"I can't go inside. I feel embarrassed. I don't even know where to start.
And to ask for help? There's no way!"
As I sat in the parking lot I was conflicted for a good 15 minutes.
It has been months since I've had any. It's not an option anymore.
I needed it.
If I wasn't going to get a real one I might as well splurge and get something close.
I can feel my heart in my throat. I couldn't stay in the car forever.
Finally I go inside.
It was a small shop with one rack in the middle filled with lubricants. The rest of the product was hanging from the walls. Even if I wanted to hide I couldn't. Well, at least until I saw a back room with beads hardly covering the explicit movies.
"Hello, welcome in!"
An echo from the back. I hear the beads clicking together as HE comes out.
Of COURSE it's a he. I don't know if it was due to my insatiable craving for a man's body or if this guy was insanely attractive. Maybe both?
"Heh.. Hello!" I forced the confidence.
He comes closer to the front. I can see clearly, he is HOT.
Steel blue eyes and the shiniest hair I've ever seen on a male. A medium brown with subtle curls and a bit of side bangs that went just past his ears. About 5'9 and a smile that could hypnotize.
His eyebrows were gentle, yet strong. The kind that have their own personality.
Can you get turned on by eyebrows?
I tried not to stare since I was the only one in the store. It was almost midnight, the time the shop closed.
I finally speak after what seems like forever.
"I'm sorry I came so close to you closing. I'll try not to be long." I give a half smile but I'm so shy I can only glance into his eyes for a split second until I divert.
"It's all good. I have literally nowhere to be after I'm off so I have all night. Take the time you need and let me know if you have any questions."
He has ALL night? I feel myself tense up with those words.
"Thank you... I was wondering what are the most popular toys?"
I don't know how I was able to blurt that out but my body was feeling the warmth.
I said it without looking directly at him.
"Do you have a preference on size?"
He was speaking with complete professionalism, it's his job!
I need to calm down. First time is the most difficult for anything.
"I don't think so. This is actually my first time visiting a place like this so I might be a bit uneducated."
He smile and nodded. Walks over to the wall closest to the register, beelining for 2 vibrators. Comes within 4 feet of me and holds up one blue box.