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For the past few years I have thought about many things that I had once considered taboo. I had just turned 18, a few weeks before, when I started being able to focus on the thoughts that would sometimes keep me up at night.
I had lived a very sheltered life, going to a private school, and relying on my parents for almost everything. I had a few friends, both guys and girls, but not any that I could talk to about anything of a sexual nature.
I had had only two boyfriends in my short life, neither of them having done more then perhaps a chaste kiss at my door after a date. I had longed for something more, something more forceful, arousing. I found myself frustrated with the people with which I had contact, none of the boys that I knew aroused those feelings in me.
I started looking for older guys, men that I thought would be able to fill that spot inside me that was crying out for fulfillment. I met the older guys at the mall, outside bars and clubs, where I would just happen to be. I would pay close attention to the older friends of my friends' siblings. I found that a lot of the men found my attentions arousing.
I had worried that I would be considered cute, or adorable, I could handle that, only if I was considered desirable at the same time.
My friend nicky had an older brother, he was 27, and I found that I was attracted to a few of his friends. At first I had been a little hesitant of acting on it, a fear of being seen as a little girl. I used the fact that I appeared older to my advantage. One of the friends that I met, his name was mike. Mike was tall, maybe 5'9, athletically built. He had brown hair and golden eyes.
He was 28, and I even found his age a turn on. The next time I knew that he would be at nicky's house, I planned a sleep over with her. I wore my sexiest outfit that I could put together out of the clothes that my parents would by me. I put on a black kilt, used for field hockey, and rolled it up so that it was a few inches above my knees, daringly hinting at the ass that it barely covered.