You sit by your window and gaze out upon the moonlit grass and the night is illuminated by it's beautiful brilliance. The sadness that permeates your soul is reflected in your face and the tears stream silently down your cheeks in rivulets. Contemplating your life, the loneliness and the hours spent wondering if things would ever be the same again.
There is silence all around you but for the beating of your heart. Even the night is incredibly quiet no breeze, the owls let out a "hoot, hoot" that is both haunting and sad as it breaks the quiet of the stillness of the night. Your arms wrap themselves around you as you rock to and fro, lost in your sadness.
Where is he why hasn't he called, he doesn't realize that you wait an eternity for that one phone call, a message or something. Just to let you know that he is OK maybe just thinking about you as you are thinking of him. You knew even before it really started and grew to these proportions that he wouldn't be able to give you much of his time.
What you dared to believe or could even imagine would be clearly deemed as unrealistic and not feasible. Why do you berate yourself and wait for something that isn't going to happen? Truly you are not thinking rationally you tell yourself, he is just a pipe dream and it is never going to come to fruition. Your mind tortures you, but you know what is inside of him and that he cares for you so very deeply.
You are vulnerable inside, so wound up that you feel as if you want to run and hide and never return to the light of day. He brought you out of your shell and made you feel wanted and needed again. When you have been the princess locked away in her ivory tower for so long and one day you know that your prince charming has come for you. He has set you free from your sexual oppression and you can once again give freely of yourself.
You allow him to see inside of you to open the floodgates of desire and he captures more than your heart, he has your body and all that you are in the very palm of his hand. You feel a sensation of unfathomable joy this freedom, a lightness of your soul and your spirit is free at last.
When he first noticed you, he was drawn to you immediately, your passion, your beauty, charm and sensuality. He adored your sensitivity and tender heart and you had an instant rapport with him. There was a comfort in knowing that you could probably talk for hours and never grow tired of hearing each other's voices. You were his flamboyant flower and you brought the sunshine into his life, that had been missing for so long.
He found you incredibly sexy and enjoyed your very vivid erotic mind. You fell in love with the man he was, the personality and his very sexy demeanor, there was something so amazing, tender yet beautiful and so heart wrenching in it's absolute poignancy. He made you feel amazing, desired, that you were special a woman to be cherished and adored. You fell for him from the very first time he spoke to you.
You felt vibrant again so very beautiful and sexy, your nipples would harden when you thought of him. The very essence of your womanhood was on fire for him..your honey pot becoming moist just thinking of what he would do to you. You could feel the trembling sensation deep down inside of you, shivering but not from the cold.
There was this glorious brightness like a white light of emotion that envelops you and you wanted to cry out as you felt him touch that very intricate part of your very core and femininity. You would lose control of your senses, vital and vibrantly alive and your sensuality absolutely illuminated by the brilliance of incredible eroticism.
Your heart races when you know that you have received a message from him, you feel almost giddy with emotion. He makes you feel like a young girl and you feel like dancing and twirling around the room. Your step is lighter and you feel rejuvenated by his words and his sexy messages. There is a small voice inside of you saying "be very careful, proceed with extreme caution, you've been hurt before and it will happen again if you are not exceedingly careful." There is that very rational part of you that tells you to watch it, please be careful you are so emotional sometimes and wear your heart upon your sleeve.
Standing in front of the mirror, you are naked and proud, shoulders back, chest thrust forward, your breasts large and firm, nipples hard and their color so very pretty a very vivid coral. Your waist is relatively small and tapers in and hips flare out with a slight emphasis, your body is supple, curvy and sexy. Your legs toned and fit like the rest of you and your "V" is lovely and soft...You know he likes your kitty shaven and so very smooth and so you keep that part of you bare, specifically for him. Your derriere is rounded and lovely, firm, those lush cheeks of yours a perfect fit for his strong, lean hands. You throw your blonde head back and your hair tickles as it slides down your back.