I was a late bloomer, more obsessed with video games than women. Sure, I jacked off like any other guy but I wasn't really good at talking to girls and so high school came and went uneventfully. I was still a virgin as I entered college and I didn't really like it, I just didn't see any way out of it. Women weren't exactly lining up to try and fuck me. In fact, I hadn't even gotten so much as a kiss or a blowjob.
Instead of trying to get out there and make things happen I became even more reclusive, playing more and more video games and doing less and less in life. My parents were starting to bitch at me about moving out and getting a real job since I was already failing out of college. I hadn't been applying myself in school and it showed. I went to register for classes, mostly to get my parents off of my back about the job thing only to find that there was a hold on my registration.
I called the school, pissed off that I was having to take extra time out of my day to deal with registering. My parents had threatened to kick me out if I failed out of college. I couldn't deal with actually being responsible and so when the lady on the phone told me I had to come in to speak with a counselor, I was angry but I did it.
The counselor's name was Erika Zuniga. She was an older blonde lady with a really nice ass. I popped a boner the minute I saw her turn around and walk me to her office. I looked around, hoping that no one had seen my erection and I was lucky everyone was busy doing other things. I managed to get my dick under control as I sat down in the chair across from her desk.
"So, it says here that you have failed all four courses you have taken so far. What's going on?" Mrs. Zuniga looked at me like she actually gave a shit about me and for the first time in a long time I felt like someone actually did care. It was nice.
"Yeah, I've been struggling to get my work done. I don't have any real reason. Well, video games. I play a lot of those." I hung my head shamefully but secretly hoped that Mrs. Zuniga would have something that might help me. Maybe she could explain to me why I was being such a loser and tell me how to stop. The truth was, I hated myself. I thought I was a loser and that I didn't have anything going for me.
"Well, learning how to be responsible for your own education can be difficult," she explained. "I think I know how to help you if you're open to making some changes."
"Yeah! I mean, I want to do well I just feel like I get lazy. I guess I don't really want to grow up. I'm scared." I couldn't believe the words that had just come out of my mouth. Truth be told, I wasn't sure why I had said that to her. I hadn't even told my own family what I had just told her. I guess sometimes telling a stranger seems safer.
"What are you scared of?"
"I'm scared that I'm behind and I'm never going to catch up."
"Give me an example."
I couldn't think of a single thing and so what came out of my mouth next wasn't planned. It just slipped out. "Well, I'm a virgin. I haven't even kissed a girl. I haven't done oral. I haven't had sex. I feel like I'm still a kid sometimes, like I'm behind." I put my head in my hands, not because I was embarrassed, even though I was but because I was telling her the truth. I hadn't ever said this out loud to anyone but her.
"There's nothing wrong with being a virgin," she began and then stopped when she saw the look on my face.
"I just wish a woman would give me a chance, you know? I'm a nice guy. I want to please women. I want to do good in school. I just feel like they are connected, like if I lost my virginity everything else would fall into place."
"I think you may be right about that," Mrs. Zuniga looked thoughtful. She was twirling a lock of her blonde hair on her index finger and tapping her foot nervously. I hoped I hadn't made her nervous or uncomfortable. I hadn't meant to do that.
"I know this is weird of me to talk about but I really think that this is the thing holding me back. What do you think I should do?"
"Honestly?"
"Yeah."