(Names and occasionally some details have been changed in this story.)
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I knew it all along that I had an attraction to older women. First it was my ninth grade world history teacher, Mrs. Patterson, whose usual attire included a striped blouse that barely contained her D cup breasts, and who would tell us the lurid sexual secrets of Europe's most famous despots. She had fire engine red lip gloss and wore tons of makeup to conceal her age, but I believe she was about fifty at the time. I am sure she noticed my eyes playing over her chest during every class, and raised my final grade out of compassion for yet another victim of teenage hormones (and problems with attention span). Then it was my calculus teacher, Miss Rose Dewitt, a true blonde with a classic hourglass figure who was just approaching thirty.
Of course my favorite was a teacher who didn't even teach a single class I was in - Miss Dupree. Rumors tended to circle about her possible lesbianism, although in the same breath the students would say that several guys in her class had been treated to some personal extracurricular activities. Of all the teachers at my school she was hit on the most, and she seemed to quietly embrace her reputation. After high school I met her in a store and struck up a conversation that turned a little flirty. Unfortunately, when I mentioned the job I had taken over the summer, she became confused by my pronunciation of the word "cement" - and my attempt to clarify myself, by saying, "you know, like a sack of cement?" only made her think I was being perverted. Either she came from another part of the country, or perhaps, she just had a really dirty mind!
College brought a torrent of young ladies wearing skimpy summer outfits, but I still remember being attracted to a couple of my professors, and even to an ex-girlfriend's mom - who I thought was even more attractive than her offspring. The girl I dated after her, though, was like a dream come true for me. She was a Japanese national and naughty as a 21 year old virgin could ever be. We told each other all of our fantasies. One that I told her about was of a woman who was older or who had some authority, like a teacher. So she got a nice outfit and pretended to be my ninth grade history teacher, occasionally undressing when I answered a question right and smacking me with a ruler when I didn't. She really seemed to enjoy that part. As tiny as she was she was quite dominant.
Losing my virginity with her the same night, however, was not enjoyable. Not only did it hurt her a lot, but she felt so insecure that after a couple of minutes she told me to stop - and I did, immediately, but not without asking her what went wrong. She turned away and wouldn't look at me or even talk to me. I felt horrible, and even now, knowing that it wasn't my fault (she was worried I was imagining she was one of my exes) it still bothers me to think about that night. To this day, I have not dated another virgin.
When I looked for jobs after graduating, I discovered the reason why people always ask liberal arts majors what they plan to do with their lives. It took me a full three months to find a job in customer service. I was placed in an office with three older women, but the one I was attracted to the most was Liz, a 44 year old grandmother of three. I knew - thought - nothing would ever happen between her and myself because her chain smoking was a major turn off to me, but that did not stop me from crushing on her. Over time that became more apparent and we would occasionally cross lines.