Some of you have written to ask why Shirley did not divorce her husband. Why would she stay married and have an affair with someone half her age? I have no answer to that question but it occurred to me then and many times since then. Her life changed drastically two years later including divorce and failing health. I do not know if she was waiting for MJ to turn 18 or what else could have motivated her. I was 19, very horny and very much in love with this wonderful lady so whatever her motivation, I didn't question it.
I remember that I didn't sleep much that night. I kept thinking about Shirley and MJ and the past three days of wonderful sex. I also thought about her story of punishment by her cruel stepfather and I admit, even then I found it hard to believe. I also know that every time I replayed it in my mind I had an erection of my very sore penis. Four day's earlier I had been a virgin and now vast worlds of sexual fascination had opened up to me.
I slept past the alarm the next morning and was over an hour late driving out to the farm. We had several more days work to finish the hay fields and when I got to the farm Shirley had already gone out to mow the next area. Since there was still hay to unload from the wagon and to stack, I got busy on it right away.
Soon after starting the tractor, which ran the elevator, MJ appeared at the barn. She told me that I was supposed to come to the field as soon as I finished. I worked for over an hour with her sitting and watching and trying to talk to me over the loud tractor and clanking elevator. I pushed myself hard and finally stopped for water and to take a breather. When I stepped outside for water, MJ retrieved her pack of Marlboros and followed me.
Outside she lit a cigarette and I again noticed how her style of smoking was identical to her mother's. Today MJ was wearing another tank top and through the thin material it looked like her bra had a flower pattern. Her long underarm hair was peeking out, even with her arms down at her sides. When she raised her arm to take a drag from her cigarette I could clearly see the ball of hair. Looking at MJ was giving me an erection. She had been rattling on about the fair and the farm and school and a lot of other things but now she looked very serious.
"Do you like my mom a lot?" she asked.
"Sure," I said, "She is a great lady."
MJ took a very long deep drag on her cigarette and sat down beside me before exhaling slowly. At the end of her exhale smoke began to stream from her nostrils, just like her mother. "When I went to fix supper last night I looked back to the barn and I saw you kissing mom inside the door."
I was stunned. We had been careless and had been caught and I was suddenly afraid. I didn't even think of lying to her. "What are you going to do?" I asked her.
"Nothing," she said. "I just wanted you to know that I know. I told mom what I saw and we talked a long time last night about it and you."
I was quiet for a long time while she continued to smoke and exhale her long slow Shirley-like exhales. Finally I asked her, "What did your mother say?"
"She said that she had been very unhappy for a long time, and now you make her happy. She said she knows it is wrong but she could not help herself. She told me the you are a really good guy and that she feels bad about how you might someday feel about this."
"Your mother is one of the most wonderful and special people I have ever known. I care for her very much and I would never do anything to hurt her." I didn't know what else to say.
"I am glad she is happy and I promise not to tell anyone," she said. "I was mad at first but after talking to mom I think it is cool." MJ got up and slowly walked to the house leaving me standing there more than a little bit shaken.
I finished stacking the hay and quickly went to the hayfield. Shirley had a great deal of the tall grass down already and when she saw me she drove the tractor into the wooded grove where we had made love. I followed her and without saying a word she took my hand and led me safely behind several large trees.
"We have to talk," she said as she sat down on a log.
"I know, MJ told me." I didn't know what else to say.