This story is written from a female reader point-of-view.
You and James Gordon are friends, and have been for nearly a year now, and you're good with that. He's your former science teacher, and now that you're back working at your old high school as a newly-qualified teacher, you're getting to know him more than you ever dreamed of. Science was always your favorite subject when you were a student and Mr. Gordon always made lessons interesting.
He's quiet and shy, and unsure of himself, but you saw beyond that a long time ago. You've seen him for who he really is, and he's done the same with you. You're a duo, even though you're very different people. You're twenty-one and he's in his late forties. Handsome and in good shape, with dark brown hair that's streaked with silver. You had a raging crush on him when you were a student, and now those feelings have deepened. Especially since he confessed that he's just broken up with his long-term partner.
Perhaps that's why you've been feeling so conflicted lately, you've been thinking differently about him, and you're afraid that he'll find out. If there's something you don't want, it's him withdrawing from you, back into his shell. It had taken you so long to lure him out of it. And that may be the reason why you've begun to avoid him a little, you don't want to admit it to yourself, but you are not spending as much time in the lab with him any more, and sometimes you avoid him deliberately because you're afraid you'll give away your feelings. The way your heart beats a little faster every time he accidentally touches your arm, or brushes by you in a hurry.
When he talks you sometimes find yourself simply spacing out at the sound of his voice, completely missing what he says. He notices, you know, and he probably doesn't understand. Maybe, just maybe, that's why you're on your way to the science lab right now, guided by mostly intuition.
When you enter the lab, silently as always, he's sitting by his desk with his face buried in his hands. You can see by the way his shoulders are shaking that he's crying, silently. It cuts your heart to see him like this, and your quick steps against the floor alerts him to your presence as you near him, wanting nothing more than to comfort him. He lifts his head and dries away the tears, rejecting your touch by pushing your hand away when you reach out for him. You look hurt, but he looks away from your eyes, away from your pleading gaze.
"James, please..." Your soft voice makes him turn his head away from you and he bites his lip, trying to fight the urge to pull you close. You don't know how much you tempt him, and he doesn't want to scare you away. Now you'd begun to distance yourself, and that was probably best. He didn't want you to feel guilty and reach out for him in pity.
No, that was the last thing he wanted. "Please... Leave." He mumbles, and your heart feels like it'll break in two. But your determination doesn't waver. "No." You say, and he stiffens in the chair as though you've hit him. "I won't leave you, James." You reach out and place a hand on his shoulder, squeezing it gently. You can feel warmth radiating from him, beneath the lab coat and the white shirt. You longed to rip it off him, to convey to him just how much you wanted him, how much you loved him, but you didn't dare.
He looks up at you, studies your face, your eyes, your lips with his keen, analysing gaze. Something changes in his demeanor, and he inhales deeply. You're suddenly painfully aware of the fact that he could very well be scenting the pheromones that you were producing right now. You wouldn't deny that you were feeling a bit aroused by the way his gaze fell from your face to your form, travelling over your body before returning to your eyes. You knew that he would recognise the signs; dilated pupils, heavier breathing. And he did indeed recognise them. Hesitantly he stood up, your hand falling from his shoulder to his chest, and grasped your arms, his movements slow as though he was in constant doubt about whether he dared go on.
"Are you -- am I mistaken when I assume -- "
"No, you're not." You cut him off with a breathy whisper, pushed to the edge of your ability to fight your urges by the way he was looking at you, and how close he was standing. When he hesitated once again, you grasped the collar of his lab coat and pulled him close, standing on tiptoes to press your lips against his. At first he seems frozen to the spot, but then his lips open and he ferociously returns the kiss, pouring all his desperate longing into it, all his waiting, all his desire. You do the same, and what had been an innocent display of love turns into a passionate act of carnal longing.
He growls and bites your lower lip so gently, you almost do not fear the brief touch of sharp teeth against your soft skin. Your gasp in response, pressing your entire body against his, craving, longing for more contact. Before you realise what you're doing, you've stripped him of his lab coat and are buttoning down his shirt. His arms wrap around you the moment you've discarded his shirt, and you bury your fingers in the wiry hair on his chest, leaning against him as your lips join in a violent kiss, your tongues battling for dominance, which he easily wins.