"