Julie then added..."Speaking of which, I now find myself assessing every woman I come into contact with as to their sexual orientation. Not forgetting how differently I view and look at other women. I seem to notice things I never had before. As for men, I hardly seem to notice them at all anymore. It's almost like they don't exist."
After I gave her a knowing smile..."It's one of the pitfalls once you've explored your own bisexuality. And it won't be long before you won't even have to think about if someone else is bisexual. It'll be like they're walking around with a sign posted on them. As for how you view them, it's a simple case of you having a much different appreciation for other women now."
She laughed before saying..."Yes I do, and I guess it is easier to determine if someone else is bisexual when you are."
"And it'll get even easier for you. Now if I remember right, you wanted to talk to me about Anna. Or was it just an excuse for us to get together?"
"Both, but even if I didn't want to talk about Anna, I still wanted us to get together again. I've thought about nothing but since last week."
"I'd have been disappointed if you didn't. But let's talk about Anna, how long have you known her?"
"Only as long as she's worked for me. About two years now, which was about six months after she lost her husband in a car accident. I don't know if you remember the terrible accident on I-70 a few years ago at the Illinois state line involving a tractor trailer and three other vehicles where three people lost their lives. One of them was Anna's husband. The other two were an elderly couple from Illinois."
"Yes I do, and how awful it was Anna's husband. But I couldn't help noticing the other day she was wearing a wedding band. Did she get married again?"
"No. She simply couldn't bear the thought of ever removing it, although she pretty much has accepted the loss of her husband and moved on with her life. Fortunately she's in decent shape financially due to a generous insurance policy her husband had, and from financial investments he made over the years. Plus her home is paid for. The only reason she works is to keep herself busy. The days she doesn't, she does volunteer work."
"Does she have any hobbies or other interests, and what about family?"
"Two grown sons who are married and live up north in South Bend where she's originally from. Both who keep in regular contact and visit often. Occasionally she'll visit them and stay a week or more. As for hobbies or other interests, the only thing I know about is that she's a yoga fanatic."
"Is she seeing or dating anyone?"
"Not that I'm aware of, and she's never mentioned anything, which brings me to why I wanted to talk to you about her." I had a pretty good idea what was coming next, but didn't want to interject anything so I let her continue.
"While I might be wrong..." was all she said before she suddenly stopped as though to give some thought as to how to word things before she continued..."I don't know how to put it, especially if I'm imagining things, but she seems 'attracted' to me if you know what I mean. I didn't think anything of it at first, but gradually it became more and more noticeable. Especially when we're alone together. She's always been a touchy-feely kind of person, but I never gave much thought to it and figured it was just the way she is as some people are. With a man your antennae would react immediately, but with another woman, I never gave it a second thought. Even when her hand would linger on me longer than you'd expect, or how she would 'rub' me at times on the back or my arm in an affectionate way."
After she paused for a second..."Now that I accepted my bisexuality, I'm sensing there's more to it than just being the way she is and since..."
Before she could finish, Sandra arrived with our cappuccinos and after placing them in front of us..."Are you sure I can't get you two anything else?"
After we declined, she quickly left to wait on two other customers who just came in and sat at a nearby table.
Once she did..."As I was going to say, since you're more knowledgeable about such things, I was wondering if you'd give me your opinion. Although I know you don't know her very well, do you think she's bisexual, or am I just imagining things?"
"To answer your question first, no I don't think she's bisexual. But from the way she couldn't stop looking at my cleavage on Friday, I'm sure she's curious. I honestly don't get the feeling she's ever had sex with another woman, unless it was years ago when younger, which is always possible. And while this might sound silly until you think about it, if she was presently sexually active with other women, she wouldn't have such long nails."
Julie immediately looked at my nails, which I keep short, then at hers, which were also short, but not quite as short as mine. Then before she could say anything..."And I don't know if you noticed, but Sandra's were short like mine."
"I must be missing something."
"The only reason you are is because your first time with another woman was last week. Going forward you'll quickly realize sex with another woman involves using your fingers a lot, and there's nothing worse than long sharp nails. Especially square cut nails, which I noticed Anna's were on Friday along with a French pedicure. Just imagine how problematic they would be when fingering someone's vagina, or even worse, their anus."
"I'm glad I asked instead of finding out the hard way. And I need to keep it in mind when I get my nails done now."
"Now let me ask you a question. Assuming Anna is smitten with you, which I don't blame her if she is, how do you feel about her?"
"I was afraid you were going to ask. I like Anna, a lot, and in more ways than one. We have a lot in common with the loss of both of our husbands, albeit for different reasons. We haven't socialized much, but when we have I enjoyed being with her. Until recently, us being intimate never crossed my mind. But I'd be lying if I said it hasn't now."
"It's not surprising, and based on your feelings for her, I think it's safe to say you wouldn't hesitate if she's amiable to it. But based on what you just told me, I don't think you have to worry if she is. It actually seems like she's working towards that goal."
She didn't respond to my remark, but looked at me with a concerned look on her face. When it dawned on me why..."If you're worried that you and Anna getting to know each other more intimately will affect our relationship, don't. Our relationship will remain the same for long as you want. Otherwise we'll always be more than just good friends even without the intimacy. Besides, I think you wanting to talk about Anna and your 'budding romance' was a way to see how I'd react before pursuing it further. Am I wrong?"
"No you're not, and although we've only been intimate once, I was afraid you'd want to end our relationship if I'd mention anything about the possibility of Anna and I getting into one."
"The only reason I would, would be so as to not interfere with what I think will be an amazing one between you two. And while I don't think it's the case, I have to ask if you'd like to?"
"Of course not." After she paused for a second..."Now I think we've talked about Anna enough and need to head to my place. The last time we were there, I never showed you all of my townhouse." But from the big smile on her face it was the last thing she had in mind. "But before we do, do you have any advice for me relative to Anna?"
"Not a whole lot. You're both mature and intelligent women, and whatever you two decide I'm sure you'll both do it with eyes wide open. And I don't expect either one of you will ever do anything to hurt one another. Intentionally or otherwise. And unlike me, you're both unattached so you're free to do whatever you desire. My only advice would be to listen to both your heart AND head. Don't let one sway the other."
I then waved at Sandra and asked for two iced frappuccinos to go. After she brought them to us, we said our goodbyes, but not before I left her a very generous tip. And there was something about the way Sandra made it a point to give us both a friendly hug that left me with the impression she would like to get to know us better at some point.
