A New Beginning
An open door and a trip to heaven.
Matt Brown woke up and looked at the clock. It was 2AM and the TV was flashing in sleep mode. He shook off the fog in his head and thought for a minute. He had fallen asleep again watching porn. His shorts were down around his ankles. He wondered if Luke came home or if he stayed all night with his friend. He switched off the TV and went to check Luke's bedroom. The door was closed. That meant Luke came home. Luke had probably seen him again. He'd have to talk to him about it. He went to bed dreading that conversation.
Luke got up at 8. He had a late morning class and then planned to do some work in the Library. He dressed and went to the kitchen to get some breakfast. He got a bowl of cereal and sat down at the table. The memory of last night would not go away. His father had been watching porn almost every night. Luke wasn't surprised that his father was watching porn, but the stuff he was mumbling came as a complete shock. Something about his mom and dad doing stuff. Sex stuff. So far, Matt had not gotten any responses from his dating site profile. Luke felt sorry for him. But he was interested in what all the mumbling was about.
Matt entered the kitchen quietly. He got a cup of coffee and sat down across from Luke.
"Morning, Luke" he said first.
"Good morning, dad." Luke wasn't sure what he wanted to say.
Though he dreaded it, Matt continued. "Ah, about last night.
He hesitated, gathering his thoughts.
"Look, dad. You don't have to,"
Matt interrupted him.
"Yes I do, Luke. I need to explain some things. Can you understand that?" Matt asked him.
"Okay, dad. If you want to talk about it. What is it you want to say?"
"He we go" Matt thought. "Kids always think of their parents as these straight and narrow people. We hide stuff from our kids so they will. But really, we're just people. People with desires and likes and dislikes and everything. And if we're lucky, sometimes two people find each other and they share all those likes and dislikes and desires and the whole thing. That's what your mother and I had." Matt was beginning to tear up but he kept pushing. "And together, we decided that we liked sex. No, we loved sex. And we explored it completely. We enjoyed swinging with other people, Luke."
There, he said it. He looked ay Luke for a response before continuing.
Luke saw his father looking at him. "You think I'm shocked, dad? I'm not." He told him.
Matt sighed in relief.
"You still miss her, don't you?"
"Luke, I'll always miss her. But it's been thirteen years. I made peace with getting on with my life a long time ago. I'll always love her. Nut now, I miss the sex. The things we used to do and share. There was so much that we shared."
"Why did you wait so long to try to find it again?" Luke asked.
"Because of you, Luke. I was still trying to hide things. I didn't want you to find out about it." Matt admitted.
"Well, now I know and I'm not shocked. In fact, I think it's cool. So, now you should go for it, Dad." Luke said smiling.
Matt sighed again. Finally, he smiled at his son and agreed.
"Yeah. Go for it." he said smiling.
"Look, Dad. I know you've been out of things for a while. It's not like it was back before mom died. It's all free out there now."
Matt sat back surprised. His son that used to be a wallflower was speaking with so much confidence.
"You sound like you have some experience in the matter"
"I do, Dad. I've learned a lot in a short time."
"So, you have any advice for me? I'm all ears." Matt sat back stunned.
"'How about I take a look at your profile or set you up on some other sites?" Luke suggested.
"Okay. If you think that will help."
"You just gotta be honest, Dad. Never mind I'm your son. It's just two guys, okay? From the porn scenes you were watching last night it looks like you were into some pretty heavy group sex. Right?" he asked.
Matt blushed at first but then remembered what Luke had said. He forced himself to let the real story come out.
"God, your mother was beautiful. She was a beautiful person in the straight world, you know. But she was even more beautiful naked. And she loved it. She was the one who pulled me into it and I loved it too. We shared everything. Men, women, both together, couples, everything." He looked at Luke with glassy eyed look of lust.
Luke knew the look well. He'd seen it in Jane's eyes. "It's still out there, Dad. You can have it all again. You'll find someone who'll share all that with you again, you'll see."
Matt snapped back to reality. "I hope so, Luke. I hope so."
Luke thought about his dad all day. He couldn't concentrate at all. He almost decided to give up the idea of going to the library but at the last minute he went anyway. He was still lost in thought about his dad as he opened the library door. When he did a girl came falling out at him. He managed to catch her before she hit the ground. He helped her up and picked up the books she had dropped. When he handed her books to her with an "I'm sorry" he looked at her face. She was looking at his eyes and he froze. He literally froze.
She wasn't a ten. He would learn later that her measurements were 35-29-39. She had a pretty face. It was oval shaped, with a small nose, full lips and a nice smile. But those eyes. There was something about those deep blue eyes. They signaled a depth that Luke couldn't fully understand.
"It's ok. I just tripped and I thought the door would catch me." Her voice was calm and smooth.
"Are you alright?" he asked her.
"Yes, I'm fine. Thanks for catching me." she added.
"Sure. I'm glad you didn't fall. You might have gone down." Luke was fumbling his words and realized that was a poor choice. "I mean down the steps" he corrected sheepishly.
She was smiling, almost laughing, actually.
