I just can't get what he said out of my mind. With me, laying there, on his bed, waiting for him to come and take me, he tells her "I love you" those words echo threw my head. All I can think about, then I realize, I can't do this. I quietly set up and get out of his bed. He looks at me confused. Bewildered about why I stopped, why I took to my feet. I try to explain to him, best I can "WHY" I can't do this. Although physically capable, my mind ate at me like a dog on a bone. I try to tell him, how I feel soo horrible, as if "I'm" the one cheating. He doesn't seem to understand. I lay down over his feet, he says its ok, they were cold anyways. I look up at him threw the hole between his legs and he smiles. How can I say no to those gorgeous eyes? How can I let myself say no to this chance...
A bolt of lighting sends me back into my thoughts. I need to get some fresh air or I'm never going to get this done. Calling him would be a waste of time. I need to move, to be out. Even in this storm, it's better then being cooped up in this small room. I grabbed my jacket off the hanger, and put it on, then I grabbed my keys. I'll drive. It's to dangerous to be out walking in this. Just driving may keep my mind off this. I get into my car , and look down in the passenger set. There, laying on it's side, is a small box. I'd meant to of giving it to him that night, but I didn't. Things just didn't go how I wished for them to. So I kept it in my car. I opened it, and looked at the small pendent. Such craftsman ship to make such a small thing. It worried me to know I hadn't taken it back, or thrown it out. Why can't I just give in to my brain, and stop trying to think with my heart? I pull out of my drive way, and make my way threw the town. I don't know exactly where I'm going, just. driving. I see the sign for the exit I take to get to him. God I remember just the other night taking this road... it was just so wonderful..
I looked up at him, at his cute smile, and thought to myself. What's wrong with a little pleasuring. I mean, I'm single. I start to talk to him about why I can't have sex with him. I unbutton his pants as we talk, and slid his pants off. I look down at his black boxers and smile. God what I'd do to be able to make love to him. Nothing would please me more this night then to do this. I smiled and pulled down his boxers, revealing his now hard cock. I smile to myself while he's talking and in the middle of him explaining to me why he can't, I slide the head of his cock into my mouth. I could hear his eyes roll back into his head when I slid it back out. This was what I called fun. I took it back into my mouth sliding it in, all the way till it hit the back of my throat and then, down into my throat.
I could hear his moans of enjoyment. I was so hot and wet. This got me going even more. I started to move a little faster. He moved my hair out of his way so he could view as his dick went into my mouth and dissapeared, then reapeared just as quickly. I could hear him getting close and all of a sudden he tells me to slow down. I look at the time, damnit. It's already 11. I was sappost to of been back at 12. It's a 45 minute drive. I can wait a few more minutes. Then I relize, if I wait, he might talk me into making love. God how i'd love it. I just can't. I tell him I'm going. He tells me I'm not. Saying that I couldn't do that to him, that I had to finish. I climb on top of him and straddle his waist. I Smile down at him softly, and try to explain, he's so set on me staying and finishing it. I can't look him in the eye. I can't stay. I look at him, he tells me if I'm going to go, then to go, befor he changed his mind. The look on his face sent pain to my heart. How could I be doing this. I know it's not right. I should be there, making love with him, not arguing over if I was going to finish giving him head or not. I don't know what to do. I have one shoe off, and one on. I walk over to him, with my pants half way unbuttoned, then slide them half way down reviling my panties. I ask him if he likes the frogs on them, and he smiles and says yes. Then he askes me why I'm doing this to him, teasing him in such a mannor. He gets up and comes over to me, pressing his cock up against my leg. God I wish I could feel that in me right now.. He slides my pants down right below my crotch and I help him with them the rest of the way. I take them off then slip back under the covers of the bed he comes after me. He places himself on top, and kisses my lips. He then moves down to my stomach and kisses it softly. He keeps moving downward and then I feel his fingers on my clit. Oh how long i've waited this night to feel that. To feel some part of him on them. With my panties still on, he started to finger me slowly, rubbing my clit and then running his finger in my hole. God the sensations I was feeling they were unbeleavable! Then, without removing my panties, he started to eat me out. That did it, I thought I was going to die if I didn't have his hard cock in me, right then, right there. I told him, that I wanted to do it. I wanted to make love with him. He was astonished. He got up and turned the lights off then came back and got ontop of me and kissed me. God I wanted him soo bad. I asked him about a condom, he gets up to go look, and comes back empty handed. This literally upset me beyond anything. I had wanted him so bad I could feel him in me, but without protection, I couldn't risk it. I couldn't risk having a child for an hour of pleasure. I tried to tell him, but he kept pressuring me, and trying to get me to go with it. SLiding his dick up against my pussy, until finally I couldn't stand it. I told him that if he wanted to, we'd better do it befor I changed my mind. I knew it was the wrong desision, but yet, it was right. He slipped my panties off softly and then told me to hold his dick. I sat and ran my hands over it, up and down as if giving him a hand job. Then I stuck it over my clit and rubbed it there for a few moments. He slowly started to stick it in me. When he was in, he started going in and out. I couldn't of wished for anyting more. The feelings were amazing! I started to moan and he did as well, I wanted to just wrap my legs around him and pull him in as deep as I could get him, just a few more inches, god, anything to have him all up against my body and inside of me..
The buzzing of a car flying by me broke my thoughts again. I noticed I was heading towards his place. I was almost there. How time flies when your having fun. These thoughts were driving me up a wall. I couldn't believe I was doing this. I was going to see him, and then what? Ask him to forgive me? Ask him if we can start over? I couldn't do that. I'd be the weak one. I couldn't let myself seem like that. If only we had kept going.. if only..
He told me to slow down. I looked up at him. He tells me there's something wrong, that he couldn't do this. Inside I was screaming no, I wanted him to keep going I wanted him to go all the way, but my brain was yelling YES!! THANK YOU! I knew it was wrong. He got up, and grabbed his pants and told me I had to go. I was in shock. I laid own on the bed and buried my face in the pillow. He came over and sat next to me and plaid with my hair. Saying he couldn't do it. I got up, got dressed and agreed. He agreed to walk me to my car. He stopped at the door and placed his head against the wall and told me how we could behaving the best sex of our lives right about now. Then he slowly lead the way to my car. We walked to it, and I got in. Another car was near by so he didn't want to give me a kiss, afraid they knew him, and his girlfriend. I backed up and started to leave. I ran my car up beside him and stopped he reached in and kissed me long and hard, very very nice. I smiled and left..