"Please come with us. It's just lunch."
"I don't think so. I appreciate the offer, but I'd feel more comfortable staying at home."
"Farah, I know how hard it's been for you. And I know how much you loved Ben. But you can't stay home all day, every day."
"Traci? I don't do that. I'm not home 24/7, and you know that, so please don't exaggerate in order to get me to do what you want, okay?" her friend said, trying to stay polite.
"You and I have have been best friends since the 4th grade. I know you. And I love you. You're the sister I never had. I was your Maid of Honor, for crying out..."
She stopped when she realized she'd just brought up the wedding.
"I apologize. Not for caring about you. Just for being insensitive."
Her friend of well over 25 years knew there was no malice in those words. They were true. Traci Redding had been her Maid of Honor, and yes, she loved her like a sister, too. But Ben Walker had been the love of her life, and when he was taken from her in a moment of senseless rage, a part of her died with him.
It wasn't that she didn't need to get out. Farah Cole-Walker, who'd been named after Farrah Fawcett by a father with a not-so-secret crush on the late actress, knew that was true. But it was also true that after letting her best friend set her up twice with two different, 'really nice guys' with whom she had nothing in common, she just couldn't see any reason to do so a third time. Maybe one day. Just not now.
"I'm sorry, Trace. I just can't."
Her friend stared at her for a few seconds then said, "Okay. Let's compromise. I won't bring Cody and you don't have to meet Jeff. Just you, me, and my mom. Will that work?"
Farah loved Traci's mother, Alice Wallace, almost as much as her own daughter did, and she hadn't seen her for at least two months, and if she also didn't have to endure another setup, then maybe lunch wouldn't be so bad.
"If you're serious, then, okay."
"Yeah? Really?" Traci asked excitedly.
"Yes. I'll go."
Farah finally smiled then said, "But only because I haven't seen your mom in forever."
"Ha! Whatever works!" her BFF said, a smug smile of victory on her face; her very pretty face.
Traci (nee Wallace) Redding had been a cheerleader from the 7th grade through the end of high school. She was head cheerleader and homecoming queen their senior year, and she was still beautiful. Farah knew she was also still an attractive woman, even at 37, but Traci was the one woman who had always made her feel plain. It wasn't her friend's fault. It was simply a matter of her being so attractive that she sucked all of the oxygen out of every room she walked into.
Traci was a natural blonde who still wore her hair below her shoulders, and even worse, it still looked great on her. She'd been blessed with fair skin, blue eyes, and a perfect smile. She also had a perfect body to go with it and that included two perfectly round, very perky breasts that easily filled a C-cup bra.
Farah, on the other hand, had dark-brown hair that was just below chin length. She wore it parted on one side and nearly always put a small curl in it at the bottom so that it turned inward a little and just a wispy hint of bangs in front. It was perfect for her face which was still pretty but had never been Traci Redding pretty. Which wasn't just pretty but beautiful.
Her best feature were her eyes, which were green, something that only 2% of the population could claim. It wasn't an exaggeration to say they were an emerald green that many people mistook for the more common hazel color. Her eyes were the one area where, compared with Traci, Farah was the clear winner.
The one thing she had in common with her longtime friend was a great smile. The difference was that Farah's came by way of an orthodontist while Traci had been born with a set of bright, white, perfectly-straight teeth.
Physically, Traci was two inches taller, and at 5'10", very close to the ideal height for most models. At 5'8", Farah was still slightly above average, but there was a difference here, too. The difference was in weight where Farah weighed almost exactly the same as her friend in spite of being two inches shorter.
That didn't mean she was overweight, however. Farah easily fit into a size 8 dress, but when she was feeling a little down, the fact that her friend still wore a 6 with ease could make things worse. Lastly, Farah was at best a full B while Traci was...stacked.
When Ben was alive, none of that had mattered. He'd made her feel like the most beautiful woman on earth. And anytime she'd tried comparing herself to Traci, Ben had always found a way to convince his wife that she was the more attractive woman.
"Beauty's in the eye of the beholder, honey," he'd told her many times.
But what she'd loved most of all was hearing how not every man preferred big boobs. Or blondes. Or...Traci.
The one time she'd tried to prove him wrong, he'd shot her down in a way that made her never again wonder if he meant it. At least not while he was alive.
He asked her to imagine Traci's husband Cody, who was as handsome as his wife was beautiful, then to imagine him standing side by side with Ben.
"Who do you find more attractive?" was the question he asked.
Farah hadn't needed even one second to provide the answer.
"You. Of course," she'd said immediately.
"But most women would chose Cody, wouldn't they?" he rightly observed.
"Yes, but I'm not most women," she replied, feeling good about how she was thinking on her feet.
What she'd just said was the truth. To her, Ben was far more attractive than Cody who was so good looking he seemed almost...plastic...like a Ken doll or something. In contrast, she thought Ben was...yummy. And over the years she'd had girlfriends tell her the same thing.
"And I'm not most men," he told her with a wink and a smile.
He then took her hands and said, "Listen. It doesn't matter what every other man on earth thinks—even though I know many of them think like me. What matters is what I think. And I think you are far more attractive than Traci. Okay?"
After that, she'd let her petty jealousies go. But her resolve had slowly faded since the day Ben's life had been taken during a short-lived incident of road rage that ended with Ben, as well as one of the other drivers, dead, after swerving to avoid a third crazed driver hellbent on running another man off the road.
It all began when the first driver passed the second guy's car then cut back in right in front of him. Other witnesses said it didn't appear to be intentional. He just didn't have the amount of time he thought he had, so he'd had to pull back into the right lane in a hurry. The driver he'd 'cut off' took it very personally and went berserk.
He began by tailgating the first car just inches behind it while traveling at well over 60mph in 45mph zone. The first time he had an opening, he whipped out into the left lane, looked over and angrily cursed at the other driver, then pulled back in front of him even more sharply than the way it had happened to him.
