So there I was thinking and worrying about how Helen was having video sex with Shaun and imagining her enjoying him and Bob.
The big question was, "Where do I come in the equation. Will she want all three of us, or will I be asked to take a walk again?"
My mind was all over the place with a million "What if's."
Some days I was constantly worrying, other days I was totally aroused and masterbating every chance I got.
Well, if I thought my wishes for Helen and hotwifing would go exactly as imagined, I couldn't have been more wrong. My fantasies about her enjoying her stud with me fully involved in a hot and steamy threesome seem to have all but evaporated. Helen has become emboldened to a point where not only has she already embraced her place in the lifestyle, she has taken the lead in deciding who she will invite into her bed. I no longer have any influence, so I must just go along for the ride and see where it takes us.
"You do know that I love you more than anything in this world, don't you?" she said.
This comment seemed to have come out of nowhere. We were just enjoying a coffee in our favourite cafe after a bracing walk along the waterfront. "Of course I do," I replied. At the same time very apprehensive about what might be coming next.
She continued. "Its just that you've been a bit distant of late. Is there anything wrong?"
I thought about challenging her about the secret video sex, but as usual I chickened out. "No, Im ok, really," I lied. We sat in silence for a short while and then she looked around with a cheekily sexy glint in her eyes to check if anyone nearby would hear, then asked in a lowered voice, "How would you feel about me having a threesome? You know, me enjoying two guys."
Of course I knew this was coming, it was hard to ignore that possibility given her secret video sex with Shaun late at night. She had obviously been taken with those two younger men on holiday.
"Would I be involved in any way?" hoping she'd at least let me watch.
"Or will it be the long walk for me again," I said gloomily.
"Oh, don't be like that," she replied sympathetically. "I didn't mean to hurt you, I thought you liked the waiting and wondering. I thought it excited you!"