I knew this wasn't gonna work out. Something inside me kept telling me the tutoring I was getting from Erik wasn't working out. The whole time we went through the equations, my eyes peered off towards his chest. He smelled good too. Maybe he was wearing whatever because of me, but I don't think so.
I'm Sara and a member of the school's drama club. I'm a senior and one of its leading members. In other words, as a leading member I get first shot at leading or supporting roles, depending on the character. But since this is my senior year, I've slacked off on everything. The only thing I've taken seriously is my senior project and partying. I've been accepted at Marquette in Chicago, but if my GPA drops below 3.0 they could rescind it. I've dropped to a 3.1 from a 4.2.
I've been partying, staying up late and chatting or blogging, or hanging out at friends. I got my grades and not so good a surprise. My parents, especially my dad, were all over me. He called the school. Even though I'm 18 and have been for 5 months, it was fully explained to me I didn't make any personal decisions until I could support myself; I would not make any choices for myself, unless deemed necessary.
Being tutored after school, I loved his help. Erik was nice. He overlooked that I was a chubby girl. He overlooked my grungy appearance. He tutored me regardless because he took pride in his grades, intellect, and knowing he could help others. He treated me fairly. But I didn't pay attention enough.
Erik to me, although preppy and athletic, was also a hottie. Yes he was. He'd smell good every time. I was in one class with him last year and he never smelled so nice. We sat behind one another too, so I know he didn't wear whatever it was he put on then like he did for tutoring me.
He'd look me straight in the eye. He smile and when he did, I melted. His dad was a teacher at the school. They looked a lot a like. Erik always looked older and his dad never looked as old as he was. His dad was around 50 but didn't look older then maybe 35? He was a former athlete too and is an assistant football coach. He keeps in great shape. Erik's dad is the one who put me onto Erik.
Now it was test time and I thought I was ready for the test. After taking it, I was called up to speak with Mr. Burke. He told me Erik thought I was making good progress. He said Erik thought I was a little distracted and wanted to know why.
What was I gonna tell my teacher? That his son was a hottie and I wanted to get it on with him? No, I wasn't gonna tell him that but then I noticed something after talking to Mr. Burke. He smelled just like Erik did. He had the exact same scent. I loved that scent. I wasn't sure how I felt about it on him, but he is a good looking guy for 50 years old.
And since he wore that cologne or whatever it was, I thought "Wow, he smells awesome. He's cute too even though he's a lot older." Looking at him I noticed how attractive and even sexy he could be. I thought he's actually in good shape too. He had broad shoulders, slender like frame, manly squared chin, and nice big hands too. He even had that same friendly smile Erik had. He could be dreamy I guess, if I thought about it.
Now I know that sounds crazy, but after he questioned me, and I didn't really listen to his questions too much, all I did was think about how good looking he was in comparison to his son Erik.
I know I didn't probably have a chance in you know what in getting together with Erik and Erik probably wasn't interested in me at all, but I didn't know one way or the other, but I did hear one thing Mr. Burke said that caught my attention.
"Sara, there's a way you can help me out. Erik lives with his mom part of the week. Erik's dating a girl, but I don't like her. There are two things I want you to do for me. I'll assure you that if your grade doesn't cut it this time, I can make sure it improves and big time."
I was leery but I agreed to it whatever it would take, unsuspectingly, to get my grade up and improve my GPA. He asked me to dig up the dirt on this mysterious girlfriend of Erik's. He asked me to come to his house this Friday after school and update him on what I knew. If I did that, then for sure I'd see at least a B+ if not an A on the test, regardless.
I expected an A anyways, but since I had been having problems overall, I doubted myself and as naΓ―ve as I was I guess I agreed to his requests. I went ahead immediately and started calling my friends, looking online on 'My Space' and other similar web sites. I found out a lot about her. Friday came and right after school, I went home, changed into a different outfit which was a little preppy for my style.
He was there and his door was open and I rang the doorbell. He walks up in a polo shirt, jeans, and a glass of iced tea. Smiling, he opens the door, invites me in, and offers me one too. We sit down and get down to business.
First he compliments me on my grade. He stands up, walks over next to me, and shows me my test score. Damnit, he smelled awesome. He wore that same scented fragrance he wore the other day and that Erik, his son wore all those times. "Mmmmm god it was distracting but incredible" I said to myself I don't know how many times.
