"Ive been reading a lot lately about our new lifestyle. Not the porn stuff, but real articles and testimonials about it."
I sat up immediately on hearing this, more than a little intrigued and replied, "Have you now? And what did you discover? Or more to the point, what were you looking for?"
"Well," she said, "I have been quite confused about your role in all of this.
I know you get turned on by me fucking other men, that's a given, but I haven't always got it right with regards to your needs, have I."
Wondering what was coming next, I just replied, "Go on."
I really thought you liked me having secret video sex and it turns out you did, but only sort of.
I thought you like to not be there when I'm with another man and that you liked to wonder what I was doing with my lover and it seems I had got that a bit wrong too!"
"The articles i have read talk about communication being the key and to be blunt we haven't really been communicating effectively have we.
So I think if we are going to make this work, we have to be completely honest and open about our hopes and desires and set some boundaries. What do you think?"
I sat there a bit lost for words, because I thought I had been very transparent about what I would like out of this adventure, but clearly not.
"Ok," I said. You go first. Tell me what your boundaries are and then I will tell you mine."
"Oh no," Helen replied. We not doing it that way, because you are so much a people pleaser you will make your boundaries fit with mine."
Her eyes were fixed on me in a determined, "I'm taking no bullshit from you mister" type of look.
"We will each go and sit quietly on our own somewhere and complile a list, an honest list. Once we have both completed them we will discuss each boundary or desire until we ticked off each list. Then we will definitely know each others desires and then we can set out our boundaries, because if not, one or both of us is going to get hurt and this is supposed to be a fun and exciting adventure."
One thing that I have noticed about Helen in this short time since we began our journey, is that she's more assertive and confident and today is no exception to that.
"Ok", I said. "When do we do this?"
"Right Now!" was her reply.
She then handed me piece of paper and a pen. "Off you go then!" she said impatiently. "No time like the present!"
With that, I headed to the study, got comfortable and looked at the blank piece of paper.
It felt like being back in school and being told by the teacher to compose an essay. My mind always went blank in those moments and this was no different.
What do I want?
What are my desires?
I thought I knew, but now I'm at a total loss! I chastised myself for being so indecisive. "Come on man, get a grip!,"
The list took a lot longer to compile than anticipated and when I finally appeared in the lounge, Helen was pacing and looked exasperated. as if she'd been waiting for a train that was late and now it had finally arrived.
We sat next to each other on the sofa and I waited for her to begin.
Her mood seemed to lighten on seeing my paper clearly contained a list. She suggled up to me trying to take a sneaky peek at it and said, "Whats your first one then?"
I quickly snatched my list away and held it so she could not see it, at the same time saying playfully, "Stop trying to look at my list."
"Well, hurry up! Whats first on your list then," she replied whilst nudging me and giggling.
"Ok, Ok! Item one!"
I love watch you enjoying your bull. This doesn't need to be every time you meet a guy. Just now and again, Pleeese?"
"I would like that too," she replied with a sexy glint in her eye.
I continued. "I want to be looking into your eyes as your bull takes you from behind." I said. "Especially if he's well hung. I'd like to see your expression as he eases into you. I find that idea really hot!"
"That does sound very hot." She said, licking her lips sexily.
By now I was very aroused. Helen then placed her hand on my groin and gently began rubbing my cock though my jeans. "This is going to be fun," she whispered.
I ticked Number one off my list.
"Your turn!" I said.
Helen glanced at her list and then said,
"I want to try a threesome, two men at the same time.
I'd like you to be part of it, but not the first time. I would feel too self conscious.
"I can live with that," I eagerly replied. Helen ticked her list, then gently cupped and squeezed my balls.
This was definitely turning out to be fun I thought.
She looked sexily into my eyes and said, "Whats next on your list handsome?"
"Safe sex. I want you to promise to make your lovers use condoms. STD's or worse is a risk. I noticed that Michael asked you if he could remove his and I'm so glad you refused, but in the heat of passion you could be tempted.
"I will insist, I promise", she said, "I'm not stupid."
I ticked another on my list.
"I'd like to try sex at a swingers club or a party. Something a bit spontaneous," she said. "You know, chat to someone attractive and go to a room if we like each other."
"You've really thought this through, haven't you," I said.
"Well?"
I agreed and that was another tick to her list.
"Your turn!" she said excitedly.
"Not in our house, not in our bed."
"Why is that?" she asked.
"I want to keep our lifestyle change discreet. I'd hate for friends or family to know or accidentally find out."
"Thats on my list too.
Tick!"
"I want to be allowed to arrange my own dates."
This worried me somewhat. I would have no way of knowing what type of man she was meeting.
"I'm not so sure about that," I replied. I worry he might not be a nice guy. If we both get to know him, I can at least satisfy myself that you will be safe.
"Oh. Not the answer I expected or wanted," she said. "Dont you trust me?"
"Of course I trust you. But I am not going to trust someone with the most precious thing in my life if I've never checked him out!"
"So that's off the list then?" she grumpily replied. "Well, for now it is." I said.
"What about me seeing a black guy, I suppose thats out too," she angrily blurted.
"Look Helen, I just want you to be safe, thats all! I absolutely want you to see a black guy if thats your desire. Why wouldn't I?" I've seen interracial porn, I'm certain that if I was a woman I would want that too.
