I dozed, very lightly, lost in the sensations he had given me. I had never imagined anything like that. Hell, I had never realized anything like that was possible.
I laid, holding still, "processing" is the word I had learned years and years ago in a sophomore psychology class. But I couldn't ignore that urge deep in my belly. I wanted THAT feeling again. I wanted it desperately.
It seemed like I held off for hours although I imagine it was only a couple of minutes. I used my fingers on my nipples, thinking that might help. It didn't. It just made that gentle ache deep in my belly even more intense.
So I slid my palms down my body. I started at my titties, pressing them against my ribs, hard, wanting ALL of the sensations I could get. Then down my belly, pressing hard again, feeling some relief as the pressure moved lower. Soon, though, the relief turned to even more need until all I could think about was what was between my legs. It was as though my entire world was there.
My fingertip found that little bud of pleasure he had introduced me to, and I toyed with it very gently, trying not to move, trying not to awaken him. My movements were slow and I could feel my body responding. My finger, where I was playing with myself, was slick with my need. I may have three-quarters of a century on my odometer, but my Skene's Glands work just fine.
But it wasn't enough.
That pressure, that terrible, beautiful pressure so deep inside was building. And I couldn't ignore it.
My finger moved a bit faster, trying to meet my need, that desperate need that grew from the place so deep in my brain it was below thought.
But I couldn't finish. I just couldn't achieve my release.
And there it was, just as when my children were born, that need, that URGE to push that was undeniable. I felt muscles deep inside working, contracting, pushing, and the URGE was just too great to deny.
I pushed, bearing down, hearing myself grunt a little deep in my throat.
And screamed, softly, as I felt his hand cover mine.
His breath was warm in my ear, giving me tingles, as he whispered softly, "push."
"Oh Roger," I sort of moaned.
"Push," he said a little more forcefully, "let me hold you while I tell you how much I love you, how beautiful you are, how perfect you are."
"Roger," I said softly again, but I knew I would do what he wanted. I could no longer resist this urge, any more than I could have during childbirth.
"Push," he said again, his hand covering mine.
It wasn't so much that I pushed as that I just released my hold on preventing the push. I felt those muscles contract, turning almost hard as things cramped, and then that wonderful pressure as I stretched and as my center, my core, my womanness emerge into the air, into my hand, and into his hand.
"Oh God," I heard myself moan as he held me so gently, supporting me.
He was looking at me, holding my eyes with his as I moaned softly, helpless with my need.
"I love you," he said and I was crying suddenly. Not hurt or sad. I had heard the phrase "tears of joy," many times but for the first time, I truly understood them.
He covered my face with kisses and held my core, gently massaging, bringing me wave after wave of that pure ecstasy. It wasn't an orgasm, a "climax," with the sudden blast of pure pleasure. This was the physical pleasure I had only found at the peak of my release with Roger, but it went on and on, taking my breath.
He was telling me I was beautiful, telling me he loved me, and I believed him right then. My legs were scissoring and my body was shuddering. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't stop. I didn't want to stop. I wanted this to go on forever.
He moved around then until he was on his knees between mine.
"So beautiful," he said, almost reverently, and his hands held my core. God, my nose was running so badly I could feel snot running on my cheeks.
He moved my hands until I was cupping myself.
"Offer yourself for a kiss," he said, and I did. I lifted myself, feeling my slickness running down the crack of my ass.
I squeezed gently, offering myself for his kiss, and when his tongue touched, and his mouth began sucking gently I exploded. Every nerve ending fired. My body was rigid and I could feel something deep inside contracting.
I came that time, a true orgasm, hell, THE true orgasm. I felt those muscles contracting and heard him cough gently and then begin swallowing noisily and my body clenched, every muscle cell contracting, one giant cramp and I screamed my pleasure and my pain.
And it didn't stop. I was reduced to harsh little gasps, as my body panicked, desperate for oxygen, and then another wave would take me. His mouth, his greedy, beautiful, hungry mouth kept at me, drawing more from me than I thought possible. Another of those terrible, wonderful cramps struck and I screamed again.
And again.
And again.
Until I collapsed, too spent, my body too exhausted to even move.
Then he was beside me, holding me, kissing me, his face and hair slick with what I had done. My own scent strong.
And I laid there, exhausted, spent, barely managing to whisper, "I love you," over and over.