He saw I had a 'disturbed' look. He asked softly and politely if something was wrong. I bet he knew, but I didn't let on except my focus sucked. I couldn't focus. All I could think about was that fragrance on him. "But he's 50 years old damnit" I would say. "I know, yes I know he's attractive, but he's 50 years old!"
"What is wrong" he asked me again. I didn't tell him. "Alright tell me about this girl Sara; tell me everything you know." I went ahead and gave him the full skinny on the girl. He seemed satisfied. "One last thing and you can leave. You seem upset or something's bothering you. What is it Ms. Kerry?" I wouldn't say what it was. I wanted to tell him, but I didn't want to give him the wrong idea. I didn't want him to think, like Erik, I thought he smelled sexy and it was attractive on him.
He was a young looking 50 year old man. But regardless, even though he might look only 35, still 35 was way too old for 18. Any way it's sliced and diced, 35 was too old for me too.
"I'm all alone tonight. My friends aren't around either; what do you say to dinner with me? I make a mean chicken casserole. It's delicious. I'd love to know more about your plans, goals, and aspirations too. I've always loved you as a student. By the way I'm giving you an A for the quarter.
But either way, stay the evening and have dinner; let yourself get to know me better. I'm not what I seem to be you know Sara. He sweet talked me, somehow, into having dinner with him. It was incredible how I let myself say yes. I felt at ease with him. It was a little like being around Erik. Their mannerisms were so similar. They sounded alike. He was cordial, sweet, and so polite, and that scent broke down my emotions too.
"Did Erik ever tell you how pretty he thinks you are" he asked me. "Do you think you're an attractive girl?"
What the fuck I thought to myself. Who is this guy? I'm a chunky 5' 5" with thick ankles, thick calves, stout thighs, and round ass along with a chubby upper body. My tits aren't all that big, but I've been told I am pretty. I have real pretty eyes and a cute smile. Even my hair is silky and pretty, but I'm fat.
"I'll take that as a no and you're wrong if you think otherwise. I like what you look like. Looks aren't a big thing to me. People come in different shapes and sizes Sara. It's whats here and here that matters most" as he pointed to his heart and mind respectively.
I smiled and agreed with him as I nodded my head. "I like this guy. He's cool I think" thinking to myself. We sat down to dinner, and he pulled out a bottle of wine, but second guessed himself. He put it away. "Oh its okay sir, I drink it at home often." He said it is illegal and couldn't serve me. I went along with him and we ate dinner.
He was sweet, complimentary, and he gave me the once over, many times. His eyes followed my figure from my hair, face on down to my chest where it couldn't go any further since the table stopped him from checking me out. I wasn't sure what to make of it. He brought out two coffee cups. Initially I didn't know what was in them. He wanted wine with his dinner, but gave me a cup with something in it too. It did taste good what was in it; it complimented the meal. I drank the sweet concoction down while eating the chicken casserole. Finishing up, he offered one more cup of the said concoction. I accepted and happily too. I offered to start cleaning up. The air smelled of his cologne. The atmosphere was great. I felt at home. He made me feel at ease too. He could converse with the best. Carrying out the dishes to the sink, I began washing them. He asked all sorts of questions while bring in the last of everything.
Standing behind me, I didn't know he was there. He must have been looking at me from behind. I was rinsing and putting some dishes in the dishwasher for him.
All of a sudden two hands wrapped themselves around me from behind. I couldn't escape and I wasn't expecting him to do anything like he did. I was scared. I was worried. I had never been involved with anything like this before. I wanted and tried to escape his light hold on me.
"It's okay Sara, I understand. But you are pretty. You are, well I'd even go as far as saying you are a sexy girl too. Yes, yes Sara you are. I can prove it to you too."
"NO, please don't Mr. Burke. I know you think I'm pretty, but well I'm not sure I think I feel the same. I don't think I feel right. I mean, yeah I like how you smell. I like the scent you are wearing sir, but I'm not sure I'm attracted to you."
"I feel some chemistry Sara. I do and I'm not a desperate man. No, no I'm not. I just think, and I feel you are one sexy young woman but, you don't realize it yet. Do you ever look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself or tell yourself 'I am sexy, yes I am.' Do you ever get out of a shower and look at yourself and wonder if boys think that about you?"
"During class I have. At night I have. I think about a few of you. I think to myself what a pity it is some of you don't see how much of a woman you really are. It's a pity that you might not realize how sexy you are or could be. I've wished I could prove that to you. I've wished from the bottom of my heart I could show you what I mean Sara."