From crisis to diagnosis, to coming to terms with my situation, to finally getting my meds sorted, to getting to a point in my life where I feel life is once again worth living, has taken a little under six months.
Looking back over my recent past, my bi-polar roller coaster of highs and lows were caused by a stress related mental breakdown. More prevalent in society today than ever before. I am now on somewhat of an even keel. I can smile once again.
Here's my story.
All in the space of three eventful days I received a life-changing job promotion - with salary boost. I also discovered my partner was cheating on me, and was about to ditch me, which he did.
Following this, and my subsequent breakdown, my job promotion and salary boost was rescinded. This resulted in my immediate dismissal. My erratic conduct and unacceptable behavior also resulted in the withdrawal of any kind of financial or emotional support. This, of course, gently tipped me over the edge and drove me towards a downward spiral of despair.
As the days passed slowly and I felt more and more sorry for myself and my very kind doctor attempted to assert some form mental equilibrium in the form of steadying medication. This he successfully managed.
A new turn of events presented itself to me in order to counter my by now, predictable routine. This was in the form of a visit from my landlord.
Up until this point the only communication between myself and the agency who brokered my living arrangements was a monthly email thanking me for the prompt payment of my rent.
Mr. Peter Cummings, the man who actually owned the property I called my home, presented himself on my doorstep two days following the second non-payment of my monthly rent.
I was at that particular point reverting to a modicum of normality when what I can only describe as an extremely surreal turn of events presented itself to me.
I don't know how Mr. C had so quickly and completely came to understand my current predicament. I was of the mind at that time that I was being taken advantage of. My benefactor agreed to write off the rent I owed, and pat my future rent, If I would perform certain duties for him, to which he knew I was used to. He wanted me to suck him off on a monthly basis.
The first time, I felt quite helpless and used as Mr. C unzipped himself and unceremoniously thrust his tiny erect cock towards my face. Thinking back, it was all quite automatic. I had him in my mouth for less than a minute before he spasmodically erupted and shot his load. I was a good boy and swallowed the lot. My landlord seemed pleased as he bade me farewell until next month.