Here I am sitting here all alone on a Friday night again. My mind is not upon the books in front of me and once again I am thinking of other matters. I frown at that thought, for I am getting behind on my studies. I guess I should tell my story from the beginning.
My name is Nick and I am a twenty two year old man attending university and this is my last year of school. I live in a small apartment with my friend of many years. He has finished his education and now has a job, leaving him time to have parties and invite others over, but it does not fit well with my agenda. I need some quiet time to study, but there is little. I decided to come to the library to study when my roommate has people in. Perfect solution? It was, until I saw her. First it was just a twisted fantasy, now it's become an obsession. Even if I study elsewhere I come here to watch her.
I don't know her name or anything else other than what my eyes see. She is not unattractive, but just an ordinary looking fifty something looking woman doing her job as a Librarian. Her hair is pulled back on her head, brown with the odd silver one showing. She wears glasses, simple and academic looking. She is plump but not fat and she dresses very conservatively. Her breasts are large and I dream of them in a large plain white bra. There I go again, daydreaming when I have a task at hand. I don't know when it started, the dreaming of her I mean, but I can't stop. I want her. Even though I know she would never be with me. What am I going to do? I watch her and she has no idea that I am watching her.
There he is, the young man who studies so diligently. He is so quiet sitting there, unlike a lot of the others who come here at night. They snap their gum, move around noisily and talk on their cell phones when they are not supposed to. I frown at them and make that "uh hum" noise only we Librarians can make. Why can't they be quiet like he is? They leave the books on the tables when they go, instead of putting them away, so disrespectful. I look up from my task and see the quiet young man looking at me. I smile at him and he smiles back and quickly looks back to his books. It's almost like I caught him doing something he should not have. Come to think of it he has been looking at me more and more lately, I wonder why?
Oh no! She saw me watching her and she smiled at me. I hope she does not know what I was thinking about. I think I had better go for a few minutes before I do something really stupid. I stand and walk towards her, "Is it ok to leave my books there for a bit while I grab a coffee?" "Yes, that will be fine, I'll make sure nobody touches them."
I go down the block to the coffee shop and grab two coffees to go, my mind still thinking of her. Yes I bought her a coffee. Why? I don't know. It was just one of those spur of moment things. Maybe I am stupid, but I could just shrug it off as a 'thanks for watching my books' thing. I quickly walked back to the library and went inside, its dimness welcoming me. I walked up to her desk and offered her the coffee.
"Thanks for watching my things, I don't know how you like it, so I put cream in. Hope that's ok." Her tired face brightened when I gave her the coffee and I could see it had been a long time since anyone had done anything thoughtful for her. How sad.
"Thank you, cream is fine." She said taking the cup from my hand, her fingers brushing against mine for just an instant. A shock of desire tore through me with this small innocent contact. She did not seem to notice my reaction.
"You're welcome." I said and turned and went back to my table.
My hand was still tingling where she had touched me so innocently. I studied for a while managing to get one assignment completed. I glanced up and saw she was not behind her desk any longer. She was replacing the books the inconsiderate people had left on the tables for her to put away. While I thought this rude, it did me a chance to watch her nice ample ass move within the ugly pants she wore. The pants were an ugly beige shade and they did not compliment her at all, what I would give to pull them down around her ankles and ... stop that! My hands flexed with a mind of their own dreaming of squeezing her ass. I know I was staring and I could not stop, my eyes following her, watching her ass and her breasts sway. She is such a sensual sight.
Does she know I watch her? Does she know I want her? Is it wrong to be so infatuated with a woman I do not know, one old enough to be my mother? I don't think so. I think I am falling in love with her and I do not know her name. I can't study any more tonight, so I pack up my books and take the ones from the shelves I had used and wandered back to where I had gotten them. I stood looking at the shelves in the dim light, not quite remembering where I had gotten the books from exactly.
"Having problems?"
I jumped a bit because she had startled me. "Ummm, yeah." I stammered.
I was so nervous and I had not heard her approach until she spoke to me. "I can't quite remember where I found these."
"Let me help you." She walked up close to me with an arm full of books and stood close to me so she could see the books I held. I could smell her scent, it was faint and feminine and as much as she tried to downplay her sexuality, she could not. She smelled very erotic to me. "Hmmmm, you are in the right area, but just a couple sections out. Just let me put these away and I will help you."
She turned and quickly walked away. I could hear her steps moving quickly away from me. She was gone only a few minutes and then I could hear her return. My heart was pounding so hard I could hear it in my ears. She led me down the row and showed me where the books belonged. "You know, there are more books on this subject in the stacks, they are older but you may find them interesting. Would you like me to show you where they are?"
She looked at me with inquiring eyes. I never had gotten close enough to her before to notice how pretty those eyes were behind the scholars' glasses. They were the deepest brown I had ever seen, like fine dark chocolate. I longed to pull the glasses off her face and pull the pins from her hair. I wanted to rip her ugly beige suit from her curvy ample body. I hoped she did not notice how excited I was becoming in her presence.
"Yeah, that sounds great, maybe I can add something new to my paper." I followed her up the narrow stairs into the stacks. Very few people venture up here and you can smell the musty scent of old paper. The lights up here are older and dimmer than those downstairs. I was fantasizing about her being naked up here when she turned and went down a narrow aisle.