Basketball season began, and my free time dissipated like morning fog. I worked on my computer, I ran practices and I worked out to stay in shape.
I told myself that I was exercising so that I would be able to show the girls new drills without getting winded. But I was also hitting the free weights. After getting out of the shower one night, I found myself checking the mirror, hoping to see some muscle definition.
Was I working out to impress a younger woman?
Maybe, but we'd hardly seen enough other since the birthday party and certainly hadn't had any heart-to-heart talks, or physical contact either.
Maybe it was just a one-time thing. She had this curiosity about me that she needed to satisfy, and now that she'd scratched that itch, she moving on someone more her age?
Maybe I was a letdown. Maybe she had some big fantasy about an older man, and I didn't live up to it, and now she doesn't want anything to do with me.
In the meantime, Heather was turning out to be a great assistant coach. Rather than focus on big things like running plays, devising a game plan and strategies, Heather had a real knack for the little things. She could see when a girl wasn't cutting right off a screen, wasn't getting her feet squared on a shot. She made little tweaks that were starting to pay off.
Lori and Kim were developing into real threats from long range. Autumn and Crystal weren't going to scare teams from the three-point line, but they were both getting much better at foul shots.
I started spending more time down in the low post guarding Paige and Carrie.
The old coach used to have Paige trying to guard Carrie because she was the only one who could even come close to Carrie's size. Still, at 5-foot-8, she was giving up 5 inches to the center.
I was almost the same height as Carrie and wider. She couldn't just shoot over me or bull her way through me. I worked with her on developing some feints and moves. She was starting to develop some of her raw potential.
Our point guard Tessa didn't really need much coaching. She proved to be very heady, our own coach on the floor. Mostly with her, it was about becoming even scrappier than she already was. Her petite size didn't matter with the kind of effort she showed in games.
One day in the locker room before a game, I told the team, "There is no written test you can take, no electronic sensors that can be hooked up to your body to tell the most important fact of all: how much you want to win. All the talent in the world is no good without desire.
"When I look around this room, what I see is nice talent, but even better, I see heart. You keep this up, and we'll not only qualify for the playoffs, but make some noise in the conference tournament."
Out on the floor, I gazed over the crowd. Since Paige's birthday party, Ricky had become a fixture at all the games and had been to the house a couple of times like an old-fashioned courtship.
I tracked the faces, finding myself looking for Ricky because I knew that Paige would be looking, too.
To my surprise, Ricky was sitting with a very attractive young woman. And to my further surprise, it was Randi. When the recognition clicked in my brain, she smiled and gave me a wave. I'm sure a big, dopey expression crossed my face just then.
Randi hadn't been coming to the games -- maybe she was avoiding me, or maybe she was working too much to get time off. I didn't care why at that moment -- I was just happy to see her.
I knew going into this game that we were taking on the top team in the conference. This school was a private prep academy and had lots of private money feeding the program.