Entry into my journal – November 18, 2002<'b>
Dear Goddess, when I asked for a lover to come my way, I didn't expect a male half my age:
A young man whom I have been talking to for some time and who also works at the same mall as I do, all of a sudden just kissed me right out-of-the-blue. I could have been blown over like a feather by a breeze. I am still walking on air.
As usual, I was at the stock room putting away some store items when I heard Necmettin's (meaning "Star" in Arabic) noisy cart come down the hall. I looked around the corner and started to tease him about making so much noise. He came around to talk to me as I put things away.
I mentioned how he had such a beautiful profile and asked him if he had any older uncles that I could meet and go out with. He stood there staring at me, mumbled "... beautiful profile?" then grabbed my arms, drew me against his chest and kissed me. He wouldn't let me go, even when I tried to back away to ask him what on earth was he doing.
He wouldn't answer and kissed me a second time, long and hard. This time, I didn't resist him and ran my hands over the back of his neck, down his shoulders and firm back... sparks were igniting all through my body. What? me turn down a passionate kiss from a handsome young man just because I am too old for him? I might be crazy, but I am not insane.
Needless to say, I asked him why he kissed me after he released me. He said that he has been wanting to do it for a long time, that he had been attracted to me for some time, but he didn't know for sure if I considered him good looking or was even attracted to him. He thought that I might have someone else like a husband or a boyfriend.
It seems that he took a chance and kissed me anyway, fearing rejection. Impetuous youth!... thank you, Dionysos. I laughed, took hold of him and gave him a sexual kiss, sucking on his lower lip before moving away. A look of relief swept over his handsome face. He asked what time I got off from work, and I told him that I usually have the store closed down by 9:30.
Well he was there exactly at 9:30, waving at me behind the glass doors. I let him in and then asked him point blank what exactly he wanted from me seeing how we are from different generations (he is 23 years old), different cultures (he is a student from Turkey) and different religions (he is a Muslim). I really didn't have to ask the question, I could see it in his black onyx eyes.
We kissed passionately; he ran his hands up and down my back, squeezed my ass and said that I was "so beautiful". I ran my fingers though his curly black hair, but he took my hand and laid it upon his crotch. His cock was even harder than when I first felt it against my thigh. Then he whispered in my ear that he wanted "to fuck" me. I pulled my hand away and asked if he was sure, since this was a holy month for him. He looked thoughtful at first but then said, "I want to sleep with you one night."
I told him that it would be his choice, because for me, sex was not considered a sin but considered sacred in the eyes of my Goddess and Gods. He said that he understood (had he been looking up information on my religion? I made a mental note to ask him later.) and asked if I was experienced. To which I replied yes, very experienced.