I still have not stopped my journey and my exploration. I still am just as keen on my younger men as in the first of part of my story. Suddenly, I was enjoying the best sex of my life. After those first experiences, I was a free and liberated woman.
I still had not really answered the question of "what next". I'd had great sex on five occasions in about four months. My girlfriends knew I'd had sex with one man on one occasion. I didn't want to be a prude. I wanted something more to boast about. It felt crazy but I knew I wanted more sex and more frequently.
I also decided that I didn't want any "regulars" β it was too dangerous to have younger guy like Ryan or Naz thinking I was their girlfriend. It wasn't that I was afraid of being "easy" β hell, that was exactly what I was. I just didn't need them pestering me or trying to follow me around.
Yes, there was danger in pursuing different men for sex. At the same time, I needed more sex to keep me fulfilled and I craved more notches on my belt. I convinced myself it was just a fling, like a "phase" in my life. If "lots of sex" was the cure then maybe I'd end up cured.
I stayed away from those websites for a while. Not the porn ones β now I was taking more glances at porn to fuel my heavy sessions of masturbation.
For some reason, just as I was wondering how to find another man, luck brought me two of them almost at the same time. Happily, one was a younger man β not much older than Ryan. I usually saw him on the train going to work. He looked dashing in his suit and it looked like he had some very sexy muscles underneath. After a while he realised that I was "noticing" him each morning. I wasn't trying to pick him up at the start β he was just some nice eye candy for me each day. But then he started "noticing" me and we would smile at one another. I tried not to think about him during the day at work but it was tough. Was it crazy to pick-up some random young man from the train? But I kept trying to imagine what his body would look like and whether his touch would give me more of those feelings of electricity.
Then I was introduced to Clive. He is older than me, if you can believe that, and quite a looker. He is friends with some of my friends so I had heard his name. I already knew that he was a "ladies man" and some of the girls warned me after I first met him in person. I didn't need any warning. I could see he was a "player" and I didn't mind his attention. I knew he was an active guy β his rough hands told me that - and I knew it was a matter of time before he'd start flirting with me.
In fact, it was only days after that when Clive texted and asked if I had time for lunch that weekend. I had nothing to lose, so I said "yes" and we agreed on a nice eatery near my place. It was totally innocent fun from my side. I had no expectation I'd be going to bed with Clive β he was "outside my age range" as they say on those dating sites. But we had lunch and I enjoyed the company of a good-looking man.
Clive asked me about "what I was doing" and, now I am separated, whether I was seeing other men. It was fun to let him flirt with me. He has a close-clipped beard and a nice tan from spending time outdoors. He is sinewy and hard. Most of all, he has an easy way about him and he kept me entertained and interested.
There was one small problem that cropped up after our lunch. For the rest of the day I could not stop thinking about Clive and his body. There was one part of his body in particular - I just could not stop myself wondering about Clive's penis. Was it long or thick and did it curve? Was the head fat and spongy? Was the shaft covered in thick, purple veins?
That told me one thing - I am a slut for penises. I crave cocks. I love men's dicks, holding and stroking them and taking them in my mouth with all their hardness and pulsing and lust for me and their spurting semen. As a woman, I can have my pick of a number of men and they all have a penis. But I generally think about young men and their appendages because I know that only young males have the best cocks. They stay so hard and they stand so straight. What woman would not appreciate such a visual sign of a man's lust for her? And they feel even better.
So I needed more young cocks in my bed. There was only one way to deal with that. Late in the evening, I sent a message to Ryan.
"See me tomorrow night?" I asked him.
Happily, he agreed in just minutes. I was breaking my rule about "no regulars" but there was no point denying myself when I got so much satisfaction from having eager and energetic sex with young Ryan. I had to ask him to park around the corner β I was getting worried about the neighbours seeing these young men, more than twenty years my junior, coming and going from my house.
This time it was me who undressed him. I was excited to see his tall, lean body again and to hold that throbbing, young manhood in my hand. As soon as I could, I extracted it from his pants and was stroking it to full size. I let him grope me in return, basking in his lust for me and knowing he was ready to give me a "good seeing-to". That night it was even more about my needs than usual. I lay between his legs and played with his dick and his balls, stroking and licking him and watching him throb until I thought he might be ready to explode.
I climbed on top, feeling such an amazing passion, and rode Ryan like a wild woman. Oh yes, I was fully liberated and free to enjoy myself with that young, virile male. I was totally focussed on my own pleasure, humping him and shifting positions to maximise my orgasms.
Before I knew it, too late, I heard Ryan begging me and then I knew he was shooting his stuff up into my vag. To be honest, it was totally hot to watch his face as he came inside me. I could feel his marvellous thing throb and pulsate as each blast of his semen flew out of him. The whole sensation brought me off all over again and for a moment I thought might lose my mind with the intense desires I was feeling.
As I climbed off young Ryan, all his stuff was leaking from my vag. It seemed such a waste. I could see his semen thickly coating his shaft, obviously mixed with all my copious wetness. Right then I did something I'd never imagined before. I don't know why I wanted to do that all of a sudden. I bent down over Ryan and took his cock in my mouth β still hard and tasting of his semen and my vag. I wanted to clean him, to capture all his stuff, leaving nothing to waste. I worked gently, of course, and the experience was just awesome. And the taste was better than I could have guessed.
After some more licking and fingering of my vag I was ready for his dick once more. I got onto hands and knees and this time I told him what I needed.
"Fuck me hard, Ryan," I told him.
After twenty plus years of gentle, boring sex I was thinking only of having a horny man pound my vag into submission. I wanted his screwing to stop me thinking about Clive and I wanted to know Ryan would shoot his stuff deep inside me again. He gripped my hips tight and did his best.
But I still called out to him β "harder ...oh, please don't stop." It was so beautiful to feel the way he throbbed as more of his semen flooded into my body.
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After that night, I knew I was going to take a chance with the young guy on the train. Alright, by now I had to face-up to the fact my behaviour was making me a "cougar". I still don't like the attitude behind that name but how could I argue when I was planning to entice another young man into my bed? What I did was tell myself was that I'm more of a "Mrs Robinson" character β gently seducing younger men who are shy and need some guidance.